ycmc pics... from facebook.... (these are not mine, but thanks!)

Ayu and me!

Ayu and me!

group photo!

4 girls and the migrants( 4 girls in red are group mates!)

Ayu and me.... in the middle?

Ayu and Quan Yi

instructor with us! (sub group)

bbq team 2! haha!

group photo with migrants

group photo!

group pic... smile!!

last group pic

so today


training was okay. played WA. not too bad. got a lot of help from you. thank you. :) played C! first time playing C for a real game! was suprised, scared, lost. not too sure where to go, really. need to improve on everything. suicide sprints is really suicide. haha! talked to ms adeline for a while.. i had to know.... went with abigail to macs for lunch! :) made my day today!!!!!! going out later. oh yeah, i still need to do this year's review.... thinking long and hard for what to write. but one thing's for sure. 3a rocks!!!! :D

oh, and thank you, all the friends and teachers, for a wonderful year. if not for so many of you, this year would just be stressful and unbearable. thanks for hearing me rant and rant about all the things that has happened. <3

official last day of school!!!

wednesday
school was okay. 3 periods of emath. comp lab. learnt circle properties. fun! supposed to do a group assignment but didn't. although one group did one from the tune of 12 days of christmas. good job!! fun time at math. chem. finished the chapter of periodic table in two periods. went home. rested a while.... lalalala... training. was okay. need to work on a lot. played WA! happy! confused for a while and very scared to go offside. thought back to p5 days. :) idk why, got hyper when i came home.

today
well, it is the last day of school, officially. cos sec3s still have to go back to school. had morning run. mass in the hall. fast. saw a video of yog. mrs wong talked to us. prize presentation. joseph house is champion house!!! a lot of prizes today. went back to class. got the yog cds and cert. nothing much to be done till 11.30. went to macs for lunch! with Christabelle!!! :) great way to end. will be posting about the whole year tmr... or the weekend.

like you, i've got to chill, in order to stop giving myself false hope.

this week, tiring so far... guess its not enough rest. haiz... but it was worth it. can't stop thinking about the weekend. why!!!!! why has it affected me so much.....

monday
pe.. didn't feel like going. but played badminton with tina. been a long time since i played badminton. no lit lesson. history was two periods of talking. recess, then school ended. weird.... recess then sch ends. just might as well let us go home. went home, then came out again soon after. met abigail for lunch. :) well, not really lunch as we didn't eat. just walked around. came back and luckily the auntie was there to open the gate. team mates.... joke with us cos we came back with some guys skating? anyway, training was okay. it was so obvious, that i will give up hope. did a bit of shooting. it helped so much in the timing drill. only missed one shot. happy that got a chance to play shooter. did the defenders/shooters/attackers drill. was okay. at night, called twin! and -----. i just need to make sure that my mindset was the correct one. thankyou.

tuesday
morning run. was thinking of wearing blouse instead of pe shirt, but wore pe shirt any way. went for run at classroom block. school was okay. missed a period of amath. cos of a meeting. there is going to be another investiture again. history, so tired, was almost sleeping. until ms vino sudddenly called me to answer a question. haha! chinese was relaxing. recess, then ocip talk. met meiyi and went to island creamery. ate single scoop ice cream each, then shared a waffle before jenisa came. had macs. cinnamon melts. talked, laughed. watched POT. fuji's match. ahhhh... another way to escape from reality. :) yay! go POT!!! went home after that.

OMG!!!!!!!!!! i LOVE THIS WEEKEND!!!!!  IT WILL REMAIN IN MY MEMORY!!!!!

okay, it is tiring, but so fun!!!
so saturday
woke up early. went to sch. took this small bus to rp. signed in, went to this cold hall for some time. intro, videos, performance, two amazing talks! had a tea break. as promised, the food was awesome! split up into groups. went with tina, abergale and amanda. first was about helping out the ex convicts... more of cip stuff. then we changed to talk about migrants, not enough rights, their living conditions in singapore.... had a lunch break. returned for our real project. about migrants. all we knew was that we had a bbq for lunch and had to plan for the lunch and 3 activities. split into 4 groups. with ayu, jiayi, terre, afig, shawn. worked well together. planned for an activity. amazing race. which is 3 courses, build a sandcastle with cups and spoons, pass the ping pong ball with a spoon and build your own frisbee. had a short tea break. came back and presented. then we all went to present to the board. was okay! came back to redo some stuff before we all gathered at the hall again for the closing for the first day. it was fun! made new friends, interacted with others.

