oh dear, i have missed wishing a few people's birthdays on this blog

so

happy birthday

zhimin!!!!!!

rosabella!!!!!

vivian!!!!

hope you all had a great birthday!

pics from today. i won't be writing anything about the pics...

i'm home!!!!

yesturday went over to grandma's house to stay over with cousin. had a great time! no time to post now, so will post tonight. wait for updates!

(updated)

yesturday woke up and dad sent me to grandma's house. baked cake with grandma then took a nap.... cousin came then aunt came. went to revenue house for lunch. sushi!!! went back to grandma's house and slacked.... bathed, had dinner. fried noodles. watched tv with grandma and cousin. dad called, mum smsed. grandma and cousin slept at 11. i watched till 12 then slept

today

woke up at 6, went back to sleeep cos too early, woke up at 7, went on the bed(i initiallly slept on the mattress and grandma and cousin slept on the bed. woke at 8 with cousin. ate breakfast then bathed. played cards and had lunch cousin's parents came to fetch me home.

reached home, played on the comp. waited for friends to arrive. mum came home! kristy came then sha, then maddie. played manopoly... then kristy and maddie helped me with chinese homework. thanks!!!! played on the comp, did random stuff. at 6.30, they went home. dad came home with dinner. ate then on the comp now.

got to go and do some stuff now. bye!

mood

happy!

whatever it is i'll fly,
whatever it takes i'll try
so don't pay no mind
to what other people say
(whatever it takes by leona lewis)


this is my 200th post! and i got my own laptop!!! yay!!!!! so happy!!!!!


today woke up at 10am again! overslept!!!! :( bathed, did some work. going through history stuff!!!;) singapore's history. interesting but also boring at the same time. called up some friends today. karthika, janice, leechin, shareen, yoges, trisha? that's about all..... went for dinner at tiong with dad. had tuition. only girl there again...:( did sets... tough topic! went to petrol kiosk to top up car's petrol then homed. now on youtube watching something.

mood
happy that my laptop is here and it works!!!!!!!:D

mada mada dane
(quote from prince of tennis... yes, i'm watching the anime of prince of tennis!!!!)

today
woke at 7am!!!!! ate breakfast with mum. then went down to get a cab with mum... she left, i went back home. then mum said on sms, 'hello! miss you!' and i got it just 3 minutes after she left??? haha. so replied. then reached home. walked round the house aimlessly. couldn't get back to sleep though i wanted to. so went to bath. before leaving, mum smsed me again to say that she had boarded the plane and was leaving. then called y. talked and talked. and just slacked the whole day. did my work though. slept from 2 to 3. got another sms from mum to say she has reached her hotel. watched 4 mtv shows and only knew like 3 songs. then dad picked me up..... went to grandma's house. ate dinner. then came home, had piano.... now on the comp. waiting for mum to call!

nothing much has been happening...

yesturday
woke up at 10am!!!! maybe cos i slept late... was on youtube... aunt called and told me she would pick me up at 11am. so rushed through everything but got ready on time. went out with aunt, uncle, grandma to the marina barriage to have lunch. the food was great! then went to some place to see about singapore's water and how the barrage is built/used. a lot of good info. wish i had gone there to do my geog project. after that went to aunt's house. played gameboy. left to buy durian for family. went to grandma's house. slept a while. woke up, had dinnner then tuition! at tiong. only girl there.:( reached home, won't go into details but spent time with mum and all...

mum's going overseas.... until friday! so cannot see her!!!!!

mood
sad.....

and i don't know how it gets better then this
you take my hand and drive me head first fearless
and i don't know why but with you i'll dance
in the storm in my best dress fearless
from taylor swift's fearless

nothing much to post today. just say that i had to go shopping:(

mood
feeling happy(cos flag day is still in me), but guilty that i am happy...

you're the only thing i know at the back of my head
and i can't breathe...
without you,
but i have to

okay, time to post!

