i have not posted last week! well, there was one post..... but that's all! maybe cos of camp! any way, i'm still in a confused state of mine. ever struggled with feelings before? its like you pull one string, it may snap or not. and i've no idea if it will. so talking to you is like this. usually, i never really think before i say something to you. cos i used to believe that you will be okay with it. until that incident. i realised that if its not you who changed, then it must be me. yeah, i have somewhat changed. not anything apparent. only those that i tell will know. its only a select group of people... any way, i don't know what to do. i want to talk to you, but there is seriously nothing to talk about already. i've run out of ideas. i'm repeating the same questions over and over again to keep the conversation going but its tough. i know that you will understand this. but the chances of you reading this, well, i don't think you know my blog. unless you do, but like a lot of people, don't say. we have been drawn apart. and since its hols, its worse. i can't judge a single thing when we talk on msn. and we don't talk elsewhere. sometimes i think i should just end this. end all the things that i have been interested in cos of your influence. and be the person i once was. before jap/korean songs, before anime, before POT.believe me, i was more carefree. in some aspects. cos i don't see a point in having a friend that i can't really connect to. but i don't want to lose a friend as well. hmmm, its a tough choice. if our friendship have to end, then it must end. and so, before i have no chance to say it, good luck and goodbye!

again, don't try to assume its you. cos i'm again talking about more then one person! though it may seem like only one person. but...... only the people i am really talking about will understand this. agree?