if i had you, that would be the only thing i ever need,
(if i had you adam lambert)
i'm sorry i can't say this out to you.

today was okay. woke up later! so sleepy after yesturday! went to vivo with parents, to macs for breakfast. then to spca! miracle wasn't there any more, hope she was adopted by a family who could care for her. played with the cats and dogs. then went back home, watched tv. had chinese tuition. went to grandma's house for dinner. texted and talked to a few people. thanks a lot! <3 if you're helping me but i don't manage to see it, i'm sorry and thank you! so any way, played with cousin. and talked to her. she's getting into korean songs! OMG! hahaha! played with grandma too! card games. i-d-i-o-t and go fish! till about 9 plus, then went home. called yoges, talked for about 1 hour 15min, then called leechin! today seems like a long day. believe me, i want to tell you why, but i can't. telling you will only make things more complicated. if you want, feel free to think about what i said.  its kind of obvious already, i've been like that for so long. soon you may even know who.....

lit fest!

racial harmony day!

so this week has ben okay. chem test is a disaster, hope its not counted for ca2.
monday
pe. napfa. need to retake! did so horribly! lessons in school was okay.went back after bio and tried to do some work. then slept in the afternoon. so tired!! can't remember much of today. don't want to.

tuesday
was okay. morning training, wish you were there. can't cope alone. school was usual. mrs fung said she couldn't let us go off early for lunch, so we had to get some light packet food to eat in class. yog, brought a lot of sweets! haha! it was raining, so we were in the hall for the whole time. leaders had to go on stage, then lead the rest. it was quite boring, this yog training. and finally realised, if not for what she has done, you all would not have talked to me! OMG! so anyway, thanks a lot for telling me what's wrong. after so long, after everything that has been happening, what you all did, at least you all are nice enough to say out what you think is wrong. not just walk away and ignore. and thank you for that. guess it still means something. finally feel more relieved, though nothing is solved.

wednesday
so any way, its been a long and emotional journey, and that's its ended. but at the cost of something else. thanks for 6 months plus of good memories, fun times, laughter with you all. its been great. i'm hoping you take the good memories with you and keep them, think of them sometimes. all the way to the end, i'm thankful that you still gave me a form of encouragement. thanks sha, for helping so much!! so at training, wasn't in a really good mood. stilll, its an okay training, nothing much to talk about.

thursday
lin lao shi was not there for chinese, did chinese compo. and band members went off at 10.20, so lucky! they got siver!! yay! congrats!! went home at 2.25 today, earliest for the week! slacked a bit at home. slept at 4, wanted to put alarm at 5pm, but it was 5am and so didn't wake up! missed mtv jk!!!!! :( any way, finished up undone homework for the week and just relaxed. one of the days were there's nothing much to do. but was so tired!

so today was not too bad!
morning training, well, was not in the mood for it. not in the mood for anything!! any way, went to help with the napfa stuff. and sorry, we were a bit mean to you, walking together but leaving you out of the conversation. don't take it to heart okay!! didn't mean to do it! well, in the end, trained for a while. and mr francis talked to us about yog stuff. so we have no CA2!! so happy!! and a lot of homebased learning, which means a much more carefree term that i thought it would be. even with YOG ending late, guess its worth it if there's fun and laughter and friends! amath, we are going to have a trigo test on monday!! how???? so hard! chinese,  we did the test. idk how to do it! hope will go well by chance! cos its counted in ca2. recess passed and it was okay. bio, did the quiz! full marks! yay! eng, did the compo. mrs rohan was not there and the teacher that came in allowed us to listen to music whilst doing the work, so it was fun!
after school, went with yoges to kellock. wanted to get a cab, but no cab!! so irritating! waited for like 15min??? then took a bus, and a cab, and went to her house. after dropping her sister off, went down intending to buy some food. but then got a call to say that sec3s were going to board the bus soon. OMG! panicked!!! so rushed to get a cab and rushed back to school. got so many calls. so scared will miss the bus!!! sorry everyone, made you all wait. so the bus ride was fun! thanks for sitting with me! and for sitting with me on the way back too!!!
so we reached the place for rehersal, sat down and waited. then did the parts we knew. and the teachers spent about 1 hour plus doing up the blazing the trail from the star formation. so long! so meanwhile, we just talked, and created our own fun! thanks a lot for accompanying me! really! and for being so understanding. i know i can trust you! :) had dinner around 5? it was noodles and some really oily fried stuff. sat with nasuha and ayilisha, kept laughing at things! went back for rehersal. moved front in the triangle. the part from triangle, to whirlpool, to bird, to heart, is so exhausting. just plain running or sprinting and dancing. literally sprinting from the whirlpool to the back of the whole bird back to teh front corner of the wing. then the dance!!! OMG! need more stamina! hope its really worthwhile doing this and it will actually look okay. so that's about all for today!

yeah, its over. its like i'm riding solo! you think its hard for you to do that? its hard for me too okay! so stop complaining so super loudly withing earshot or writing mean things yeah!

cousin's at my house now! yay!

so today, woke up late! cos wanted to sleep late! and so would not have woken up and really got out of bed if someone hadn't called. anway, went to eat dimsum with parents chinatown! went to grandma's house to give her egg tarts. had car wash! fun! then chinese tuition at tiong. went to grandma's house for dinner. early dinner at 6. and had muah chee too! the adults had durian. don't like it! left around 7. went to kellock with cousin. dad waited for us outside. we were there around 7 plus. so the stalls were packing up already. left the performance in the hall. so went around the school, then to the hall. saw yoges. so she followed too! and also saw alot of other theresians. most importantly, saw teachers!!! mrs linda tan, mrs janet tan, ms chia, mrs chia, ms sharon tan, miss tay, and a lot more teachers!!!! yay! mdm tan too! finally! never seen her since we left school. she looks well! :) then we got bored in the hall, went to play netball. so fun! and yoges!! what you said to my cousin!!! you're going to get it soon!!!!! a lot of other people got a netball too. haha! we took ours from the pe store room. miss the pe store room. and after a while, a few others also took a ball. so played and shot with the ball. then some teacher was waving and pointing to tell us to keep the ball. so we did. went to water cooler! haha! then to the hall again. then went down  to the gate B foyer. talked and talked about random suff. told jokes and quotes. then dad came and we left. came home with cousin. went online, and watched x-men, wolvevine. some story about him. and that's all. its 11 plus already!

miss kellock so much!!! glad i went back today. brings back so many memories. all the childhood good times. in some way, kellock and everybody there has impacted the way i am now. kellock is forever
important!!!!!

went to school about 7 plus? for morning training. was a little late cos of some stuff at home. sorry..... well, morning training was okay. then the team played monkey. abigail, trisha, yoges and i did shooting on another pole, thanks! did semi d drills. partnered yoges and jacob. fun! great way to start a day. had duty, then went to the hall. saw the band performance. was good! imagine the amount of hard work they put in for the songs and performance. maybe after stc, in jc, will join some performing arts for a change. saw videos of ocip laos and vietnam. so touching! and now i feel like wanting to go for ocip already!!!! hope i'll pass the interview!
today's lessons, well, was okay, amath we did work! got back amath sa1 papers. wished we could get back our test. chinese, our teacher, lin lao shi, was being observed by the other 3 teachers teaching chinese in sec3 level. jiang lao shi was there! band 1, band 3, band 4 teachers. chinese was still interesting and fun! bio went through the bio worksheet. a lot of mistakes!! had a short lunch. sushi! had a heavier recess. for the first time in idk how long, wore orange shirt. sec3s were let off at 12.40, lunch till 1.15, then took a bus to rp, for the floorball finals. sat with tina! thank you!!!!! floorballers played well today! first place!! score, 5-1. they really did well and deserved it. sec3s cheered and cheered!! left rp after the match and went for YOG.

