okay, quiz time

FIRST 10 THINGS
1. are you single
~YES~
2.are you happy?
~well, here and there. sometimes. depends on what i am thinking of~
3.are you bored?
~well, sort of, since i am doing this quiz~
4.are you fair?
~yeah, i think~
5.are you intelligent?
~nope. really, i don't think that i am~
6.are you honest?
~yeah, i am~
7.are you nice?
~well, it depends. i am not nice to people who irritate me or make me angry~
8.are you irish?
~no~
9.are you asian?
~yes~
10.do you want to be asain?
~ya, i guess!~

next 10 things
1.full name
~charmaine eu hui min
2.nick name
~cha~
3.birth place
~kk hospital~
4.hair colour
~black~
5.natural hair colour
~black, i don't dye my hair~
6.eye colour
~black~
7.moood
~not too happy~
8.birthday
~20march 1995~
9.fave coulours
~pink, blue, purple~
10.one place you would like to visit
~somewhere where i can find peace!~

okay, another 10 things
1.have you ever been in love?
~nope, and i don't want to be~
2.do you believe in love at first sight?
~nope~
3.do you currently have a crush?
~nope, nurin, i don't okay?~
4.have you ever been hurt emotionally?
~well, not by any lover or anythig like that~
5.have you ever broken someone's heart?
~i am sure to have~
6.have you ever had your heart broken?
~no...~
7.have you ever liked someone but never told them?
~no, again, nurin, its a no okay?~
8.are you afraid of commitment?
~no, why should i be?~
9.who was the last person you hugged other then family?
~well, should be kg~
10.who was the last person you said i love you to other then family?
~i don't think i said that to any one else~

i think guys will have a lot of difficulty trying to date me! right?

last 10 things
1.last call?
~amanda chia :)
2.last person you hugged other then family? i think its a repeat!
~kg :)~
3.last person you went out with other then family?
~wow, ummmm, netballers? :)~
4.last person you talked to other then family?
~clare~
5.last person you msned?
~helen kok :), who didn't reply me?~
6last person you texted?
~clare~
7.last person you went to the movies with other then family
~shareen~ :D
8.last person you missed?
~amanda chia~
9.last website you visited
~gracia, for this quiz~
10.last person you ever want to see before you die?
well, atually, family, friends, classmates and netballers! i want to see all of them before i die

okay, i just remembered tmr there's netball training. at last! something to look forward to tomorrow. and there's pe and morning run. yay! things to look forward to tomorrow! okay, i am finally looking at the happy side of things. i guess looking through my ex posts really helps. and this is like the 3rd post today already! yay. should i do a quiz? maybe later if i have time....

OMG. okay, i am feeling very bad now. looked at my past posts hoping that they will help me. then i found my sec1 orientation campfire night. and our fecils were yingxiu, clare, zoe, phoebe and aderline. and very sorry yinxiu and clare, i mispronounced both of your names. OMG. and it happened a year ago. they forgave me BUT, i still feel bad! thankfully they don't know my blog( at least, i don't think they do). still, VERY SORRY!

well, that's all.

school tomorrow. i don't want to go. cos of you-know-who. but at least our recess times are different so we won't meet. ops, i just gave away some info of you-know-who. any way, we might meet at lunch time. as i think we both have cca on the same days. that's what someone told me. OMG. i think lunch i will not go to the canteen to eat. hmmm, and break the rules cos of her? maybe not. not cos of her. no no no no. never break the rules. (that's just so me!) haha.

okay, so the week end is over. now its a new week. and hopefully, soon, a new begginning. for me. a new start. a way out from this problem of mine. maybe someone will be able to help me. tell me that everything will be alright. that it will all be over soon. that people will forget everything. maybe, just maybe. everything is just a maybe.