sunday
met tina at great world. went to east coast park. was there early, so were a few people. saw ayu. went with her to the seashore. collected seashells for the frisbee making. came back. saw a cat and some kittens! bought an apple pie each. gathered, walked to the bbq pit which is very far away! haha! enjoyed the walk and talk! set the things up. well, ayu and i basically collected a lot of sea shells. migrants arrived, intro. english and chinese! had a group of 4 chinese. talked in chinese. ice breaker first, then first activity was volleyball. then dodge ball. had a short pause while they played monkey. we skipped the sandcastle. just went to pass the stone(stone cos the ball in too light and it would fly away-the wind was windy, almost raining. but it was cooling). made frisbee. lunch time. ate, then bbqued. fun! walked round. then we had to leave..... sad goodbye and thanked them. went to rp in a bus. tea break. more good food! cakes and all. gathered in a circle. supposed to discuss what happened but in the end, played games. so funny!!! chris's game was hard but fun. can't remember the name. was thinking of wacko, but don't want to get up. so did another game... umm. folllow the actions of the person next to you... also forgot the name. last game is.... unforgettable. one person will say to the opposite gender ' honey if you love me, smile for me'. the person must reply ' honey, i love you, but i can't smile for you.' and if that person smiles whilst saying it, then he/she must do it next. if not, the person who asked the question must continue asking. so funny!!!! laughed like...... haha!!! want to play that again! after that, had the closing ceremony. got certs. dance by a girl and guitar+singing performance by a guy..... with a video of some pics taken throughout the two days. took pics, and went home!

such a great weekend! finally! so free, happy, no troubles to think about. just relax. felt like nothing could bother me... well, its back to reality tmr......

this week, has been okay.... got back all the results!

wednesday
got back all the other papers. i.e. math and science. okay, at least there subjects, did quite okay! :) quite happy with emath and amath marks! went for ocip briefing. presented, but didn't speak at all. filled up the booklet then left for training. had fun with someone! :)how dare you? any how say. just felt so drained after training. not that it was tiring, just tired of some stuff.

thursday
almost like a wasted day at school, but many things happened. so had duty, went to check sec1s attire. hall for poverty talk. went to class for a while, then recess. finished cca fest thing with her. was in the hall again to check cca points. yay!!! A1 already! :) some things need changing though. anyway, local cip is on 2 nov! and in the language group. went back to class for family time. nasuha and i went down to find ms emily koh.for a form for ocip. was not there, but talked to ms lee and mrs gomaz. nadia came. we walked back to the classroom block via canteen way. then saw ms donna koh. thought she could give us the form, so followed her all the way to the staffroom, then she went to 1a. haha! followed her up, talked, came down, walked back to class. a while later, we were dismissed. nasuha and i finally found ms emily koh across the hard court! went home and got ready for tuition.....

friday
didn't want to go to macs for breakfast at first. but went all the same. you text in the morning brought my spirits down. was wishing you would be there for support. anyway, walked back to school. you didn't have to follow. i don't need you. found ms koh and mr poon for the forms. met abigail, did shooting. started training, then went to the hall cos of haze. training was okay. went for lunch at clementi at subway! yay! very full after that. walked to the bus terminal and called shareen. she was there, by chance! went with her to vivo for  a while, walked round and had ice cream, before we left for home. going out again to orchard.

stop acting like that, cos others may believe you and be fooled by you, but i won't be any more. stop annoying me and acting all good like its my fault when its actually your fault. stop going back on your words. then again, i just can't be bothered by you any more. i will follow their lead.

就让我望了这一切....
给我一杯忘情水
换我一夜不流泪......
就算我会和醉,
就算我会心碎,
不会看见我流泪
i'm sorry, i did badly at SA2. i wish time will unwind, back to the start of sec3. that will be the best.....
you know, i'm sorry that i could not protect you from harm again and let you go that way. i'm sorry it hurt again. but i can't let you break again. cos i know that you won't survive the break yet again. this is the most that it will go. i promise you. get over this and you will be okay. please. trust me

lalalala, so many things happening now... well.... hmm...