slight drizzle when we arrived. went to rectangle formation first. talked and laughed with alicia, yoges, trisha, raya, huimin. waited a long time! 'bullied' yoges, according to her. in the end, from the rectangle to the star, only need to move 2 places. brought sweets, next time must bring a lot more! tuesday, promise to bring A LOT OF SWEETS FOR YOU!!!! went to choose our nominees for house captain. confidential vote. mini 2c gathering. all the memories from 2c. and look what we have become today! so we went to wait, and wait, and wait for our dinner to come. the other levels had theirs first. talked to jolin, chingyi, halie. and nasuha. got desert, jelley! with sheryl for the class. so we actually had desert before our meal! the other levels went to the rectangle again whilst we waited longer for our food. sat with jolin, chingyi, halie, zann, denise yong, yoanna. played truth or dare once, then would you rather. very fun!!! thanks a lot!!! had dinner. noodles. couldn't finish it, so gave to denise and yoanna. went back to fomation, did the formations with music. had to alter the heart a lot of times. the rest was okay, just need to count. and once, ran out too early from the circle after the triangle. my fault!!! sorry!!!!! otherwise, yog was okay. sat with tina on the bus back. haha! kim lim and chingyi was disturbing tina! but it was fun! and she's so nice!

so that's all for today!
stress level is back. idk why. today was an okay day. but did little to relieve the stress. for you all, i'm sorry. i've helped others, but in the end, when you all have problems, i can't help. and in the end, we just become distant. i've failed my duty as a friend to you all. somehow, hate you for doing this. giving me false hope, lies! so much for letting me become close to you, then after that hurt me by leaving! to you, cheer up. if there's anything wrong, can always tell me okay!



so today, begin with waking up at 5? around there. slept at 10. well, in someway, its good. sleeping early, although my energy level is the same, and still feel tired, it stops me from thinking too much and feeling more hurt inside. all the emotions inside, feel like telling someone. its getting a little too hard to keep it inside, and its even harder to look okay on the outside and laugh, joke or appear normal.
but thanks to you all, for making me laugh and letting me have someone to talk to all the way. never felt alone once. thanks for cheering me up, for accompanying me and for just being there!!!!

thinking a lot about those past memories, happy times spent together. well, seems like its over. and if you are really happier with them, then just go. i'd rather you be happier with them then to feel stuck with me. just tell me straight out truthfully that you want to leave. its better for one to suffer then  two of us to right?
'if forgetting me will give you freedom,
oh tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye'
big bang, tell me goodbye

monday
had morning training. was a bit late, cos couldn't wake up. anyway, went to school in pe shirt. trained a bit. toe hurt. idk why. pe, we did 3 rounds on the outer lane, and was already dying! did volleyball. hand hurts so much after that! stupid volleyball! so went home at 3.35. nothing much to say.

tuesday
had morning training. 6.30!! wth. was supposed to be there at 6.30. but was a little late. abbicia, renie, jacob was already there, no actually was walking behind her all the way! the school was so quiet. so scary. and so we sat there for a while.. talking... studied a bit. cos had amath test after that. just did a simple drill and tried to do halfcourt. this girl, just walked in front of us and sat down there. haha! well, amath test was hard. but what to do? its amath..... nothing else to say for today.

wednesday
well, classes was okay okay. had emath test, well, its hard! congruence and similarity. hope i do okay. lit, we were scolded for being late... but ms tan gave us m&m chocs!! so nice! one packet each! that's where i got the chocs from btw! had lunch with xiulin and meiyi. changed, got ready for training. trisha, thanks a lot for coming for training. could not have done it without you. well, after all that has happened, guess training is still the place and time that i can relax and not think about all the problems and worries. that's one thing i'll miss when i stop netball. will lose the place and time of 'refuge' where i can just not think about all other stuff. push out all the unhappiness inside. and just enjoy. and today's training, jacob, thanks for all the encouragement. so training, we did 8 rounds. stamina is horrible! then had steps. 4 sets. did some other drill, idk how to explain, also 4 sets. team was divided into 2, so one group each. split into 4 groups at 4 points, then threw either a lob or straight pass. hmmm... how to throw a ball with the hand just going out in front and not to the side? and how to not spin the ball???? split into groups of 3, did some passes. 3 to each group, 2 throwers one. then jacob, julia and i did some GA drill. okay, i cannot shoot anymore! was so tired! and thanks for being so encouraging and patient. it really helped you know. just wanted you to know that. finally the shooter, defender, attacker drill. euginia was the only gs, so she played gs with all of us, and i played gs when jacob was ga. haha! need to work on communication, but think we're alright as a team. it was so fun!! working with you. the last part of training, she asked us to stand in one line with our bottles, and the team was somehow told that we were doing suicide run during the break??? so weird. but haha! already knew we were drinking water only. so she told the team to just stand in a line, then said drink water! whole senior team was like' huh? no need to run?' or ' run and drink'?? haha!! funny expressions!!! OMG! walked to the bus stop with trisha and jacob. we did something terrible! haha! so any way, thanks a lot to the two of you, for training! :)
abigail, yoges, better come for training soon okay!
went home. was so tired! grand dad came over for dinner, so only started doing work at 8? till about 10. then just went to the bed and slept! the effects of sleeping so early, when i'm used to sleeping late? woke up at 2am and 5am! looks like my body is used to a few hours of sleep only.

thursday
dispite the long sleep, still felt tired today. guess long sleep has no effect! history test was okay. hope i got the correct words for fill in the blanks. and at recess, met yoges outside her class. talked for a brief moment then went down. thanks for accompanying me down to the canteen and talking to me. you really helped to brighten my day. and if there is something wrong, can tell me okay!! don't stress yourself too much. chinese was fun!! lin lao shi told us a lot of funny jokes and stories. i can never enjoy chinese more! really! chinese lessons are great now! thank you. ve, went to the ava room with 3d. sat with kim and xiulin, behind, qiying and lena. qiying, lena, paintbrush!!! OMG! i suddenly miss 2c, and the time i played with the paintbrush with them. and off course, the time when we were so close was when we were both in 1c/2c. recess time.... it hurts to think of it, after what we have become now. for ve, we watched a few videos. on beauty. like chinese feet bounding, the long neck tribe. after school, went to meet jenisa! went to eat macs with her for lunch. was craving for macs. had so much fun!! she's the same as in sec1!! so much laughter about everything and nothing. haha! only the both of us will understand. went back to my crazy self. to the person i was. happy, relaxed! THANK YOU!!! one day we must meet up again!!!!! online now. take care of yourself okay!

