well, yesturday's tuition was fine.. emath was easy, amath i can't do! will have to go and try again soon! and i can't find my chinese worksheet for homework! help! any way, i will do next week i think. was supposed to do it on the first weekend after hols started, but i got sick! irritating! so i just left it somewhere and its gone! going for netball chalet later. not staying over like i planned to. cos SOME people said they were going and going to stay over and in the end, not going at all! tmr also have 2c bbq. scared its too much of a rush tmr, so will not stay over! next time! i've not much to do now. cos i can't go to the chalet place right now...

the first song on the list almost shows what i am feeling right now.... hmmm... to some extent.... cos i'm feeling down now! really sad! and some words are exactly what i am feeling... that's why its the first song. breathe, by taylor swift.

i am posting again! well, there is nothing to do! and i have lost my chinese worksheet i think. will be calling friends soon!

hmm, today was not too good. had training. don't feel too good! my cough is still here.. a bit... but i feel worse cos of netball.... i did not play well at all. what am i doing? crashing into team mates? not running into free space? can't get free from my defender? cannot pass properly? do i really deserve to be playing? and i can actually trip over people and fall???? what am i really doing? what has happened to me during netball? i thought that monday's training was just a one day thing. seems like i am not playing properly and i am letting my team down! i do need to question myself....

well, today was basically training. after training, the seniors gathered round coach and formed a circle with her in the middle. then went round her! haha! later will have tuition from 6.30-9.30. will be at tiong! i've been on the comp for a long time. maybe i should go offline soon....

well, today was supposed to go to school in the morning, but did not as have to meet someone in the morning. any way, met zhiting at vivo after that for a show. went to see Micheal Jackson's This Is It! it was nice! king of pop! will always remember him. after the show, we walked round. trying to find presents for friends, but it was tough. so in the end, gave up buying anything. went home and called siti, leechin(she did not answer), abigail, shareen. wanted to call twin but fell asleep! sorry twin! i will call you again soon. called karthika in the morning! you are not coming for the BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( so any way, at night, grandfather came with aunt. had dinner and the day's over already! well, this week will be packed! next week is more relaxed. but i want to do stuff during the hols instead of lazing around the house. so will probably plan stuff during the whole hols! training and math tuition tmr! can't wait!

i have not posted last week! well, there was one post..... but that's all! maybe cos of camp! any way, i'm still in a confused state of mine. ever struggled with feelings before? its like you pull one string, it may snap or not. and i've no idea if it will. so talking to you is like this. usually, i never really think before i say something to you. cos i used to believe that you will be okay with it. until that incident. i realised that if its not you who changed, then it must be me. yeah, i have somewhat changed. not anything apparent. only those that i tell will know. its only a select group of people... any way, i don't know what to do. i want to talk to you, but there is seriously nothing to talk about already. i've run out of ideas. i'm repeating the same questions over and over again to keep the conversation going but its tough. i know that you will understand this. but the chances of you reading this, well, i don't think you know my blog. unless you do, but like a lot of people, don't say. we have been drawn apart. and since its hols, its worse. i can't judge a single thing when we talk on msn. and we don't talk elsewhere. sometimes i think i should just end this. end all the things that i have been interested in cos of your influence. and be the person i once was. before jap/korean songs, before anime, before POT.believe me, i was more carefree. in some aspects. cos i don't see a point in having a friend that i can't really connect to. but i don't want to lose a friend as well. hmmm, its a tough choice. if our friendship have to end, then it must end. and so, before i have no chance to say it, good luck and goodbye!

again, don't try to assume its you. cos i'm again talking about more then one person! though it may seem like only one person. but...... only the people i am really talking about will understand this. agree?

well, i haven't been posting for a long time. well, on tuesday, was at home for a while i think... was in school in the morning. for netball training. for some reason, i was super tired! i don't know why. but anyway, came home and packed for module 2. i took one day to pack! all the clothes and all. went online. was wondering what others were bringing. so asked around. went out for dinner with parents. came home after that.

will skip to after module 2. cos module post is up! so on sunday, woke up at 9. finally can wake up late. watched tv and slept again in the afternoon for 2-3 hours. was so tired! went online. talked and did LAMDA prep. went out for dinner. and came back on the comp again. talked to people online. and watched a part of POT. its been a long time since i watched POT or even watched anime. i think my craze is going down. cos i haven't been into it. its more of jap and korean songs now. i think it is peer influence... some people i mean.

