okay, quiz time

FIRST 10 THINGS
1. are you single
~YES~
2.are you happy?
~well, here and there. sometimes. depends on what i am thinking of~
3.are you bored?
~well, sort of, since i am doing this quiz~
4.are you fair?
~yeah, i think~
5.are you intelligent?
~nope. really, i don't think that i am~
6.are you honest?
~yeah, i am~
7.are you nice?
~well, it depends. i am not nice to people who irritate me or make me angry~
8.are you irish?
~no~
9.are you asian?
~yes~
10.do you want to be asain?
~ya, i guess!~

next 10 things
1.full name
~charmaine eu hui min
2.nick name
~cha~
3.birth place
~kk hospital~
4.hair colour
~black~
5.natural hair colour
~black, i don't dye my hair~
6.eye colour
~black~
7.moood
~not too happy~
8.birthday
~20march 1995~
9.fave coulours
~pink, blue, purple~
10.one place you would like to visit
~somewhere where i can find peace!~

okay, another 10 things
1.have you ever been in love?
~nope, and i don't want to be~
2.do you believe in love at first sight?
~nope~
3.do you currently have a crush?
~nope, nurin, i don't okay?~
4.have you ever been hurt emotionally?
~well, not by any lover or anythig like that~
5.have you ever broken someone's heart?
~i am sure to have~
6.have you ever had your heart broken?
~no...~
7.have you ever liked someone but never told them?
~no, again, nurin, its a no okay?~
8.are you afraid of commitment?
~no, why should i be?~
9.who was the last person you hugged other then family?
~well, should be kg~
10.who was the last person you said i love you to other then family?
~i don't think i said that to any one else~

i think guys will have a lot of difficulty trying to date me! right?

last 10 things
1.last call?
~amanda chia :)
2.last person you hugged other then family? i think its a repeat!
~kg :)~
3.last person you went out with other then family?
~wow, ummmm, netballers? :)~
4.last person you talked to other then family?
~clare~
5.last person you msned?
~helen kok :), who didn't reply me?~
6last person you texted?
~clare~
7.last person you went to the movies with other then family
~shareen~ :D
8.last person you missed?
~amanda chia~
9.last website you visited
~gracia, for this quiz~
10.last person you ever want to see before you die?
well, atually, family, friends, classmates and netballers! i want to see all of them before i die

okay, i just remembered tmr there's netball training. at last! something to look forward to tomorrow. and there's pe and morning run. yay! things to look forward to tomorrow! okay, i am finally looking at the happy side of things. i guess looking through my ex posts really helps. and this is like the 3rd post today already! yay. should i do a quiz? maybe later if i have time....

OMG. okay, i am feeling very bad now. looked at my past posts hoping that they will help me. then i found my sec1 orientation campfire night. and our fecils were yingxiu, clare, zoe, phoebe and aderline. and very sorry yinxiu and clare, i mispronounced both of your names. OMG. and it happened a year ago. they forgave me BUT, i still feel bad! thankfully they don't know my blog( at least, i don't think they do). still, VERY SORRY!

well, that's all.

school tomorrow. i don't want to go. cos of you-know-who. but at least our recess times are different so we won't meet. ops, i just gave away some info of you-know-who. any way, we might meet at lunch time. as i think we both have cca on the same days. that's what someone told me. OMG. i think lunch i will not go to the canteen to eat. hmmm, and break the rules cos of her? maybe not. not cos of her. no no no no. never break the rules. (that's just so me!) haha.

okay, so the week end is over. now its a new week. and hopefully, soon, a new begginning. for me. a new start. a way out from this problem of mine. maybe someone will be able to help me. tell me that everything will be alright. that it will all be over soon. that people will forget everything. maybe, just maybe. everything is just a maybe.

hmmm, i am supposed to try and forget what happened. but it seems like i can't. things around me just can't stop happenning. people around me remind me what has happened. things that i see and people that i see remind me of what happened. that's one of the reasons that i don't want to go to school. and face them. but at home, its still the same. when i am alone, not talking to any one, i remember. everything that has happened. trying to see what cost this. trying to see if i am to blame or is it you-know-who. or is it a third party. i just remember all the things that i did. did i do them wrongly? i guess i am reproaching myself.

okay, i have written a lot already. i hope that with all the info here, nobody reading knows who you-know-who is. those that know are those that i told. i thought they could help me. and perhaps, yeah, they did. in their own special way. thank you to all that i have told. thank you A, N, K, I. i think that's all that i have told about the whole story. what happened. what are my fears.......

okay, so bye! sorry for writing so many words and hardly any pics. i am no mood to take pics any more.