posting again. today was okay. had emath tuition, then amath tuition, ended at 5. tiring. trigo for amath is killer. congruence and similarity for emath is killer!! OMG! how to do ca2 like this!!! went out with grandma and parents for dinner. so fun! family bonding. miss you mama!! although i just saw her last night, and saw her tonight, miss her now!! i can finally understand the meaning 'familiy will be there whenever you need them'. they give you comfort, safety, unending and undying love. just what i needed at the moment. finally. finally can relax more. and to top it up, thank you for smsing me so many times today. making me laugh on sms, guiding me, reminding me about the upcoming tests and homework without complain. listening to my ranting. cos my schedule last week was so disrupted and weird, could not make much sense out of what the homework was, what test was coming up and things like that. so thank you so much! for spending time to talk to me!!! <3 <3 <3 alicia lim
and this coming week! yay! going to be so much more free!!! monday ending at 3.30, tuesday at 2, wendesday at 6, thursday at 2.30, friday at 10pm. so not as bad as last week. tmr supposed to have morning training, so sudden. probably go if it is true. but still might have to resolve some stuff. need time to talk to you all. see how.... okay, its late, need more sleep!!!

'i need sombody to love....'
justin bieber. somehow got this in my head.... weird.

lit fest today!!!

so tired after yesturday's late night yog, then had to come online to send email to miss lee for lit script.

woke up at 6 today. well, tried to wake up at 6, got up later. reached school around 7.20. so not that late. thanks alicia, sonia, danii for coming down to support! so sat on the bus with helen. took a few pics, but camera went out of battery! so not many pics. reached the hall, went to talk to velvetina! yay!!! hahaha! miss you so much! had a talk by someone people in the hall. and this guest of honour, this woman... apparently she is quite famous.. and talked alot about poems and all. haha! the things she said! perfomance by the school about lit. it was quite good.
went on to watch 2c's animal farm. it was quite good. really. good job! then on to the pure lit girl's debate on the crucible(correct me if i'm wrong). it was good! OMG!!! our school was really goood!!!! yay!! won! against ACSI!!!! YAY!!! great job anjila, alexandra, tina!!! the standard was so high. it was like they kept rebutting all the way. had a short break before our debate. well, we thought it was a short break, cos had to be in the room by  a certain time but we actually had to wait a long time outside the rooom. so they practiced, rewrote the speeches. and timed it. we did things fall apart, group's motion was 'change is neccesary for survival' we were against it! hard!!! but well done nadia, sheryl, szeting! went on to the other groups' debate. motion was 'woman are...... to society' against that. quite easy. and our school won  too!!! GREAT!! karthika, ayilisha, helen!! and helen was best speaker! yay!! went on to the hall. had prize presentation. 2c got second for their room, cresent got first. well, cresent was good, but hey, 2c was great!! and also won another silver trophy for some mascot thing.
left with sonia. dad fetched. went for lunch at bukit merah. bathed before going for tuition. was so sleepy during tuition! went to mama's house after that. yi yi, yi en was there too. ate, talked, then slept there. was so sleepy! then came home.
called leechin on the phone as usual! so nice talking to you. thank you so much for lending a listening ear and for giving me so much advice. you're a really nice friend! you're really nice and helpful! :) <3 you!!!

if you laugh real loud, as if the whole world is yours
and you don't care what you look like
then you are with your good friends
thank you for telling me this! ( i got it from your blog)

today was fun! so today
went to school early, thought had morning run but it was cancelled. so went to the canteen, sat with janice and jiayi. then yoges, trisha, abigail came. we went up to class. talked to yoges till school started. had lessons. not too bad. amath, can finally do a bit!! yay! chinese we had to do letter writing revision. bio was okay, english was still a bit boring. after school, went to get lunch. sheryl and nadia to LJS, karthika, helen, ayilisha to koufu and i got pancakes! almost lost k, h, a as took a long time and they were leaving. then when we joined up together, nadia and sheryl caught up with us. so went back to school together. went to 4b classroom, no key, so we sat outside the class and ate. on the floor! hahaha! but we talked, talked, laughed, joked. so fun!!! ms lee came without keys. and she sat on the floor too! but she was a bit skeptical about it. went through lit speech till it was time for YOG. so we left the school and reached mandai army camp. sat in the hall. played with janice, karthika, elspeth, jiayi, xiulin, xingchen. so many games, so fun! hope we have more times together like this. had dinner around 5 plus 6. and we talked and played again. finally went down to the normal place after the opening ceremony people left. did the rectangle formation, then changed the heart thing. now cannot any how go into any where for the heart already! cos have fixed positions. ayilisha and i went to the toilet just before the heart formation, so when we came back, we just fitted in any where. haha! ended up the first layer to go out.rest of the time, it was just practice. and more practice. there is no rest time at all for YOG!! so have to continously do stuff. going to be very tired! talked to alicia a lot too. very fun talking to you. liven up my spirits. thanks. so today, 38 of us!! yay! almost full attendance! talked to yoges during break. just say it okay! if you need help. and don't think i don't know what you did! nothing much to say already. i know you're happier sitting with her, so just go ahead okay, no need to worry. i will be okay by myself.
YOG was great! the time before dinner in the hall, played with Janice, Karthika, Jiayi, Elspeth, Xiulin. i know things have changed and a lot of things are different now, but i'm glad that you all still allowed me to come with you. just playing and laughing with you all, i remember all those good memories. EFL, the time we had a cake to celebrate Elspeth's and Janice's birthday before flag day, party, outings. all so fun. miss those times. somehow, we've become more distant, you all may know that too, but i'll still keep those memories with me no matter what. these are what makes life enjoyable, tolerable. i don't want to believe that our friendship for so long will one day be lost or something like that. but playing with you all just now, just felt so happy. in case i never get a chance to say this, you all are really important to me and i want to thank you for all the fun, happy, enjoyable, memorable times we have spent together and all the memories we have shared together. THANK YOU.

so this week has been really stressful. homework, physical, emotional. its like everything into one. feel like breaking. sometimes, just feel like its breaking point. too many things happening.

monday
well, called a few friends to talk. wanted to destress a bit. went for tuition at 12. right in the middle of the holiday! went to tiong for tuition, then had lunch with grandma, da yi ma, da yi zhang. didn't want to go. but in the end, had fun! eating with them! got a pic with them mama and da yi ma! yay! came back home, just had to study for a history test that never happened. went out with dad to ikea for dinner. finally managed to spend time with dad, and unwind. mum was away on retreat.

tuesday
had morning run. 4 rounds, still a killer. did duty... went back to our class. heather came to our class! mrs leong and mr ng made it official. and sat with her for amath. school was okay. what else can i say about school? its just stress. any ideas on how to relieve stress and just out all the burdens and emotions down??? any way, mrs fung let us go at 1.40 for math. emath similarity is killer! went to find ms maggie lee for lit. then went to canteen to gather the class. sat alone in the bus. i know you're happier sitting with her, so just go ahead, its okay. rather then sit together and be quiet and bored right? yog was okay. well, fun! triangle to the bird formation is just pure sprint. first time was okay, second time was trapped into the first ring, right inside the circle and couldn't get out. third time just cut and cut people! then reach the bird only start dancing. no rest. how??? after dance, bird wings flap! that's okay. followed alicia into the heart. haha! so funny! didn't know where to go, so just followed her somewhere, and stood somewhere, had to lean forward. rectangle, finding the point is a bit hard cos we were in the wrong place in the heart. but it was fun! running with her to the heart shape. in the T!! not S! yay! got a very short break cos had to go back and practice the dance moves and all. sat in the rectangle for a long time waiting. under the hot sun. talked and laughed. alicia, yoges, trisha. and... someone..... can't spell her name. hehe. went home after that. just dead tired. mum was back  already!