hmmm, i am supposed to try and forget what happened. but it seems like i can't. things around me just can't stop happenning. people around me remind me what has happened. things that i see and people that i see remind me of what happened. that's one of the reasons that i don't want to go to school. and face them. but at home, its still the same. when i am alone, not talking to any one, i remember. everything that has happened. trying to see what cost this. trying to see if i am to blame or is it you-know-who. or is it a third party. i just remember all the things that i did. did i do them wrongly? i guess i am reproaching myself.

okay, i have written a lot already. i hope that with all the info here, nobody reading knows who you-know-who is. those that know are those that i told. i thought they could help me. and perhaps, yeah, they did. in their own special way. thank you to all that i have told. thank you A, N, K, I. i think that's all that i have told about the whole story. what happened. what are my fears.......

okay, so bye! sorry for writing so many words and hardly any pics. i am no mood to take pics any more.

hmmmm, i feel sorry for this person but feel angry at this person as well. what should i do? OMG, i am lost, i feeel soooo lost. i feeel so weird. seriously, i can't meet this person whether i want to or not. i feel angry cos this person is the cost of all my problems. but i feel sorry for her cos, it seems like she had no choice. nor do i. oh know, i didn't think that i will feel sorry for her. no, not even after 2 months of the incident. the thing that happpened is a memory. but the rumours are still alive right now. hey, tell me what to do can? you-know-who, you are the cos of my problems. and you know it. whether its your fault or not. and not being able to meet you to tell you or confront you, how to solve this? call you? you got to be kidding me right?

okay, i think i have had enough of all this. everything will end soon. if things turn out the way i want it to, i will not have to endure this any longer. i hope the time comes soon. the time when you-know-who will realise what she has done to me.

i don't want to talk about it any more. bye!

so today, had flag day. reached school at 9. it was the reporting time. went to the canteen and talked to a few classmates for a while. thne went to the hall and sat in our groups. talked to ida. then met our seniors. they are lixian, ophelia, yijing, peixin and ???. sorry, i forgot the last senior's name. for my class people, its ida, lena, si jia and me. we went to ikea. but a lot of us were there so lixian called mrs nu and we went to redhill instead. went to lixian's dad's shop. its a hair salon. went to eat. then sold flags again. then went back to school. went home. at night, went out for dinner with cousin and family.

okay, so pics time.

















so that's all the pics i took today.
p.s. lixian, i didn't delete that one... you deleted the other photo yourself. so i can't put it here.:(
i feel like i am talking to myself again. since lixian don't know my blog.(i think) and even if she knows, she won't tag or tell me. right?

well, its been a busy week. lessons are finally in way. okay, so wednesday, we had lessons and then i had training! it was fun! very fun.... but you know, my memory is going so i can't really remember what we did.

thursday was about the same as usual. of course, have lessons. then came home and had ____lesson. well, it was quite okay...... then parents came home and we had dinner. nothing much to talk about....

today
had lessons. d&t was okay, not too bad. today's books are the lightest. then at 12, some cca people were called. netballers set up the netball booth. yay! its was not too bad. chinese we did a compo and ida helped me a lot! thanks! then went to my cca booth and stayed there to help out and shoot. then went to the foyer to meet joyce so she could brieve us. then went to the audi to give out surveys. it was a bit confusing. but mingfung and nasuha was with me! then went out to the corridor and gave the survyes when the talk for parents started. heard the LOUD sec1s cheering outside. and talking veyr loudly. guess what? saw yingxiu! yay! i got her number. then the parents came out at around 7.30. they had refreshments while we had to ursher them down to the hard court. we did eat too though. then went to see the campfire performance for a while then had to go home already. went somewhere to eat dinner with family.

today, you-know-who did something i didn't expect you-know-who would do.something to do with a netball. any way, it was surprising. i am begginning to think that there is a third side to this issue. well, i will know soon enough. i hope!

i'm going to start this post with what happened on monday.