yesturday
woke up, ate breakfast, then got ready. called karthika then y. talked on the phone then left for harbourfront interchange to meet janice! ate lunch there with her. bought the mirrors. did our project at vivo. but decided to go to back to my house instead to finish it. so went home. did the project, just need to decorate it. slacked a while in my house. janice played some stuff on the piano! haha. she went through the yearbook.... don't know why suddenly go through the yearbook. at 3.30, she left. called y again. talked, slept, then woke up. dad went with me to ikea to eat hotdogs. went to the dentist. got bleeding gums so hard to do the cap!:( went home and was on the comp... but didn't post!

today
went to spca for flag day. met lindy and kim lim at the bartley mrt. then at spca, met up with shiying, shen ru and ???. sorry, forgot her name... partnered lindy cos i'm underage.-.- went to chinatown for the first part of flag day. we walked round then in the end stood in front of the macs there. and managed to finish two sheets of the sticker thing(100) stickers in chinatown. met up with the rest at 12.30. went for lunch at plaza singapura. lindy, kim and i ate at long john silver's. the rest ate at yoshinoya. split up again after that. went with lindy to orchard. walked around, but hardly any donations. so decided to go to amk. went to amk.... called the rest and decided to go back to spca ourselves instead of meeting them. so we spent our time outside the amk hub building. at 4 plus i think, some officer told us we could not stand there. so we walked elsewhere. the went back to bishan. took the circle line and reached bartley. also took the one and only pic that i took today on the train. went to spca. waited for kim and shenru. meanwhile, i did a big mistake! went with lindy to the dogs viewing place. then lindy started to 'woof, woof'!!!! all the way!!! kim and shen ru came and kim asked what i have done to lindy!!! haha. returned our tin. kim and shen ru left for the mrt. lindy and i waited for our parents. and she was still going on the 'woof, woof' thing!!!! her family came and she left. waited for dad and went home. bathed, changed, went to grandma's house for dinner. smsed twin, janice and lindy. fell asleep halfway! sorry!!!! woke up, went home and now on the comp posting..

you know, any one who can read this post till here is a genius!!! i am also too bored to read my whole post again. haha

mood
outside- happy!!! cos of flag day!! and the fun we had!!!!
inside-sad.... hurting..... cos of someone!

there is always going to be another mountain,
i'm always going to want to make it move,
always going to be an uphill battle,
sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
(the climb-miley cyrus)

this verse sounds nice... but there's no special meaning to me yet. one day, i guess it will

today went to school in the morning.... had some sports cca thing.... i think today was more boring then yesturday. more sec2 and sec3 netballers came today. so mr francis and miss quek talked to us until 12 plus. then went to vivo. met ___. saw mrs teo and mrs tang from kellock. said hi! had lunch at macs. went to buy stuff then at 1.50 watched hannah montana the movie. it was great! no regrets watching it. after the show, we went to walk around and bought macs ice cream. walked round a bit more, then went home. at home, called friends, then fell asleep... still feeling tired.... i guess whether i have little or a lot of sleep, it does not matter, i'm still tired.

mood
elated!!!:) thanks to some people!!!! :D

and i hate that i love you....(this line is from a song by rihanna, hate that i love you)

today was not too bad...
woke up at 7. but reached school around 8 plus.. went to the audi with yoges and trisha. then sat down.... miss quek and mrs dehamel started talking... then recess break at 10.20. went to buy food. walked around... went back to the audi... checked phone.... got and sms... then talked for one hour. had lunch break! till 1.10. went to shoot with yoges and arthika. smsed.... went up to the audi. disappeared with some people. came back to the front of the audi. mq said we were late. but we were in the audi before she started talking. so the talking and all started again. then had b div group discussion about some stuff. then had to choose our new captain for sec1. b div remains the same. talked a while more about YOG. then could go home. went home, relaxed, talked to shareen on the phone. dad called and went to tiong for dinner. had tuition, then came back.

sec1 captain
-julia
sec1 vice captain
-shanthinee
-zhixuan
congrats!!!

very tired. want to go and sleep already! tmr must be in school at 8 again. it will be another long day for me....

and i will start ending all my posts with my day's mood..