wednesday
well, lessons were okay. tiring though. week 2 of term 3 is stressful!!!! too many things happening. so after school went straight for sec1 council nominee interview. not too bad. its confidential, so can't say anything else. then to lit fest rehersal. lasted till 5.45? well, at least i'm not a speaker! just a reserve, but still have work to do. worked in air con! yay! forgot to take shoebag out of the classroom! but thanks tina! helped me to take it! and passed it to me today. walked with sheryl and helen to return the key, then to the bus stop. went home, bathed, did homework then had to go out with parents for dinner. its their..... 16th or 17th wedding anniversary. came back late and still had to do work. slept late!

thursday
couldn't wake up in the morning! had VI. talking about black or white! haha! lessons were okay. have more homework! but the lessons today were not that bad. quite enjoyable. chinese, hoping the letter is not counted in ca2. and when is chinese ca2?? ve had to learn bio! wanted to do homework!!! oh yeah, for the first time in idk how many years, ca2 is before national day holidays!! yay!!!

so yeah, stressful week, just not writing why its so much more stressful here. need help to destress!!!! tmr'g yog. hope its fun! keep me laughing, you all! thank you so much! take my mind off things you know.

after so long, what have we become? strangers. just great right? why have we become like that? tell me, is it my fault that we have become like strangers? and when we were conincidentally together, there is so much tension. its like you've avoided me. i don't know why this has happened, why we are like that now. if its because of me, my actions, please tell me. we are at the point of no return now right? but please, if we reallly need to seperate, then please, take the good memories with you and i hope you remember them. cos i hope that you would remember all those times when we were still close, how fun it was, how happy it was. how much we meant to each other as friends.
and thank you all, for solving the seating problem. really, i'm sorry for causing so much stress to you and so much trouble to you all. and for being difficult. i just had a lot of things at that time, and wanted to sit with you all so that we can talk if anything happened. and a lot of other reasons. cos without you all, who else can there be? for now, just hope you all know that i'm thankful for you all. we may not seem as close as before, but i'm still thankful for your company. you all have given me great memories which are unforgettable.

lazy day today, nothing much to do. had first lesson of emath tuition for the term, and tmr cos its holiday, have more emath tuition. its like from 12 onwards, so how to go out? sorry, can't go out with you tmr, another time...... :( rest of the day, well, just slacked. tmr will start the real studies. somehow dreading next week. its so busy, stressful, and a lot of work! tuesday already have math test and history test, with YOG. and the possible changing of seats. well, you know what i mean. i don't need the additional stress right now. there's enough stress from everything! just wanted someone close to sit with me at this time. might wear orange shirt for yog. then wednesday, after school, will miss training, first part, interviews.... thursday is a free day!!! friday YOG again. hardly any time for studies. saturday lit fest. sunday cram tuition!!!! busy busy busy

so today... was okay. medicine finally has some effects! made me sleepy!! OMG! slept so early last night! well, early for a friday night. maybe cos was tired too? and woke up at 10am this morning! dad bought breakfast. it was raining very heavily, or we would have gone out for breakfast. had tuition at 12. and by 1.30, was already quite sleepy again! tuition was supposed to end at 2, but ended at 2.30. rushed to tiong for chinese tuition. also very sleepy. went home, then to grandma's house. only yi en and the three of us were there today. very quiet. ate, favourite! kong bac bao and salmon.. hehe! two times of salmon in two days! yay! raw salmon sashimi! played with yi en in the room. heard songs on ipod. she ate about 6-7 sweets and became high on it! suddenly laugh and laugh. played cards with grandma. mum was at the table too. played go-fish. so funny! yi yi came around 9. left mama house at 9 plus. so sad, saturday nights always pass so fast. i wish they would go by slower and the other days of the week can go past faster. thinking back, mama house, the one at telok blangah, was like my home. i was there for most of the time and many of my childhood memories are there. then at rumah tinggi, its quieter. but i do still look forward to the times that we can meet there as a whole family eating dinner together. hope this will never end. family is so important right now, i can't live without you all! thank you! i keep thinking about the times mama and i spent together. there were so many good, happy memories. how time has flown. every year, every month, every week, i see her, she changes little by little, going slower bit by bit. i don't want to lose her. i really don't.

okay, so this week has not been too bad. not too much homework, not too busy. next week, tuesday and friday is yog, wednesday training, which i will be late cos need to interview sec1s for council. seem to be skipping netball stuff a lot. all cos of studies or council. really sorry. and partners for life! get well soon!!! haha! monday and thursday is free. hoping to go out for lunch on monday. next saturday there's lit fest, debate on things fall apart, hope can do well and wake up on time! cos YOG the day before.

so this week
starts with monday
first day of school!!! went to the hard court early. gave out the rest of the souvenirs. morning duty. then pe. well, 3 rounds. and was already so tired! not even 7 min. how to survive 2.4 like that? lit was okay. history, well, ms vino is nice! but she is wasting a lot of class time to talk about random stuff. and we are pure history, should be going faster. good thing is, we went to the container room, got air con. bad thing, headache from morning and cough got worst. drank a whole 1 litre of water before recess even started. english we went through oral stuff, then go our new banding arrangement. with Elspeth, Xiulin, Christabelle and many other people from 3a. teacher is ms shivani. amath, well, the topic seems okay. not too easy, but not tough either. had lunch with friends! not netballers. had bio. went through bio stuff. and got our class relay! yay! missed the first part of training. cos class ended at 3.35. then went toilet and all. more of physical. did jumping over cones which i couldn't and left leg could not lift up high enough so went to the side instead of on top. stupid leg. tried doing at home, same problem. no more jumping over cones please! stairs, more drills. then played game. partnered Abigail for GA/GS. think i did better as a GS. but need to run and move. brought the sweets as promised! hope you all like the souvenirs and chocs too! had fun with you all at training. walked to the bus stop with 5 of us. its been a long time. walked 3,2. went home. high fever. and bad headache. at least not too much homework. and penadol works. relaxed at last on first day of school. if not for being sick, things will be okay!

tuesday
no run! yay! rained in the morning, assembly in class. but had duty. won't be joining you all for assembly for the whole term. sorry jiayi, no partner. my bag will be there to accompany you, and so will the rest. amath and history was okay, the usual. chinese, we changed teacher. going to miss ms lee ting ting. but what to do? the higher chinese girls have her now, hope they do well! o levels this year. new teacher is nice! but hard to accept so many teachers changing at once. but having gone through a hard change that lasted from last year to this year, at least didn't get too attached. learnt my lesson already. chem and math was okay. chem's topic on moles is a bit hard. thanks to Janice! who helped me with chem!!! :)

wednesday
lessons were well, not too bad. ss teacher, mrs gan, new one, loves hello kitty! but she seems quite happy with our class, so hope we do well. bio, we did transpiration, then firedrill. bad timing. head  throbbing whilst walking to the field. at least the walk was not that long. went back in time for 5min of pbl. need to do powerpoint by next week cos we are presenting next week! let me know if you all need help okay! lit was fun! went to the canteen. no appetite. ate medicine. felt better thankfully! good enough to train. training was a bit more quiet. jacob didn't come. normal stuff. didn't play as shooter for the drill. no game. just drills. sorry if i sounded a bit off walking to the bus stop and all. wasn't really feeling too good. was supposed to go to the doctor's. but didn't in the end.