monday
today was a busy day! went to school in the morning for netball training. was okay. abigail did not come:( but training was okay. it was not too tiring but i was very blur. for once. and we made mrs mok angry. sorry! after training, stayed to help out to move stuff to from the metal shed thing. went home, changed, did more LAMDA stuff. went out from the house when it was raining heavyly. reached the 124 bus stop. and it was raining much heavier. decided to walk to school in the rain. got my shoes all drenched. cos there were big puddles where the water collected and could not avoid it. plus the heavy rain beating down! so got half drenched. any way, went to the LAMDA waiting room, then was shown into the exam room. thankfully the air con was not really turned on, and the room was so hot. did the talk and the part 2 thing. took quite a while. but when it came to the coversation, it was 'tell me about the best day of your life'. i was stunned. cos i didn't have one. so since my talk was on netball, i said the best day of my life was when we got second for a carnival! netballers, remember?? off course, i made up some parts, but most parts was the truth. and the conversation was only like 2 min max! then the examiner was like 'okay, it was a great pleasure to meet you, thank you, you can go now!' so i think the conversation part will be horrible this year. last year's conversation was so much longer. or maybe cos my speech was shorter. any way, went to tiong after that with sonia, ariel, sheryl ng, teryn, lixian, calista.

was in tiong with sonia and ariel till 6. talked and laughed. we bought some stuff then went to the 5th floor to sit down and talk. went to comics connection after that. then they went home. i went for dinner and had tuition! amath and emath tuition! for next year! now i am feeling so tired! got to post on module 2 already. so bye!

module 2

day 1 (wednesday 4 november)
went to school by 7. wore long pants and dragged my heavy bag. to the foyer. then up to the hard court. we were given our rooms. and miss quek! i was the only 2c councillor sleeping in 1d. the rest were in 1c!OMG! but i had abigail and grace, so no prob! went down again to take a bus to the changi campsite. sat with nadia and grace! at the campsite, we were split into groups, was with abigail. and 21 others. we did rock climbing. some of us. there was no time for everyone. then we did the hands game. the one that we needed to cross hands to the person opposite you, stand in a circle and try to get free. we got free but was in two circles. so did again. then got stuck. any way, we did the low elements activity after lunch! was fun! we were supposed to climb onto this small allevated piece of rock thing. we did it in 37 seconds! and had to push a wheel out of this metal thing. we did not succeed for this.any way, we went on to partner group 3(we were group 4) to build a raft. we had no communication and the raft was not build properly. when it went into the water, the raft did not break, but it changed shape! looked like a piece of junk! no offense! had to race to the school flag. group 1 and 2 got it first, but we snatched for it and finally got it. the rest pulled the raft back and we dismantled it and put the stuff back. did a final camp review and waited long long for the bus to come. only my group's bus took a long time to come. the rest were okay! unfair! so we reached school late. but our room was the one who ate first, so no prob. we went to bath after that. then we went to split up into our different groups and had talks. and then we went to the rifle range and got a talk on the forums that were going to take place the next two nights. had to think of questions. and then had 5 lessons of flying together. was about geese and how to relate them to us. we were free to go already. brushed teeth and slept next to abigail and gomathi! heard music to sleep. some others were talking or playing!

day 2( thursday 5 november 2009)
woke up at 5.55. someone had a alarm tone like an insect and it kept ringing. it was so irritating after a while! woke abigail when her phone's alarm went off. and went to brush teeth and got ready for the day. we had breakfast which was just a bun. had a programme brief. had training on servant leadership. we had lunch. then went to split up into groups. was in the NE committee. went to the gym room with mrs haizal. split into groups. two sec2s per group. partnered Abigail. then the sec1s were shiyin, rachel and jacintha. there were no sec3s at all in the whole committee. mrs h talked about NE. then we had to get our group names. we were in charge of racial harmony day. had to think of plans for it. after a while, we went to the foyer for dance. it was like bollywook dancing. and the music was jay ho! after dance. we went to wash up and have dinner. we went to the audi for the first forum. mrs Ho, an entrepenuer, came to talk to us about her life from a teacher(she was a teacher for 32 years) to a business lady. she is working as someone who brings maids to singapore. it was not too bad. after the forum, we went down to the canteen to discuss the project work. was dismissed at 11. and we went to our rooms. brushed teeth, slept next to abigail and gomathi. its the same every night! and heard music!

module 2

day 3( 6 november 2009)
woke up at 5.55. cos my alarm time was 5.55. slept again. phone rang every 5 minutes. finally woke at 6.10 or 6.15. woke abigail then went to the toilet to brush teeth. got ready and went to the canteen for breakfast. it was noodles. and it was chilli hot. could not eat it so did not finish it. we went for the talk on who wants to be a leader in the teatherette. by miss donna koh and miss emily koh. was for the sec2 and 3 councillors. we also had a talk on what type of leader we were. the sec1s did every class has one and the sports leaders and house captains did the theresain athelete. it was about 12 when we ended. had lunch. we went with our groups to the comp labs to do the powerpoints for the presentation. then had dance. was lyrical hip hop. partnered ayilisha. after dance, we went for an MC talk by mr dan and mr??? we only had about 45 min the most to bath and eat. thankfully could do both. went to the audi for the talk on the Mount Everest team. two of six came to talk to us. it was great! after the talk, we went back to our classrooms. wondered around here and there. took lots of pics. brushed teeth and did a bit of project work. was already about 1 plus maybe before i slept. did not hear music as charger was with sharmila.