mood
happy!!!!!! (some people will know why)

wow, this week i am super busy.

yesturday was supposed to meet janice at vivo then come my house for project. but then she not feeling well(hope you are better) so went to queenstown library with lc. met at 1 at the library, borrowed books and then went to ntuc to get water bottles and green been seeds. for lc's project.... then went to the hawker centre and got drinks. went to her house and watched tv. OMG! she looks super cute when she was younger. haha.... her hamster is super cute! its sooo big!!!! and lc, your house is NOT messy!!!!

went home and relaxed. then had tuition! finally i'm not alone... did some new topic(forgot the topic name) but i got most things wrong cos of wrong method. went home and slept!!!

don't know why, but i've been feeing very tired! maybe lack of sleep!

today
had math olympiad competition. it was just a 2 and a half hour paper that i cannot do any questions at all! i am never going to join math olympiad any more. its too tough for me! i regret joining it. after that, went to 7 eleven with sonia and bought lunch(from the bread shop). bought drinks from 7 eleven and heard love story in the shop.:) walked to bus stop with sonia. took 124 home. she went to rachel's house. relaxed at home.... tonight no piano!!!! so can post and on the comp! now watching chinese show. got to go!!!!

OMG! i'm watching click five, live on channel five!!!!!!! they're singing happy birthday!!!!! :)!!!
hmm, i should posting, cos i owe someone a post... but i want to watch the show! so bye!!!!!

one more thing


happy birthday siyao!!!

and

happy birthday ling min!

this week is the last week of term 2! super happy! haha. but tme i will need to go to the dentist again. get something else done to my poor tooth..... well, hope it won't spoil my week.



monday
no pe!:( we went to the hall for the first two periods. checked out leaps thing, achievements and cip hours. 37 hours so far! a bit too little... still, there's time to improve. then went to class and played uno! with some people..... had recess then played uno again. after school had self training! for once we didn't run the track.... but had to run round the court because of shooting. yx was there. and she told us what to do. we didn't play game!:( so sad. had to go to tiong then take 63 to grandma's house. ate, slept and bathed there. then went back to tiong for tuition. was the only one there. did algebric fraction sums. cos my algebra is horrible. went home and slept. was super tired. cos the night before, i slept at 2 plus. then wake at 6.

tuesday
had morning run in the morning. ran 6 rounds but was already sweating like mad! supposed to have principal's talk but did dance instead. so missed the talk.:( mrs rajen came to see us dance and praised ariel.... and the class on our dancing. i think its our last dance lesson for the year. and maybe for life in stc? still played uno today with friends. then stayed back for math olympiad, it was our last lesson. only about 9 people went. and i cannot do the sums!!!! after that, went home and relaxed! had piano at night. and finished my math homework! we had 5 pages to do.

wednesday
also played uno in class..... strange, i never got tired of uno. but we didn't have any real lessons at all. so 2c just played and talked. art was also very slack and boring... cos nothing to do! recess had recess duty. karthika bought fries for me to eat! thanks! after recess, nothing much was done. cos didn't do much. stayed back for training.only 3 sec2s were there. jacob, nurin and me!:) had to run 7 rounds. suppose to be 6 rounds but zx ran extra so we also ran extra.... haha. followed her. then had training. did squareball but had to change to straightline drill cos passes were horrible. played match! and guess what? i was put as centre with jacob.... i will NEVER want to be centre! had to run 3 rounds cos our passes and all were not good. went home after training. met vaddi at bus stop.:) oh yeah, also had class relay system. i replied late! cos of training. at water break, zx said that she received the relay message already. so went to the canteen to sent back to ariel. was late for about 45 min.

thursday
nothing much today. had ptc. was not too bad. when i said that i slept around 12 plus almost every night, my teachers got a shock!
(continued)
won't say much about ptc. was surprised at my results..... its horrible! and karthika beat me! :) for once! haha. next time i must do much better... maybe should consider starting to study soon. then went with mum to tiong. ate at subway. student meal's tuna sub! with two cookies and a drink! nice...... walked around then went up for tuition. only sec2 there.:( the rest were sec4s... after tuition, went home and relaxed!