nothing much. just a lot of talks and a bit boring.... also had this project thing to do....so fast have a project already! its too fast. then had training. and the netball trials. guess what? it rained! but still the trials continued. and we did drills as usual. but we did it in the corridor. partnered g and sq. and i laughed like don't know what! haha. we played match then went home.

today
first day of lessons. not too bad. miss chan came 20 mins late! english was okay. then had recess and i practised shooting. didn't eat. but saw teresa. got my locker form. then had VE. it was a bit fun?! well, we went to the canteen and were supposed to share some stuff about ourselves. but i bought food for my recess. haha! then had dance. WE DID DANCE! okay, it was great. had lit. and mrs rajen scolded us.... again. then ended school. came home. ate spagetti for lunch. then called amanda. and fell asleep. and woke up cos l called me. then had dinner with family. now on comp.

oh yeah, the link to check your name is www.isthisyour.name

hmmm, this is my 8th post of the month. yay! i am aiming for 30. but it will be a bit tough. i have to study very soon! this weekend is my last break. then next week i will start studying again. i must!!!!!

OMG, i realised that my blog has no more pics in the post. well, i have to go and find some soon. any way, today did nothing much. went to get vanguard sheet for my table. and i drew some stuff for my table too. pics won't get till tuesday. guess what? my leg is bandaged up already! or rather again! but tmr i will be at training. its jsut cos its a bit pain still. otherwise, i am okay. i don't like my legs. they are the cost of most of my problems now. can you believe it? my own legs!

okay, any way, sheryl ng helped my find this website to tell me about my name. thanks a lot sheryl!

-okay, so 55% of my name are vowels.
-out of one million first and last names, 1.1%have a higher vowel make up. which means that i am extremely well envoweled
-backwards its eniamrahc ue. sounds weird right?
-in pig latin, its armainechay euway.

-people with this first name is probably female.
-my personal power animal is yellow-bellied weasel
-my number is 8.
-means that you are motivated by material success and have an aptitude for business, managerial and financial matters. This comes through your uncommon discipline and persistence
-According to the US Census Bureau°, 0.011% of US residents have the first name 'Charmaine' and fewer than 0.001% have the surname 'Eu'. The US has around 300 million residents, so we guesstimate there is only 1 American who goes by the name Charmaine Eu.



interesting right?thanks a lot sheryl!!!!!!

i just realised. almost all the pics on the right side of my blog are of netballers! only one is of my class and the other is nz group. wow, its so uneven.......

hmmmm, next sat will have red cross flag day. again! but we will get cip points. should be 5 hours. yay! last year i got 26 points already. now plus 5 is 31! its still a long way from 100. still have 69 more to go.

okay, now i really have nothing to talk about already. so bye.

hmmmmmm, well, there is really nothing to talk about now. and no one is tagging on my tag board. someone please tag! where had everybody gone? its been quite a while since someone tagged. please tag!

last night called lc and talked for like 30min only? OMG. any way, i have nothing to say. then when i was online, talked to t for a long time. t, i am sorry. i didn't say goodbye to you last night. so sorry!!!!!!!!!

i am not really going to do anything today. just stay at home, use comp and watch tv. oh yeah, i must think of how to decorate my table in school. likely to have pics and stuff about netball. really likely. but i will try to improvise from last year's table decoration. hmmmmmmmmmm(deep in thought). haha.

that's about all for now? i guess....... hmmmmmm, nothing to say already....

so today was the first day of school. it was okay..... but i keep thinking that i am in sec1c instead of sec2c! haha. i guess my classmates think so too. so now our form teacher is mrs rajen but co-form is ms dona koh.

we didn't do much today. its like a bit borin. we had a very boring christmas celebration. then went to have a 45 minute recess(in the end it was only 30 min!). then went to class and talked about school rules and stuff like that. then chose our new cmc. wow. every position has changed. then school ended.

had training. didn't feel the same being sec2 and having 4 juniors training with us. and no more sec4s and sec5s of last year. felt really different.but it was fun. i played as ga again. looks like i will never be able to change position.