stop acting like that, its not going to work! :P

anyway....
sunday
slacked day. went to eat at New York New York. got a free bowl of soup, cos the waiter brought the fish and chips we ordered to the wrong table and we had to wait a long time for it! yay!! okay, its mushroom soup! <3 went to see a house. called for project work.... haiz... ocip, so hard! and going to miss so many trainings!! :(

monday
felt so excited... training.... haha! so had checking of papers. English, bye bye! its so badly done! chinese, well, its the average standard... oh well, very disappointed in both papers. and apparently, history is going to be bad too. there's the only A gone... help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! had some normal lessons. sheryl brought monopoly cards and we played during history as ms vino was marking papers. recess was with meiyi and xiulin! fun! amath, mrs fung looked kind of angry cos we didn't do well for math. die.... she explained the math paper 2 question 1, then went on to trigo. nasuha and i left the class for injection, she didn't even seem happy about it and didn't actually say yes. just wave the hand.... :( scared for math now. so left the class, went to canteen to wait and wait and wait for the bus.

injection was... fun, pain, numb. sat in the bus at the back. the waited a long time to go into this room where there was a brief explanation and all. had to help ms mok find the key to her car. went to the toilet, then this helpful female cleaner said she saw someone take it away. so led me to the reception then to the security place.... had no idea whether ms mok's car is toyota or not, so just took the key and said if its wrong, will return it! got a bit lost on the way back, cos the kind lady had left. hahaha! so went to the 'intro' room, got a talk, then we got called one by one. queued up outside another room and went in to take the jab. it was this shot sharp pain, idk why it was pain. anyway, it was pain, then numb, and found that couldn't really stretch my left arm. left with jacob, nurin and ms mok. went to look for her car! haha!! okay, only the few of us will know. had mr prata! thanks!

so then went to school for training. put on contacts in the toilet. eyes turned red and was tearing. this sec4 girl, i think she's fiona, came into the toilet, saw me, then said are you okay? so nice! :) haha! red eyes for a while. you also said my eyes were red.... thanks. so training was okay. i did that for a reason. did some simple drills and passes with jacob and nurin. then split into 4 groups of 4. sorry, i shouldn't have done that then...... my fault... anyway, partnered abigail, sinwei and calista in the end. played street netball. won all 3 games! yay! partner for life! :) we work well as a team!! <3 did some endurance work, then training ended. many more things happened at training... too tired to put down. walked back with abigail.

today was so fun!!! :) thanks to you all!

today was fun!!!!!!!
so karaoke was great. sang.. well, was planning to sing with my heart's out, but nah, didn't get to that. still, relaxed! then had math tuition. it was okay. grandma's house, baked cake!! so niceeee!!! will try to bake again at home. its fun baking. texted several people on the way back. i'm sorry for mistaking you. you meant well..... cheer up okay! and had a long msn chat too! bored people! haha!
texted sha and alicia, msned sheryl

ahh.. exams are over!!! yay!!!! actually, idk whether to be happy or not this time..... we are free now, well, in that sense, only free from exams. so anyway, only time will tell. :(
hard exams... didn't feel prepared even though i've studied hard.... then ended up snapping.. haiz....
on a random note, 2am's 'i was wrong' is a  nice song!! omg!!!!!!!!!! <3 the song!


monday
amath paper was bad! i want an A! pass. please!!!!!! bio paper 2 was bad too.. nah, nvm... let's just say all the exams were bad!

tuesday
emath paper 1 and bio paper 1. emath paper 1, first question... had no idea how to do it! its compound/simple interest topic? ahhhhh...... bio paper 1, well.... since there was no paper on wednesday(for me) played upwords with mum at night. fun!!!!

wednesday
whole day at home. realised that there was a limit to studying. really. woke up early, got bored. called people. pestered mum at work! haha! on the phone. spent most of the morning and bits of the afternoon on the phone...... but did study...

thursday
chem paper 1 was HARD!!! skipped so many questions. can't even find mole! :( anyway, left school right after that to meet mum for --------. missed the ocip laos briefing. went back to school with mum for the parent's talk. what a day today! exams are over, but far from being relieved. somehow. results!!!! had jap food for dinner. long call!

friday
went to school again. 9 to 4 for cca/ house/ sports leaders. met at the canteen. went to choir room. sat with nasuha, jiayi and denise. so its just talk about servent leadership, all the leadership stuff. then grouped in ccas. did traits of someone famous. was so funny!!! hahaha! had a break and went to play with the netball for a while. had another talk..... lunch! went with tina and denise to koufu, then decided to buy waffle instead. went back to school to eat with them. played two games in the next segment. one was captain's on deck. i think we played that at EFL this year. the other was the egg-chick-bird-eagle-superman-immortal game. hard to put a name to it! haha! so fun!!!! in the end, just went to the side to sit down! haha! captain's on deck, had to do this forfeit. so funny!!!!!! hahahahaha! next part is what type of leader are we? then we were given assignments to discuss with the team. more homework! plus ocip ones... :(
met cousin at mrt, went back. went out again for dinner and had a great night! called lc again. :)

saturday
had jap food on thursday, friday and possibly today too!!! we are going karaoke! to unwind! i want to sing my heart's out!!!!!! EOYs are over, want to relax and forget sooooo badly. anyway, we are going soon. so bye!