friday
half day! before assembly, claris, mingfung, peirong, jamie, natasha and i were called up to the hall to arrange the chairs for the teachers. then assembly started and we were in the hall singing the national song, school song and saying the pledge. after that had to carry the remaining chairs out. went down to help ask the sec1s to come up to the hall. some girls from 1c were like 'hey, i know you. you were from kellock right?' haha. went up to the hall again. had nothing to do. so the older councillors said go to join your class. but 2c haven't come up yet so we waited. then asked to go out of the hall to wait. after that mr lau came and said why we were there doing nothing and we should be helping out. my reaction... 'huh? we were told to go out?'.... still the sec2s finally came and went to join our class. had mass..... then prize giving. congrats to you all! from 2c, maisie, candice and natasha got the theresian hearts award! congrats. and y, t and lx also got the same award. there were other awards... nyaa and hockey 6 a side. stc got 2nd. after that, we went back to class and cleared our class. stacked up the tables and chairs. was dismissed.

went to ikea with my, a and jy. ate lunch at the cafe. ordered the kid's fish burger with potato salad and a drink. cost $6.20! saw coach mun there. said hi to her. she was with her friend. we left while they were eating. walked round the whole of ikea and looked in the showrooms and all! it was fun! the show rooms were great! but somehow, we all went 'crazy' over the lights. then a had to go back to school for project. so the rest left and i walked to another bus stop. went home! rested then fell asleep! went out for dinner with family. homed. was on the comp. then called lc! we talked for a long time. then it was 12.40 already. she said 'so late, i better go and sleep!' i said 'what??? its still so early! 12.40am right?' haha. but she had to sleep so put down the phone. then i played my gameboy! haven't touched it for a long time. but now its the hols so i'm playing it! slept around 1 plus, almost 2.

saturday
woke up around 8.30. then changed, got ready to go to the dentist. inserted a screw thing into my 'hole' in the gum... now that place has a screw inside! the procedure was not pain., maybe cos i have no more nerves...... finally got a real filing done! told my mum 'its a good feeling to have a filing in my teeth again, not a temporary one!' it sounded the same to her so she said 'huh?'

went home and read a book.... then slept. passed lunch. woke only at 5 plus. so skipped lunch! called shareen. then went to grandma's house. today only aunt and us were there. ate... there were lots of fruits.... but only ate the banana. my family has a craze on durians. except my cousin and i. so i didn't eat the durians. i NEVER want to eat the durians. (no offence to the durian lovers....) played gameboy and ate chips. saw aunt's new car... then went to petrol kiost and went home.

my post are like once a week now... my blog's going to be dead......

any way, friday night was fun! went to watch night at the museum 2 with family at vivo. the show was from 12.10am to 2 plus am. and the cinema was almost fulll. wow! i want to go for more midnight shows. its fun! and i can sleep later at night.:) i guess the next show i will be watching is harry potter and the half blood prince. unless i can go out before that and watch other shows.

yesturday
didn't do much. woke up around 11am. cos slept at 3 plus maybe almost 4. next time i must try to keep awake for the whole night. i will try that in the hols. saturday was a bit boring. afternoon went for root canal treatment for my tooth. stupid decay had to hit my gums so had to do root canal treatment. now my tooth has no nerves. so i guess i can't feel any pain? haha. but the treatment lasted for about 1h15min. and its not over. must still go back 2 more times. there was no pain cos had a jab. that whole part became numb. now i still can't bite hard stuff using the tooth. if not the whole tooth might just fall out and that will be the end of it! after dental bought some stuff then went to grandma's house. came home kind of early. called lc. she didn't call back!:( o well, nevermind..

today
had tuition then rest and did nothing. seriously nothing. just slack round the house. went out to centre point for dinner. ate at lgs. walked round, got bored and went home!

finally exams are over! but the results are back. and i didn't do well....