then came home with one of the sec1s(i feel so old now). we took the same bus. had spagetti for dinner! great!

what i have gained this year
-new friendships
-new team mates
-new netball team
-new classmates
-new teachers
-new school
-new class

what i have lost
-lost contact with lots of my ex classmates
-some friends

who i want to say goodbye to
-amanda chia
i have known you for not more then half a year. but now that you are changing school, i hope that our friendship will still last. and that you will never forget me. i will never forget you. good luck!
-jenisa
you are really a good friend. good luck for your time in smss and after that. please remember to keep in contact. don't forget our deal on 14 febuaury. good luck!
-khoongeok
you know, you are really a great senior, team mate and captain. thanks for selecting me for the top7 in the trails. thanks for all the encouragement that you have given me. thanks for guiding me and helping me to improve my netball skills.
thanks for everything! i know that in due time, you will forget me. but for now, keep in contact with me! thank you soo much!!!!!!!!! good luck!
-teresa
thank you for helping me to improve my shooting. without you, i won't have known as many shooting skills as i have. thank you for being a good senior. and for guiding me. i will miss you! remember me okay? good luck!
-helen
thank you for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all that you have done for me. and for being patient with me. and for helping me! i won't forget you. good luck!

well, that's all i have to say for today. if i have any more to say, i will put it in my next post. bye!

so now, let me reflect on my year. here's my long story.

i can still remember the first time i went to join my classmates in stc. my class of 41, sec1c! only 3 were from my class last year. one tranfered out to another class and the other become my close friend. then we went to the hard court. and had my first assembly in stc. up till now, i don't know why i wanted to come here. i could just have gone to another school. but i am here now. 41 of us in 1c. then one left but another came. now, tmr, we will feel the lost of another classmate. will another come in? who knows? tomorrow will tell.

met my teacher for the first time. and we were brieved and all. you know, first day stuff. all talk and nothing else.

next came my netball trail. and although i wanted sooo much to join tennis, i ended up in netball. but i do not regret. not at all. for netball, the road to acceptance was tough. there were many ups and downs. but now, my first year in stc netball is over. and i am glad that i joined. i made friends, had fun, relaxed and finally lived my life. all this from netball. it has become so important to me. that i feel it is part of me. thank you stc netballers of 2008! for everything. for accepting me, for helping me, for cheering me on, for making netball so fun, for making me enjoy stc netball, for letting me join in and lastly, for making sooo happy. the activities we did were fun and memorable. from south zone, to milk run, to fun on foot, to the netball carnivals and sports camp, you all have helped me a great deal. and it was so fun! thank you so much!

during the year, i made many friends in my class and as well as outside my class. thank you
amanda-thanks for being my twin. and listening to my problems. you really are a good friend. some things just can't be expressed in words. good luck for next year. in smss. have fun twin! don't forget me!

karthika-thank you for being there by my side all throughout the year. for helping me countlessly and for letting me tell you my thoughts. we had a lot of fun together!

jenisa-thanks for all the laughter you have given me. all the fun, all the joy, all the help. good luck in smss. and do not forget me!

janice-thanks for being such a great friend. thanks for being my partner for most things and for being my buddy! thanks for letting me confide in you!

to all the rest of sec1c, my friends in other classes, my friends in other levels, my friends who have left stc already and all my kellock friends, i want you to know that you have all helped me in one way or another. to list all of you down here is impossible. but as i said, you have all helped me. so thank you. for everything.

to everyone, happy new year! hope that you have a great year ahead! okay, today, did nothing much. slept at 3am this morning. woke at ??? time. then went out to vivo and came back. now on the comp and eating dinner. well, nothing much is happening in my life right now.

any way, thanks to these people who wished me happy new year...
~da yi ma
~sheryl ng
~elsperth chan
~halie wang
~loretta
~yee isabelle
~sonia

that's about all for now. so bye!