thursday
lessons were okay. shall not elaborate. too much. ss was okay. new teacher, its okay. must keep reminding myself that must get used to change. rained so heavily after school. shared umbrella with Christabelle to the bus stop. dripping wet! went home. just knocked out on the bed after bathing. couldn't get up when parents came back. scared them. hehe! went to the doctor finally. high fever. well, hey, i knew that since.... monday? now i've 9....NINE! types of medicine to eat!!!! went home and slept. for the first time in a long while, straight sleep till morning! yay!

friday
well, woke up at 5 plus. mum didn't want me to go to school. but how to miss a day of school? and the medicine worked! no fever in the morning. went to school, council meeting. then duty. and yeah, morning run right, i'm sorry... really. didn't go for it. and yeah, this morning on the phone, wasn't in a good mood. i hope you understand. lessons were okay. bio did an experiment with Janice! fun! short day today! good thing. orals after school. sorry ____, cannot go out today cos of orals. another day okay! orals was okay. reading not too bad. picture was horrible. its about this plant place with a lot of water. and conversation was about helping people. came home! finally well enough to go studies! yay!!!!! went out for dinner tonight. sushi!! can't wait to get well and be normal again! oh yeah, 3a will have a new edition! Heather from 3d i think. can we not change place? please?

this week has been okay. thankfully its not really that stressful yet or it would have been worse. must get better by tuesday if not no yog. argued with mum about issues this morning. just great! and i'm sorry if i seem weird, unapproachable, angry and all this week. just give me some time to get well, sort some stuff out and i'll be okay....

so today is the last day of hols! well, looking forward to going back to school for some reason, but also dreading school, cos term 3 is going to be a horribly stressful term with a lot of extra activities like Netball and YOG and i've got duty for latecoming, which is sadly everyday! need to be in school earlier. and still need to study. which means no time for anything else. hmmm, any ideas on what to do after school on friday and  before YOG? its kind of long, but too short to go home and come back, cos it will be a waste of time.

anyway, today was a bit boring. wanted to sleep late but had tuition! hehe. amath tuition. went out, came back and finished chinese!!! yes!! finally! okay, so left amath and chinese tuition work, which i plan to do during the week next week if we can, cos now have to do some other stuff.

i hope you know that i still care and i know that what i've said cannot be undone. i'm really sorry for what i did, what i said.

so, time to post again!
thursday
woke up kind of early. didn't have much sleep at night, kept coughing. and waking up. hate having cough and sore throat! any way, went to Lot1 to meet twin. sorry, let you wait for so long! had lunch together! talked and talked about our lifes. sat at the food court and ate and talked. bought water. cos kept coughing. then we walked round Lot 1. wanted to watch a show, but no nice shows to watch that could fit our timing, so we took neoprints instead! yay!! it was in jap!! could not understand, except for yes, no, 1,2,3. haha! need to learn a bit more jap! it was fun! the best was the editing. 3 each to edit!! came out really nicely though! went to the library to get scissors to cut it. walked around in the library for a while. went to the rooftop thing outside to talk and talk and talk!!!! got some food from the basement, went back to the food court. sat down for a while. got macs icecream! even though i was coughing, just didn't care. twin had to leave, so we both left! an exciting day! outing with TWIN!!!!! :) :) :)

friday
went to school. finally!!! i can't say if i was happy to be there or not. guess it was good to live in a fantasy world for 3 weeks, no school, no problems, no need to worry about all those friendship stuff. things were normal, normal as in any other day, nothing different. i guess i expected too much. i guess i expected things to blow over fast and everything to be alright. it wasn't. i seriously thought things will be alright, but it wasn't. can we really be called friends if we are like this? or is it just pity or something like that? anyway, there was a heavy storm in the morning! we sat at a table then the rain kept coming in, so shifted. and our bags and all were so wet! for YOG, not many people came. less then 20 maybe? we just watched a video, the video that was taken on wed. then perfected the dance moves, and got the new dates for YOG next term.
went for lunch with abigail and yoges at koufu! we were there around 12 plus, sat till 1.30. was supposed to be a netball kind of clique, good friend outing. 5 people, but only 3 of us. anyway, we talked about a lot of stuff. had fun, but laughed over serious stuff? makes any sense?
went home to change first, then met mum at vivo. watched karate kid. it was a long but really good show! will smith's son acts just like him! and jackie chan is as good as ever! took a cab(london cab!!!!! nice!!! ) to grandma's house. sat yi zhang's new car, idk what brand, what model, to some restuarant. was there to celebrate yi ma's birthday. had a good meal. then yi yi bought 9 little tiramisu cakes for yima's birthday. 8 of us were there, mama, yima, yizhang, yi yi, yizhang, yi en, mum and me. dad was at another function, so the last cake was for him! didn't take a family shot, but a few other pics with my phone.
went back to mama's house. stayed over with yi en. was very tired, just changed, played tarot cards once. then went on the bed. ate medicine, slept! woke up a lot as usual cos kept coughing. a lot of hot water and more medicine. but slept a bit more.

saturday
woke up, bathed, changed. watched tv, played cards! then mum came to pick us up, went to tiong for sakae sushi! ate. talked. cousin left for a movie with her mum. fetched mama home. went home with mum. and slept! yay! 1 hour of undisturbed sleep! went for chinese tuition at tiong. then to mama's house again for dinner. only dad, mum, me and mama today. yima and yizhang were overseas. yi en, idk! so very quiet! came back, now online. was feeling very bad. but thanks to E who is smsing me till now, 1 plus! and just now lc, who called, and A, who's talking to me on msn now, its not so bad! thanks a lot! i know i've got friends. thanks! abigail, elspeth, leechin

yi ma's birthday!

twin outing!

what can i do when things have come to this stage? tell me what you want me to do now. i'm sorry, for not being there for you anymore, for not knowing you any more, for not being able to help any more, for not being close friends any more. you have meant a lot to me, idk if you know that, and you still mean a lot to me. cos you really are a good friend. missing your laughter, your smile, the way we used to talk, the way we used to share the same things are not keep any thing from each other. i miss those memories, and believe me, i keep thinking about them. i really thought we were really close friends. until now. when you locked your blog and not let me in, i knew.... and i'm sorry.
but thank you, to all friends, who have still continued to be my friend and been by my side when i've needed help, or need someone to talk to. like tonight, lc, thank you. your exams are so near and i know how much you want and need to study, but you still talked on the phone with me for about an hour. even at this hour. i'm really grateful for that. you've cheered me up. a lot! really thankful to know someone as nice as you. thank you.

