school tomorrow. i don't want to go. cos of you-know-who. but at least our recess times are different so we won't meet. ops, i just gave away some info of you-know-who. any way, we might meet at lunch time. as i think we both have cca on the same days. that's what someone told me. OMG. i think lunch i will not go to the canteen to eat. hmmm, and break the rules cos of her? maybe not. not cos of her. no no no no. never break the rules. (that's just so me!) haha.

okay, so the week end is over. now its a new week. and hopefully, soon, a new begginning. for me. a new start. a way out from this problem of mine. maybe someone will be able to help me. tell me that everything will be alright. that it will all be over soon. that people will forget everything. maybe, just maybe. everything is just a maybe.

hmmm, i am supposed to try and forget what happened. but it seems like i can't. things around me just can't stop happenning. people around me remind me what has happened. things that i see and people that i see remind me of what happened. that's one of the reasons that i don't want to go to school. and face them. but at home, its still the same. when i am alone, not talking to any one, i remember. everything that has happened. trying to see what cost this. trying to see if i am to blame or is it you-know-who. or is it a third party. i just remember all the things that i did. did i do them wrongly? i guess i am reproaching myself.

okay, i have written a lot already. i hope that with all the info here, nobody reading knows who you-know-who is. those that know are those that i told. i thought they could help me. and perhaps, yeah, they did. in their own special way. thank you to all that i have told. thank you A, N, K, I. i think that's all that i have told about the whole story. what happened. what are my fears.......

okay, so bye! sorry for writing so many words and hardly any pics. i am no mood to take pics any more.