today, was at home until the night. then went out with dad to eat. went to ikea and then to imm. then came back at around 9.45. any way, nothing much to talk about.


but christable, happy birthday!
i tried calling you twice but you were not free? so sorry, have to wish you happy birthday online on my blog.

well, that's all for now.

today was fine. i guess. the meeting was okay.... met a lot of people at the foyer then went to the audi. outside was the pics of nz. and i am in 4 of them. yay! any way, had to practise singing a a few songs for the first day of school. looks like we will be singing infront of the whole school. after we recieve our certificates for the nz trip. any way, we are standing by our groups. and i am in the 3rd row. so you can't really see me. yay!

we had free seating at first. so sat next to amanda and nasuha. was talking to them for quite a while.

btw, you-know-who, can you not make it so obvious? i mean what did i do to you? its like i find my group on the stage and then i go up and you go down so everyone follows? come on! i kept a distance from you. isen't that enough? i need to be with my group too you know. and it hurts me. to think that you are doing this. on the outside, i look okay, the usual, the same. but on the inside, itws totally different. well, you won't know that right? as if you know me that well. at least, you helped me find my true friends. friends who would STAY BY ME AND HELP ME! unlike you.

wow, that's a whole paragraph!

any way, grandma came to my house and we talked and all. then we ate dinner. she cooked fried noodles for my family and i to eat. we watched the little nyonya until she went home. and guess what? i baked again. i LOVE baking.
got to go already. so bye!

tmr going to school for nz trip meeting. its the whole 100 of us.

any way, i don't feel like going. its just a feeling. some will know why, others won't. haha, okay, i am talking in riddles again. sorry, but yeah...

today baked cookies again. yay! its fun. maybe will make to bring to school someday. next time i want to try to make a cake. but cookies easier.

okay, nothing much to post about already. will post again next time. now playing neopets! yeah, i am back to neopets!!!!!!!!!!

yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay! this is the 80th post!

i am going to talk about today... well, woke at 8 or so i think? then went to great world and got tickets for the 11.50 show on bedtime stories. ate breakfast with mum. walked around the place and bought a red shirt for myself. then went to watch the show. it was quite okay. a few funny parts but that's about all i can say about it. after that walked around a bit more then came home. watched tv and slept for a while. then watched tv and now on the comp.

holidays are ending soon! btw, saw miss chin(my home econs teacher) just now on bus 100 when coming home. said hi!

that's all for now.

christmas is over! okay, i am going to share with you a poem. i just thought it might help other out there who might neeed it. like it helped me when i read it. so enjoy!

outside you see me smiling
and floating through each day
a little tired, a little thin
but overall okay

but you didn't hear my anguished thoughts
which surface every night
they plague me, huant me, taunt me
untill i'm too weak to fight

and so, next day, i come to school
with deeeply shawdowed eyes
i smile, laugh and speak on cue
living a pack of lies

a silent scream echoes inside,
reaction to my lie-
until with no warning, it erupts
and i crumble down and cry

come fine me, help me, make it stop
no! keep out, go away!
for if you come, i've no control
over the words i say

cab't you hear my silent scream?
decipher what i hide?
so come and ask me what is wrong,
come and sit down by my side

if nothing else then please read through
this tangled web i weave
for you are really not the one
i'm trying to decive

help me, i don't know what i want
i've lost my guiding light
please hold me, let me cry and say
somehow you'll make it right

perhaps, deep down, i know what's wrong,
what keeps me awake
what is the source of my tears
and ever there heartache

but not yet can i face it,
or maybe i just won't
please, someone help me understand-
god onl knows i don't

hohoho! merry christmas!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, most of you have already recieved my sms this morning. so i don't need to wish you all any more. and i went to almost all my links last night to say merry christmas to you on your tagboard. good right? (yeah, right) haha. i am talking to myself. any way, i spent like 80 sms saying merry christmas to everyone. i am really going overboard. i sent to netballers, nz trip mates, ytsa, friends and teachers. next year, i won't be going to that extent already. and guess what? a lot of them ask me who i am! okay, if you read this, don't feel sad. i am not saying names here.