monday
had our last paper, math paper 1. was not too bad. then went through chinese and english papers. some 2c people were singing birthday song for szeting in the canteen... oh yeah, happy birthday sze ting, sze yin, yani, yana. two sets of twins! same birthday! chinese compo was great. got 31/40! its the best compo i have ever done. but my total chinese marks are horrible. got a B4. english compo was horrible but the compre was okay. in the end got a B3 for it. went home after that and watched the fifth movie of harry potter. can finally relax!!!!! called twin.

tuesday
its our marking day. so no school!!! and it happened to be st marg's marking day too. they had two marking days... so lucky! woke up at 10 plus! cos the night before, slept super late! went to get some household stuff. then watched tv and relaxed! no more exams!!! didn't manage to do much. just basically slacked!

wednesday
went to school. mostly normal lessons. art was not as bad. was kind of fun! did my art piece. finally finished final art work. and sprayed it with varnish... we had recess with the sec4s. did duty. was told that we weren't doing it properly. after recess we had a cyber awareness talk. then normal lessons again. after school went to chua chu kang to get our council uniform. went with 2c and sharmila with 3 sec4s. then went tiong to eat cheese fries at kfc. walked around a while then went home.

thursday
normal lessons for the whole day. nothing much to say about lessons but it was mostly very slack cos no need to study any more. went through chem and phy paper. i improved for both.:) which ended with an A2. then had d and t marks deproved. got A2 for it. ca1 i got A1.:( went for math and got back paper 1. got below 40/50. then lit just went through the question paper. then went home....

today
after recess, went through paper after paper. science first. then geog. got a B3. then lit. got B4. then math. A2. the best score is 98/100! she only lost 2 marks!!!! paper 2 was full marks. paper 1 lost 2 marks. then ended school. had senior's party after school... went to the canteen, then gave seniors their gifts.... was at canteen waiting for yoges and trisha.... they came then went to 202 to put our bags. went to the canteen to get a drink. talked for a while. then went up to the classroom and celebrated the farewell party. was fun! the 'movie' for the sec4s were great. and then they were giving out some awards or certs. thanks netballers, for the cert(captain of sec1 2008). cut the cake. it was super good! then ate the stuff and talked. took pic with some netballers and some unglam ones. i am still deciding if i should post the pics. after the party, cleared up and went to shoot for a while. then talked with yoges and trisha. went home after that. i think i may be going for a midnight movie tonight with parents. getting ready for it. watching night at the museum 2.:)

s0 that's all for today's post. oh yeah, thanks for being so kind to me about what has happened. and thanks for being forgiving. like i said, i miss talking to you!

hmm, if any one wants to be linked, please tag on the tagboard..... just updated the link lists.. a lot of links are gone.... and i can't find some people's blog... so if you want to be linked, tell me!

today was not too bad... went to the library with dad to get some books. found the diary of anne frank.... borrowed 4 books. all about the world war 2. i want to learn more about it... some are stories under the japs and the rest are stories under hilter's rule of anti jew...

that's about all i did plus studies.... very bored now.... help me!!!!! i have no idea what to do and no idea what to think.. should i or should i not???

i realised that i have wronged you. i am sorrry. reallly, reallly sorry. i didn't know how you felt until wednesday. i thought that you were angry at me. and when i asked you if you were, you said you weren't. i thought it was over, but i wondered why we couldn't return to the old times. and talk like we used to talk, carefree.... and i could tell you anything. i realised that deeep down inside, you think that i don't trust you any more, after what i said over sms that day about the ______. yes, i know i asked you twice about it. and i asked ______ twice too. i am not sure if she feels that i don't trust her. but i finally understand how you felt. after everything that we have gone through, it seemed like i didn't trust you. but i want to say that in reality, i do trust you. i trust you more than i can trust any one else. i know that i can tell you any thing and that you will do your best to help me. i want to go back to the times that we can talk like we used to. i really miss those times and i hope that some part in you miss those times too. i admit that for a period of time, i was a bit angry at the incident. but i realised that it was not your fault nor was it_____ fault. i want to prove to you that i still do trust you but i don't know how to. i wish that this can just blow over. i don't know about you, but this incident has caused me a lot. it has caused misunderstandings among people that were not even involved in this incident. this has become a problem blown out of proportion. but whatever happens, i just hope that you will give me the chance to make it up to you and apologise to you face to face. i also hope that we can return to the old times and talk like we used to. i miss those times. i have hurt you, i am sorry.

