went to school about 7 plus? for morning training. was a little late cos of some stuff at home. sorry..... well, morning training was okay. then the team played monkey. abigail, trisha, yoges and i did shooting on another pole, thanks! did semi d drills. partnered yoges and jacob. fun! great way to start a day. had duty, then went to the hall. saw the band performance. was good! imagine the amount of hard work they put in for the songs and performance. maybe after stc, in jc, will join some performing arts for a change. saw videos of ocip laos and vietnam. so touching! and now i feel like wanting to go for ocip already!!!! hope i'll pass the interview!
today's lessons, well, was okay, amath we did work! got back amath sa1 papers. wished we could get back our test. chinese, our teacher, lin lao shi, was being observed by the other 3 teachers teaching chinese in sec3 level. jiang lao shi was there! band 1, band 3, band 4 teachers. chinese was still interesting and fun! bio went through the bio worksheet. a lot of mistakes!! had a short lunch. sushi! had a heavier recess. for the first time in idk how long, wore orange shirt. sec3s were let off at 12.40, lunch till 1.15, then took a bus to rp, for the floorball finals. sat with tina! thank you!!!!! floorballers played well today! first place!! score, 5-1. they really did well and deserved it. sec3s cheered and cheered!! left rp after the match and went for YOG.

slight drizzle when we arrived. went to rectangle formation first. talked and laughed with alicia, yoges, trisha, raya, huimin. waited a long time! 'bullied' yoges, according to her. in the end, from the rectangle to the star, only need to move 2 places. brought sweets, next time must bring a lot more! tuesday, promise to bring A LOT OF SWEETS FOR YOU!!!! went to choose our nominees for house captain. confidential vote. mini 2c gathering. all the memories from 2c. and look what we have become today! so we went to wait, and wait, and wait for our dinner to come. the other levels had theirs first. talked to jolin, chingyi, halie. and nasuha. got desert, jelley! with sheryl for the class. so we actually had desert before our meal! the other levels went to the rectangle again whilst we waited longer for our food. sat with jolin, chingyi, halie, zann, denise yong, yoanna. played truth or dare once, then would you rather. very fun!!! thanks a lot!!! had dinner. noodles. couldn't finish it, so gave to denise and yoanna. went back to fomation, did the formations with music. had to alter the heart a lot of times. the rest was okay, just need to count. and once, ran out too early from the circle after the triangle. my fault!!! sorry!!!!! otherwise, yog was okay. sat with tina on the bus back. haha! kim lim and chingyi was disturbing tina! but it was fun! and she's so nice!

so that's all for today!
stress level is back. idk why. today was an okay day. but did little to relieve the stress. for you all, i'm sorry. i've helped others, but in the end, when you all have problems, i can't help. and in the end, we just become distant. i've failed my duty as a friend to you all. somehow, hate you for doing this. giving me false hope, lies! so much for letting me become close to you, then after that hurt me by leaving! to you, cheer up. if there's anything wrong, can always tell me okay!



so today, begin with waking up at 5? around there. slept at 10. well, in someway, its good. sleeping early, although my energy level is the same, and still feel tired, it stops me from thinking too much and feeling more hurt inside. all the emotions inside, feel like telling someone. its getting a little too hard to keep it inside, and its even harder to look okay on the outside and laugh, joke or appear normal.
but thanks to you all, for making me laugh and letting me have someone to talk to all the way. never felt alone once. thanks for cheering me up, for accompanying me and for just being there!!!!