people who wished me merry christmas!
-family
-netballers(no particular order okay?)
~vivian
~nurin
~mildred
~trudy
~nadhira
~teresa
~lixian
~yuxin
~denise
~khoongeok
~helen
~weiqi
~rosabella
~weiqi
~amira
-nz group mates
~amanda tan
~sumathi
~christabel
-friends(stc)
~nasuha
~elsperth
~maisie
~ching yi
~nadia
-friends(kellock)
~felicia
~shareen
~leechin
~dhyvia
~siyao
sorry if i missed out your name.

okay, so today woke at 9.30! ate brownies for breakfast. then went to bukit merah supermarket to buy a lot of stuff. and ate kfc for lunch. came home and baked cookies. made 29 in total! but no pictures to show you..... then went to bath and blew dry my hair. slept for a while. fetched my mum to her dinner. then went to grandma's house to eat dinner. talked to my relatives. played taiti with cousin and dad. watched don't forget the lyrics as i played taiti. then came home and watched the little nyonya before bathing. now on the comp. so that's how i spent my christmas! no church, nothing...haha. its like this every year. no surprise...

any way, this is a long post. so got to go now! BYE!

so on tuesday, went out with my aunt to eat lunch with her and one of her friends with her two children. they are stephanie and ???? we went to vivo and played in the water at the roof top. then went to pageone. and then had lunch at secret recipe. then went to giant and walked around before going home. went home and slept. at night had piano lesson. then slept.

here are the pictures




today
went to school for self training. very slack. we trained in the hall cos it was raining. then had team talk for about 1 hour. went to chamber after that with d,w,k,a,i,g,n. took 65 and went to cineleisure orchard to eat ljs. we watched the return at chamber. super boring and not scary at all!!!!! then went home

pictures!

okay. here is the picture that i owe.

its sunday's picture from the scholarship thing. yes, its only one picture!


my cousin and i don't really take many pictures. sorry

okay, so i am going to elaborate more about the past few days.

friday
went to my dad's friend's house for a christmas dinner. ate dinner and played uno with some of dad's colleagues. then played a game(idk what its called). talked a bit then played uno again until i had to go home. reached home at about 11? then went on the comp and played monopoly with my cousin until i finally fell asleep. and i was talking to amanda online halfway. sorry i didn't say goodbye!

saturday
woke at ??? time. had breakfast. then went to my grandma's house. we baked a butter cake. then had lunch. and then played a few games with my grandma and cousin. fell asleep. woke when mum, dad, yima and an auntie came. then we had dinner. and after dinner, played taiti with dad and cousin. the rest left and then cousin and i watched tv till 12. slept.

sunday
woke at 7.30. changed and went to the nearby playground with cousin, grandma and her maid. played around there for a long time. got a basketball and tried shooting(i could not shoot, sorry) had breakfast at abc market(weird name). went back to grandma's house. bathed. dad picked us up. went home and changed to school uniform. went o get a edusave scholarship thing. met ariel, si yao and rachel there. then went to eat lunch and went to kbox.then went home(this part was in the last post)

today
woke at around 8 plus. got changed and went out with mum and cousin. had breakfast at macs. $2 burger! so bought a shirt and a present for gift exchange. also got 10 christmas cards. some people will know why soon. and cousin bought a shirt. we spent like 3 over hours walking around to get clothes. there was a $200 buget. but i used only 11.95! yay! had ice cream with my mum and cousin. very ex! then cousin had to go home as she had badminton class. walked around a while more. then went home. and i slept till 8 plus! OMG. woke up, went for dinner and then came back. now on the comp!

pics will be posted another day. no time now.