this was the cake we bought. 3 candles for 3 of us!!!

haven't been posting for a while. well, need the rest, really. but its getting boring at home! its hols! and i want to go out! then again, my mc ends tmr, so can go out already. finally meeting twin!!!! yay! lot 1.... hope i don't get lost! hehe. never been there before. and i realised, we haven't talked a lot since april 9th, please, can we be close again?


monday
mum went to work a little late. woke up, had bread for breakfast. stayed in bed again! felt much better thanks to all the medicine. it is a lot! even managed to finish heymath emath assignments. mum left at about 11. then waited for grandma to come. she said she was coming! finally came! yay! had lunch with her. talked, talked, talked. well, she talked. i wanted to know about her history! and cos my voice is horrible, she didn't want me to talk much. then went to the bedroom, watched tv, slept. for like 3 hours? well, the medicine for cough is supposed to cause drowsiness, but it never really works on me. except that time. woke up, sat in the sitting room and watched tv with grandma! nice time bonding, really. miss her a lot! trying to spend more time with her now, even though i've got a very busy schedule. well, life is short. and no matter how much we want people to stay, they will have to leave one day. the time may come very soon, as grandma is getting old already! i don't want to regret not spending enough time with her, like my other grandma and granddad. they left before i could communicate with them properly. was so young. i wonder how they are doing sometimes. wonder where they are, wonder if they can remember us, wonder if they are watching over us. when my grandma left, i did dream about her. and i can clearly remember their faces. we used to go over to their house every sunday in the afternoon. 3 of us. that's my dad's side. my mum's side, every saturday night, as it is now. so grandma stayed till night time, then went out for a quick dinner. can't stay at home too long! get restless! hahaha!

tuesday
woke up, was supposed to go out with sha and siyao. but sick, so decided that they come to my house instead. nice friends! :) thank you! <3 twin called around 12.30. then sha smsed to say she was downstairs. so i told twin that i'll call her back in 20min. put down the phone, 'she' called. mrs mok. cos i called her in the morning. the talked to her for a while, then she said she was busy so we ended our conversation. saw my hp, 9 missed calls. ops. sorry sha. so went down to meet her, got our lunch. and we bought a cake. yes, a cake! small one. we passed the cake shop, then she was like' let's buy a cake to eat' so we did! to celebrate all our birthdays together. weird right! but fun! we went up, called twin! siyao called to say she was downstairs. so sha went down. sha knows my house well know. finally someone knows my house well! when we went into the lift, she just pressed 14th floor like usual! haha! no need to tell her how to come already! yay! so she went down to pick si yao and was on the phone with twin! siyao came up and i ended the call. so 3 of us talked, talked and talked. the tv was on, but we talked. didn't really watch. siyao talked about her camp, so funnny!!!! enjoyed the aircon, laughed. then played monopoly. ate the cake. sang a song.... random song. continued our game. the person who lost or became brankrupt first was supposed to do a forfeit. i lost in the end! haha! was supposed to dance sorry sorry and nobody. but we all forgot about it. cos we talked. about some random stuff, then decided to play cluedo. haha! we were choosing the people we wanted. then siyao said 'i want to go to the ballroom!' then we knew she had the card, so that was her plan, go to the room, then ask about the person and weapon first. she said so! so comical! played and played. till about 6.30. they left! the house felt so quiet! so sad!
bathed and got ready. met yima and yizhang at 7.30. went for a concert by kuo chuan presbyterian secondary school. their biannual event. it was good! but our band can beat theirs! hehe! their guzheng was good and dancing too! it was all their performing arts. brought a lot of water to stop the coughing. yima sat on my left, there was on one on my right, thankfully! the place we went was where last year's SYF dance night was held. and the councillors helped to ursher and all. so i knew where our seats were! went home, was so tired. and head felt pain. mum insisted that i cannot go for YOG today, had to stay at home. doctor gave me MC until today(wednesday). why??? wanted to go!

wednesday
so today woke up early. ate..... lazed around a bit. went online. replied a long email from a friend in USA. :) did amath online. heymath. then a bit of housework. the weekly maid came. did more amath, today is amath day! slept for another 3 hours. woke up, mum, yima and granddad came for dinner. ate... was supposed to go for a movie tonight, but didn't go. any way, no energy already. need to rest for tmr. meeting twin! make sure that i'm okay tmr. today had a slight fever! irritating! but can't wait for tmr!

pics of our horse riding

day 13-paris
went to Euro disney! disney land! woke up early for an early breakfast! then took along train ride, actually, two train rides, to the disney stop. alot of people were queing to go in. we went to the rides place first. it opens at 10, but people are allowed in a little earlier! it was so fun! the whole time there, playing the rides, i feel like i was back into my childhood days, carefree, happy, laughing, hyper. no worries, just free. those childhood days were not really the best days of my life, but it was memorable. the good times. so just relaxed so much at disney land! rode the merry go round, went to sleeping beauty's castle, joined the adventures of pinocchio(i mistaked his name for pikachu at first, idk why. maybe cos i miss pokemon? haha!) and went into the forest with snow white. the last two were rides. and one more, was this 'flying ride'. i think its supposed to be about this person in neverland..... who is he called again? can't remember, cos never watched or read about it. went on to a maze, with alice! and the queen, off with the head! so funnny! then went on the mad hatter's teacup. the ride with people in the teacups and can spin round and round and round. ate ice cream after that. went on to another part. went into a real sumarine. interesting, but dark and scary. our last ride was a roller coaster. fun!!!! it was some mining thing. so we went into dark mines, then went out into brightness,  then darkness again! sat in the first row with dad! mum sat behind! so we were the first! sat in front for most of the rides, its more fun! we took a train back to the entrance. and got a souvenir for cousin! :) disney world is fun! we left this place around 3 plus, almost 4. so spent 6 hours or so there.
went to the studios next. it was smaller then the rides one. studio 1 was just eateries and gift shops. we took the train ride. it was a great ride! they showed us how the directors produce the shows. we saw the real planes from the show Pearl Harbour, put on display, ready to be used for another show. there is physical effects and visual effects. we past a set, where there was this half wall and some unreal creatures. the computer people were able to make this set look like a real scene. this was from a show, dragons (something), can't remember the whole name. then we really got to feel a real scene come to life. our train was parked on this platform. the train had about 5 carriages. on our left, was this big set, with a bus on it.and some walls and other plain things. we experience an 'earthquake' first. like the carriages moved left ride, really fast, like a real earthquake. really interesting. then there was a huge rain, then made us all wet! even though the train is sheltered. there was also this fire effect, that made some things go on fire. including the bus. it was a really big fire. we were quite far from it, but could still feel the heat of the fire. and finally, had a flood, where a lot of water came rushing towards us, and pushing the bus towards us, like it was going to hit us! so fun!!!! maybe should be an actress one day! then can experience all these sets and interesting things. okay, so our train ride continues, we saw fake dragons and creatures, as props. another set, was this dragon thing, spitting our fire. the fire was sooo hot!!! but so fun!!!
our second ride was armegodon. we had a chance to so call experience and reccreate a scene in the show. we went into this room, where a shot briefing took place. they showed a video, of how the show was filmed. then we went into a spaceship kind of set. the whole place was like a real spaceship on shows. it was supposed to be travelling and then a stone hit us. the whole thing moved!!! and there was this screen at one side, where we could see the back of the spaceship. and when a stone or some broken part of the spaceship came, we could see it coming to hit us. when something hit us, say the top of the set we were in, the whole top moves down. lower and lower, until gas comes out! and off course there was fire too. the whole thing was so interesting. things banging here and there, the spaceship set slowly becoming distroyed..... finally, in the end, the whole thing shut down. and it was finally quiet. no movement. cos we were supposed to have died in the spaceship... but the whole thing was fun! special effects is so cool!!!
our last event at the studios was this movie thing in a theatre. we were deciding between the movie or another event, but the other one was not that interesting, so chose the movie instead. well, the movie was about this guy. it started with us watching a scene from a screen, and then a cell phone rang and this acter went to stage, picked up his phone. and the people on the screen was like' why are you disturbing our show!!!' so they brought him into the show. there was this puff of smoke and he appeared in the screen. special effects again! the show was in an old castle, in black and white. then this guy with the cell phone acted in a lot of scenes that changed from the black and white castle, to a coloured picture of cow boys and continued on until the present time type of movies. he was trying to get out of the show. and the people he met was wondering what a cell phone was. he kept his hp in his jacket. and it rang when he met this group of people who are like cowboys, carrying guns in the pockets. so when he took his hp, they began to shoot him! so comical! finally, a swordsman threw a sword and there was a hole in the screen, he could come out. and he did. the sword and hole is fake, just visual effects. but he went in again by another door to be with a girl. so sweet!
it was already 6 plus. so had dinner. lunch was hotdogs and soft drinks. dinner was pizza and burger! nice! went back to the hotel. slept for a long time! woke up around 8 plus the next day.