10.10.10

trying to mug for bio and amath, but suddenly no interest... hmmmmm

any way, today's 10.10.10!!!! amazing. and it probably won't happen again right? hmmm.... wow!

this week, beginning of exams. promise a short post!

so monday
had captain's ball for pe. mr ng was again a bit weird during bio.... haha!!!!! we might get to go for a learning trip in november!!!!

oh, and mrs fung didn't come for math on tuesday/wednesday. wonder what happened. just did math sums.....

wednesday
mugged for chemistry. lit took a backseat. spent very little time on lit.

thursday
chem exam. SO HARD!!!!!!!! :( hope paper 1 will be easier. had break, went to the canteen and talked to charmaine(not myself, a friend). went to choir room for lit. there was this wasp nest on a chair. charmaine dragged the chair and it fell out! lit was not too bad. passage based, how to write? and essay is only two incidents. so many more to write about, but could only write two, so essay was short! but i think sleeping late and waking up early to study more is a good method. hope the results are seen though.... haha!

friday
woke up so early, well, early for a friday. emath paper 2 was okay. except the first question. history was okay. but the source based, killer, like ms vino said. comparision is one difference and one similarity is it???? essay, happy that chapter 5 came out! came home and slept, a long time. lack of sleep for the past two days. had dinner with family. oh and what you said, has finally put my mind at ease after so long.

today
need to really get into my study mood. help!!!! and haven't done nyaa!!!!! okay, so had tuition and had dinner with grandma. so fun today!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.... wish it would never end and wish it would happen again!!!!

weekend.. well, just spent studying ss. really... its no joke.. ss, why are you so hard!!

monday
had PE. played volleyball with tina. it was pain but fun! history, thankfully she didn't do anything about content, would have mixed up. stayed in class for recess. school was okay. lessons were slack, thankfully, if not, would not be able to absorb. after school, went with tina to photocopy ss notes. was late for bio. mr ng didn't scold.. :) had experiment. went home. mugged for ss. felt that home was so... quiet! anyway, studied chapters 3,4,5. did chapter 2, but gave up on it halfway. and the skills.... well, just hope for the best. thanks for all the well wishes!!!! :) it goes a long way, really!

tuesday
exam! ss!!! well, 1.5 hours, not that easy to finish on time. thankfully chapters 3,5,6, came out for essay. expected. healthcare, bonding singapore and chapter 6, i've no idea what is it about. haha!reliability and usefulness, thanks for all the help, but i'm aiming for a pass, idk whether its correct! had a bit of history, ms vino.... funny!!!! then mt. ss won't leave me after i tried so hard to get it in!! hahaha! chem, we were told that SPA is next year!!! yay!! didn't do much for english revision....

wednesday
english exam. compo was okay. speech was about.... YOG!!! i miss YOG. its cos of YOG that i had a chance to interact and make new friends yeah? :) went down for recess, then came up. studied lit outside. you came and gave me pineapple tarts! thanks!! :) love it! cheered me up too! compre was not too bad. had so much time. why is english so long? give more time to chinese paper 2 or ss! did summary veryyyyy slowly. ahh.... happy day....

thursday
last day of gate duty with christina. she's the one who brought me in!! thanks. so chinese. memorised stuff for it. bao zhang bao dao must do well!!! compo and letter was okay. going to count of paper 1 to do well for chinese. stayed in class to study. thanks for the bread. :) <3 got bored of studying chinese. paper 2 was a failure. met mr francis for meeting with student leaders. went home and relaxed..... texted shareen and N. :) oh and whatever is your decision, i'll follow you.

friday
didn't got for patrons day. had something on. woke up just after getting a call from sheryl.  sorry, didn't answer. well, called kar around 8 plus. went to do that something....... came back. had lunch. slept again! cos slept late last night. studied a bit, now online..... lalalalala.. major exams next week. need to study again. so bye!!