i realised that i have wronged you. i am sorrry. reallly, reallly sorry. i didn't know how you felt until wednesday. i thought that you were angry at me. and when i asked you if you were, you said you weren't. i thought it was over, but i wondered why we couldn't return to the old times. and talk like we used to talk, carefree.... and i could tell you anything. i realised that deeep down inside, you think that i don't trust you any more, after what i said over sms that day about the ______. yes, i know i asked you twice about it. and i asked ______ twice too. i am not sure if she feels that i don't trust her. but i finally understand how you felt. after everything that we have gone through, it seemed like i didn't trust you. but i want to say that in reality, i do trust you. i trust you more than i can trust any one else. i know that i can tell you any thing and that you will do your best to help me. i want to go back to the times that we can talk like we used to. i really miss those times and i hope that some part in you miss those times too. i admit that for a period of time, i was a bit angry at the incident. but i realised that it was not your fault nor was it_____ fault. i want to prove to you that i still do trust you but i don't know how to. i wish that this can just blow over. i don't know about you, but this incident has caused me a lot. it has caused misunderstandings among people that were not even involved in this incident. this has become a problem blown out of proportion. but whatever happens, i just hope that you will give me the chance to make it up to you and apologise to you face to face. i also hope that we can return to the old times and talk like we used to. i miss those times. i have hurt you, i am sorry.

you may not know it,but you mean a lot to me. you were there in one of my darkest times and pulled me out of it. you helped me to continue my life when it seemed unbearable. you made me believe that things willl be better soon. that's why i believe that things will get better from now on. i will follow what you have said. there are somethings which i willl forever remember you telling me. you have impacted my life greatly.

i will try to understand if we cannot talk like we used to or be as close as we used to be cos of this and all the other things that i have done. if it has to end here, i just want to say sorry and thank you. for everything you have done for me. good luck!

this week there's a super big event... EXAMS! and its still not over yet for me. the good thing is that this week, only needed to go to school for 3 days. two days holiday

monday
vesak day holiday! no school... so stayed at home and studied. talked to ____ on sms... was studying for geog and science exam! its on the same day!!!! is like geog, then chem then phy??? basically its 3 papers into one day and must memorize a lot of stuff! afternoon i was super sleepy but couldn't sleep!!! cos must memorise.

tuesday
this is the most relaxing school day i have had in school! had english for the first two periods. watched movie. its the village... very interesting. but i watched it on tv before. some of the parts. so i studied! yes, i studied while the movie was being played! then had math. went through the test paper.... had recess, then ve miss koh didn't come. she went to some other class so had self study with karthika and janice. did geog questions in excercise book and went through chem stuff. then dance we again had free period cos no dance! so studied with karthika and janice again. had lit... miss puspalm just talked, we didn't really go through the text... went home! and studied like mad for the science and geog exam! but today we had like 6 free periods?? out of 10! sooo good!!!:)

wednesday
went to school in the morning and went to class then started revising for geog. had geog exam. it was not that bad but i hope i can pass. just a pass and i will be happy! i want to pass geog! recess was about 45 min.... didn't eat recess cos was in class studying for science. science was okay. but i think for phy graph i might have done inverted axis again! so horrible! its a lot of marks lost! the rest of the parts were okay. but chem had a graph? i didn't study for chem graph cos i didn't know we were tested on graph for chem. went home after exam. didn't really study, i just relaxed a bit to unwind. then talked to _____on the phone. for a long time. first time i have been so emotional on the phone! haha. knew a lot of things that i didn't know at first. thanks for telling me! at night, started my studies again....

thursday
no need to go to school. cos upper sec had exam. but we didn't so no school for us!!! i love being lower sec! woke up early, started to study. then called _____ again to talk. bathed and my handphone dropped. i couldn't find my memory card and i don't even know how it looks like! haha. mistoke my sim card for memory card! any way, started to study again. it is lit and math paper 2 on friday so i am not that scared! studied all day!!

friday
went to school and revised the lit notes and animal farm. lit exam was not too bad. but i wrote till my hand pain! i hope i didn't go offpoint as i didn't know how to explain irony properly. then had a 1 hour and 15 min recess??? i love exam time's recess!!!! it is so long! unlike our usual 35 minute recess which also includes prayers so it becomes around 25minutes left? any way, went to the canteen to buy a bit of food. then went up to class to do math sums. math was not that bad but i hope i can get at least 40/50 for the math paper. after math paper had to sign the name list for the geog ca1 marks. i passed!!!! yay!!!!!! i passed overall geog even when i failed the ca1 paper.i am soooo happy!!!!!

after school went to vivo to watch 17 again with shareen and felicia.it was at 12.55 so i had to rush. they got tickets already so i had to get my ticket then go in then we found our seats... saw wq ther with her friends. we managed to sit together. went to buy a drink for the movie but the cinema's sprite tastes horrible!!!!! next time i won't buy sprite already. the show was great! thanks for choosing a great show to watch. then went to toys'r'us to look around and play with the stuff there. in the end bought bubbles to play with. and some sweets. walked to the rooftop where the water this is and went into the water and blowed bubbles there. we were all wearing shoes and shareen and i were in our school uniform as both of us had exam. felicia had marking day so she was the only one not in school uniform but she wore shoes as well. both of themhave already finished their exams. soo good! played around with the bubbles for a long time. had to put on socks and shoes after the water. felt a bit uncomfortable. went to see the pets. the hamsters were sooo cute! i must get some next time when i can. also saw dogs!!!! shetland sheepdog rocks!!!! if i can, i will try to get a shetland sheepdog too!!!! looked at the grooming of pets.... went to daiso and looked round. we decided to go to precious thoughts and looked round. saw rena there!!!! with her friends!!!!! after that it was getting late so we went home.

went home and slept. then went out for dinner with parents. tmr must start studying again. cos monday still have my last paper. math paper 1!