day 14-paris
woke up a little late, breakfast, went back to our room, lazed around. the tv channels were all in french, so don't really understand the shows. but there was a song countdown. their songs are a little behind ours in the countdown. half english, half french. the songs i mean. then, we went shoppping, my mum wanted to shop, and its paris! so off course must shop! went to the LV store. the real store, it was so big. apparently a popular brand there. the store had 3 or 4 levels. just followed my parents around. cos i don't like shopping and not into branded stuff..... mum got LV bags for her sisters and my grandma!!! and for herself, one purse and one bag. teh LV stuff are cheaper then singapore ones. had macs for lunch after mum spent only 2 over hours shopping at LV. much shorter then usual. macs was very crowded. it was big, a lot of seats, but a lot of people too. had problem finding a place to sit. the menu is less confusing than Britain's. about the same as singapore's. their macafe had biscuits, cakes, muffins, a lot more things then ours here. a nice lunch! went to this big shopping centre to get some more stuff. then went back to the hotel early. came out again for dinner before trying to sleep. dinner was vietnames food. mum couldn't stay away from asian food.. not even on our last night overseas.... *sigh*couldn't get to sleep. even until 12. then both my parents slept, but still couldn't sleep. strange. slept very late...

day 15-paris-singapore
woke up early. was supposed to have a cab at 8.15. well, the counter person said the cab will come at 8.15. plane flight at 12. but we waited and waited and waited. no cab... waited until 9. then the cab came. thankfully we asked for an early cab ride, if not will be late for the plane. and the ride to the airport was not long. reached by 10. but it was 76 euro... which is about $160 or more singapore dollars! still think singapore cabs are expensive? paris is worse! so is london. london's to from the hotel to king's cross station was also about that price. if not for the two big luggages we have, we wouldn't have taken cab. can take train. any way, we checked in, and cos we booked online, we took the faster queue. mum went to claim the tax. took a long time cos it was a long queue. then went to the waiting room. then to the plane. this time, we sat right to the back of the plane. well, middle of the back cabin. only one baby i think. not that much screaming, but still had screaming. couldn't sleep at all. well, only for about 2 hours the most. watched some movies. no appetite for the plane food. there was this cake thing for lunch that we were given and it was so sweet! regret eating it. usually okay with sweet things, but that was overly sweet. the other food, didn't eat much. breakfast, the egg was bad! but got a lot of sprite! about 4-5 cans? and only two cups of water. took a few sweets and chocs! 12 hour flight, quite fast though.
day 16- singapore!!!
finally reached singapore, at 7am. went back, home sweet home! unpacked, bathed, went to sleep. from 11 to 5. woke up at 5 and had throat pain. took water and a bit of medicine. had a slight fever. but didn't really care.  went to grandma's house. a lot of people that day!!!! yima, yizhang, yiyi, yien, mama and other relatives. renjie, peishi and their parents + their dad's brother and his wife! we kids ate in the room. porridge with siew mai. mama made for us. then we played with itouch. lucky them, all 3 of them had an itouch. i'm the only one without! played cards. yi en and i tried to teach them taiti. we keep teaching them everytime we see them, but they can't remember. we gave up after a while. played i-d-i-o-t. with the cards. got bored, and renjie lost. any way, we decided to play hide and seek with.... clothes pegs!!!! and we took a long time to find the clothes pags. yi en and i went to look for it. mama's maid pointed to one corner, but couldn't find. in the end, it was under some cloth! stupid us! so it was a fun time! with all 4 of us playing! :) after renjie and peishi left, i think my temperature increased. and got a big headache. played with yien a bit more. but couldn't take it for long. went to mama's bed to rest. cousin continued playing her itouch. grandma gave me this medicine for throat. went home. ate medicine and penadol. tried to sleep. but couldn't sleep for long without waking up. temperature was like 39.0, highest. finally watched tv. then tried to sleep again at 2. woke up around 3, ate more medicine. tried to sleep. then woke up, was shivering like mad. temperature too high... took more medicine. finally got to sleep again, till about 9 plus 10.

sunday
woke up feeling a better, but temperature still 38 or so degrees. at least could eat some breakfast. bao! mum went to the market to buy. ate more medicine. finally went to the doctor. got  A LOT MORE MEDICINE! had lunch, and now on the comp. temperature dropped at the clinic. 37.9. i think my fever's broke already. that's the good thing about my fever. its always so high when i get fever, but it will break in 24hours. now, left a bit of headache and coughing, throat problem. not going for YOG tmr. will be there on wedensday!

so that's all. a long holiday from 4th to 19th june. its a long and memorable trip. thanks mum and dad, for giving me a break, letting me relax, and enjoy myself. for letting me go on a long trip that is far from home, without any worries and nothing but fun. :)

finally back in singapore!!! reached Singapore at 7am this morning. 12 hour flight, only slept around 1-2 hours! hehe! now very tired. had to unpack, wash up, get the house cleaned again cos gone for 2 weeks! and my little terapin died!! :( :( :( but most of the fishes survived. yay! so, back to posting about the trip.