day 4(saturday 7 november)
woke up later then usual. same thing, went to wake abigail and brushed teeth. did packing the night before already, so nothing much to do. went down for breakfast. had to do a morning run. my group did dog and bone, captains ball, ice and melt and duck duck goose! some played catching and captains ball. one group actually ran! on the track! any way, went to the oomp lab again to finish the last part of powerpoint. then went to find mrs h. waited outside staff room. saw a cat and played with it. then went into the staffroom. it is soo big!!!!!! i thought it would be smaller. but it can't beat kellock's one. talked to mrs h. then went to the auid where mr francis talked to us. had two hours for lunch and to bath if we wanted. and to present. but my group did not present. went to the hall for the investiture rehersal. went back to class to relax. then heard must take blazer so we took blazers. after that had to change into council whites by 4. so rushed to the toilet. and got ready in about 30min? finally got my whites done, hair done and wore court shoes! went to the audi after that. took pics and waited. parents came to give me the badges. went to the hall to do a last minute rehersal. came out and went down to the canteen. talked to parents and janice, helen and shirlyn. went back to the audi. came down to the toilet, then went into the hall. sat down. was bored and so called janice to talk and talked to karthika too!

finally the programme began. started out with a hymm and prayer. then had a video montarge. after that nadia said a speech. had the badge presentation. when i was going back to my seat, mrs dahamel called me to give me an envelope and a letter!!!! thank you so much!!!!! mrs wong also said a few words. had another video montarge! was so funny! the word that is said the most in the video is 'WAIT!" and the video was super! it was so funny!!!!!! kept laughing!!!! finally we ended with the school song. we took pics level by level. went to the canteen, took pics with some people, mrs dehamel and miss koh, then went home! and that's the end of module 2!!!!! well, its over! sadly!

to everyone who made this camp possible, i want to say a big thank you! it was not only fun and enjoyable, i learnt to become a better leader and i have also made new friends. it was really enriching. and thanks to mrs Ho and the two female climbers from Singapore who climbed mount Everest as they came to talk to us. and lastly, thank you my friends! the camp was fun with you all. this includes the 11 other 2c leaders who came, Sasha, Ming Fung, Claris, Nadia, Kimberly Hendricks, Ida, Teryn, Loretta, , Natasha, Peirong and Zann. not forgetting Nasuha, Jamie, Ayilisha, Abigail, Yoges and Trisha. i think that i was closest to you all during this camp. and also Gomathi who slept next to me. and Jacintha, Rachel and Shiyin who were the NE group members! and Grace! thank you! it has been a great journey with you all. off course, there were others that i talked to and partnered, but these people are the ones who really made module 2 fun!

day 1 pics! going to the campsite

nadia

grace doing her piano theory

kim and tina

all of nadia trying to jump

i think this is the last night!

loret, ming and ida

nadia, loret, ida, ming, kim, teryn

jamie

this is a bit blur! sorry!

teryn, nadia, loret, ida, ming

teryn, nadia, loret, ida, kim, ming

peirong, jamie, nasuha

peirong, jamie, nasuha, ayilisha

loret, nadia, ming, ida, kim, tina

grace and me!

abigail and gomathi

abigail and gomathi

trisha and amanda

me, trisha, abigail, amanda

christmas tree!

abigail, trisha, yoges and me!(netball team good friends)

yoges and me!

abigail, trisha, yoges and me!

mural painting

kim and me!

charishma and me

sharmila

mural painting of 2c!

junior.... i think you are rachel

abergale

ida!

jamie, nasuha, ayilisha

nasuha and ayilisha

nasuha, ayilisha and me

nasuha

last day

school's netball court(i may miss this)

:)

zann

little nadia!

shiyin and rachel( i think! cos i can't really remember your names!)

someone's cute pencil box

hmm, you are?

ming and ida!

pairong, jamie, ayilisha, nasuha

peirong, jamie, nasuha, ayilisha and me!

ming, kim and me

gomathi, abigail and me

ida, claris and me!

loret!

nadia and me!

yoges and me

janice!

last night

mum and me!(mrs h is behind!)

                                      

sec2 group pics!!!!

yoges and me!(nice hair!)

someone took this shot with my camera upside down!!!!

now this is the correct pic! miss koh looks so pretty right?

karthika and helen!

karthika!!!!

mrs dehamel and her cute daughter!

trisha and me!

so that's all for the module 2 pics. its really a lot! and it was so fun! i miss the camp! the investiture, the nights and the rush to bath! got closer to some people in the camp, while others, well, did not seem as close as expected. knew new people. it was fun! and i won't forget module 2!