day 12-London-France(Paris)
so.. as said before, supposed to wake up at 4, but woke up at 4 plus. parents got ready first. went to the reception at 4.50. wanted to use the comp they had there, but they said that internet connection was down for the past 3 days. idk how my dad managed to get internet connection in our room, but he did! so could go online the night before. interesting... any way, it was so early, but by 4, the sun was already up and it was bright! short nights, long days. haha! okay, so took the cab at 5 to king's cross or st pancras station(they call it st pacreas not pancras) and i misheard the cab driver. cos we booked the cab before hand, so when he came, he said 'going to the eurostar?' instead i heard' going to euston' and euston was kind of far away! thought it would be a long ride.thankfully parents heard correctly!! reached st pancras, had breakfast there, waited for the counter to open to get tickets, then went into the waiting room. so we went on the train, euro star, which connects from london to paris, about 3 hours i think. parents and i were a bit seperated. we had a table seat, which means that its 4 people, one table in the middle. sat with a family of 3 Americans. they weren't friendly at all. kept to themselves. there were a lot of Americans in UK. maybe cos they have hols? the british kids have school, so hardly see them. most kids or teenagers there are Americans. like on the Harry Potter tour, half are Americans. parents and i were the only Asians..... sadly. on the train, parents sat across the aisle, with a Malay mum and daughter.
slept in the train, heard music through mp3. towards the end, dad and i went to the middle of the long train, about carriage 9. they sold food there, but we were already reaching, so cannot buy anything. the train was about 19 or so carriages long! very long train.
so when we reached Paris, most things were in French!can't understand a lot of stuff. went on a day group tour first. sat on the bus.... the guide talked and talked on and on about paris, but i was not that interested, so in the end, fell asleep! only woke up when we reached the Eiffel tower. we reached this spot where we could take nice pics of it. and there were many people selling Eiffel tower souvenirs. then went on to go inside the Eiffel tower itself. we reached there about 11 plus, supposed to meet again at 1.40. we could take the lift up, but it was a long queue, so waited, and waited, and waited. until about 12 plus. by the time we were on the second level, it was almost 1. so only had time to take a few pics and eat lunch, before queing to go down. no time to go to the third or first level even though we could! and the person in the lift didn't allow us to go into the first lift! so we had to wait for the lift to go down, then back up. we were late reaching the meeting point! all cos of that lift person! we sat on a boat cruise on this river. there was a lady who explained the history of the surrounding buildings and of the river and so on. she spoke in french, english and italian i think. but got bored of the history and didn't really listen! it was about a 1 hour ride, so bored!!! after that, we went to this museum. 3 hours given to tour the museum! we took 1 hour, plus some time to eat tea! all we saw were paintings. not interested in history of paris nor the museum..... so we left the museum and walked around outside. bought souvenirs. then went back to the bus. took our luggage and took a cab to our hotel. the rest of the tour group was going back to london on a train. the taxi driver had no idea where our hotel was! he seemed to go round and round. but finally reached the hotel. outside looks nice, inside the room, it was kind of cramped.
went to eat JAP food for dinner. asian food... omg... okay, well, the jap restuarant was run by china chinese. so we could communicate with them at least!  they were quite nice and the food was okay. went back to the hotel, bathed, watched football(cos of dad) and slept! no internet connection.... sadly.\

day 9-Loch ness-Manchester
woke up, had a good breakfast, then went online for a while at the lounge. talked to J. good job for what happened! (can't say it out here! ) and talked to Karthika online too! yay!!! began a long, well, supposed to be 7 hours of car ride. to Manchester. sat at the front. the car ride down was scenic, but had a headache again, so slept for most of the time. went to a takeaway shop for lunch. mum got spagetti, dad got fihs and chips and cheeseburger. both shared a bean something. and i got a cheeseburger! had tea break at EDC. scones for me! mum and dad had coffee! then went on with our journey again. our hotel was Novotel! it was great! but had an internet package, and internet didn't work! so was not on the comp at all the two nights we were there! that will explain the no posts! dad tried to get the comp working for so long! both mum and i bathed, relaxed and comp couldn't get fixed. so in the end gave up! but we did get free movies. hmm. watched Avatar again! and meet the forgers.... that one was a comedy! laughed so much! then heard some songs, included in the package. slept whilst hearing songs. our room had a double bed, which my parents slept, then the sofa was a foldable sofa. so slept on that. best parts about the beds in UK is that it is so bouncy!!!! had a lot of fun!! hehe. ate the leftover lunch for dinner. cos the portions were huge.

day 10-Manchester
so long, so far away from home! but not homesick! (we were in Manchester, but didn't go to either man city or man united for souvenirs or photos....) okay, had breakfast. the best so far here. then we walked to the chinatown in Manchester.  it was about two streets. and just in front of our hotel. SOO many chinese, mostly from hong kong, there. wow! and chinese food.... didn't eat there though. walked to the city centre, a lot of shops, but didn't shop. mum got hungry, so we ate a pizza place. we ordered a slightly spicy pizza. but had a lot of water to go with it, so was fine! :) it started to rain. parents wanted to go into some shops. but decided to head back to the hotel instead. watched more movies! the package was 24 hours! so we watched a movie on this girl who was murdered, but came back to help her family. another one was about this man, he went to an island to investigate these supposedly mental people, but idk what the ending is about, whether he became one of its patients or not, but he died in the end i think. and alice in wonderland! went to bath. soaked in a tub of HOT water! so hot that it was like a sauna inside! first time sweating in a bath tub! haha! came out fast. and it didn't helpt that the room had no aircon. who needs aircon when the weather here is so cold? but it was warm that night. so was so hot! continued watching tv. some show that i didn't get. slept with mum on the double bed as i just knocked out halfway during the show. dad went out to play casino. so he came back late. tired night! ate sandwiches for dinner!!!!

day 11-Manchester-London(back to london again! the place where my UK trip started, and will end)
the car ride was supposed to be 3 hours, on the GPS. okay, so had a great breakfast again. then left the hotel around 10 plus. thought we would reach our hotel in London by 2. at least. so we travellled in the car. and just got out of Manchester, didn't got to visit both man city or man united. hehe. no interest in football. only dad is! we stopped for lunch around 1 plus. burger king! it was okay. then we travelled to London. but found out that our road was wrongly typed in, so we had to go about 4 miles or so away. it was already 2 plus. then made a wrong turn, so took longer time! in the end, reached the hotel around 4. checked in, got a room at the bottom floor. great! cos we had two big luggages, one big bag(can fit Long Bear!! guess who that is! some might know...) and other smaller handcarry bags that we carry for like walks out of the hotel and things like that. so its like 5 bags? well, count in 6 if you count in the comp bag. room is okay, 3 single beds. went to return the car, then went to the Big Ben. its a tall tower, with  clocks facing four directions. came back to the hotel, got subway and a big 2 litre bottle of pepsi for dinner. the pepsi for 2 litres cost only 95pence. so its about $2 in Singapore, a little more then that! i think i've had more soft drink then water this trip. how will my stamina be like when i get back? and need to got for training. running! exercising! and need to get my position! reallly worried about that!

tmr will be leaving for France, Paris. 3 nights there, then end of a long holiday! OMG! can days past slower? but no, i miss my friends! haha! and grandma!!!!! need to wake up at 4am tmr. someone picking us up at 5am. train to Paris is at 6am i think. its now 5.44am in Singapore, 10.44pm in London. less then 6 hours of sleep. but will be okay..... might not have connection to the internet in Paris.... will see how. if not, will post when i get back to Singapore. cos same hotel for the last 3 nights! tonight is the last night in UK! bye bye UK!!! it was fun here! a great holiday!! :)