you may not know it,but you mean a lot to me. you were there in one of my darkest times and pulled me out of it. you helped me to continue my life when it seemed unbearable. you made me believe that things willl be better soon. that's why i believe that things will get better from now on. i will follow what you have said. there are somethings which i willl forever remember you telling me. you have impacted my life greatly.

i will try to understand if we cannot talk like we used to or be as close as we used to be cos of this and all the other things that i have done. if it has to end here, i just want to say sorry and thank you. for everything you have done for me. good luck!

this week there's a super big event... EXAMS! and its still not over yet for me. the good thing is that this week, only needed to go to school for 3 days. two days holiday

monday
vesak day holiday! no school... so stayed at home and studied. talked to ____ on sms... was studying for geog and science exam! its on the same day!!!! is like geog, then chem then phy??? basically its 3 papers into one day and must memorize a lot of stuff! afternoon i was super sleepy but couldn't sleep!!! cos must memorise.

tuesday
this is the most relaxing school day i have had in school! had english for the first two periods. watched movie. its the village... very interesting. but i watched it on tv before. some of the parts. so i studied! yes, i studied while the movie was being played! then had math. went through the test paper.... had recess, then ve miss koh didn't come. she went to some other class so had self study with karthika and janice. did geog questions in excercise book and went through chem stuff. then dance we again had free period cos no dance! so studied with karthika and janice again. had lit... miss puspalm just talked, we didn't really go through the text... went home! and studied like mad for the science and geog exam! but today we had like 6 free periods?? out of 10! sooo good!!!:)

wednesday
went to school in the morning and went to class then started revising for geog. had geog exam. it was not that bad but i hope i can pass. just a pass and i will be happy! i want to pass geog! recess was about 45 min.... didn't eat recess cos was in class studying for science. science was okay. but i think for phy graph i might have done inverted axis again! so horrible! its a lot of marks lost! the rest of the parts were okay. but chem had a graph? i didn't study for chem graph cos i didn't know we were tested on graph for chem. went home after exam. didn't really study, i just relaxed a bit to unwind. then talked to _____on the phone. for a long time. first time i have been so emotional on the phone! haha. knew a lot of things that i didn't know at first. thanks for telling me! at night, started my studies again....

thursday
no need to go to school. cos upper sec had exam. but we didn't so no school for us!!! i love being lower sec! woke up early, started to study. then called _____ again to talk. bathed and my handphone dropped. i couldn't find my memory card and i don't even know how it looks like! haha. mistoke my sim card for memory card! any way, started to study again. it is lit and math paper 2 on friday so i am not that scared! studied all day!!

friday
went to school and revised the lit notes and animal farm. lit exam was not too bad. but i wrote till my hand pain! i hope i didn't go offpoint as i didn't know how to explain irony properly. then had a 1 hour and 15 min recess??? i love exam time's recess!!!! it is so long! unlike our usual 35 minute recess which also includes prayers so it becomes around 25minutes left? any way, went to the canteen to buy a bit of food. then went up to class to do math sums. math was not that bad but i hope i can get at least 40/50 for the math paper. after math paper had to sign the name list for the geog ca1 marks. i passed!!!! yay!!!!!! i passed overall geog even when i failed the ca1 paper.i am soooo happy!!!!!

after school went to vivo to watch 17 again with shareen and felicia.it was at 12.55 so i had to rush. they got tickets already so i had to get my ticket then go in then we found our seats... saw wq ther with her friends. we managed to sit together. went to buy a drink for the movie but the cinema's sprite tastes horrible!!!!! next time i won't buy sprite already. the show was great! thanks for choosing a great show to watch. then went to toys'r'us to look around and play with the stuff there. in the end bought bubbles to play with. and some sweets. walked to the rooftop where the water this is and went into the water and blowed bubbles there. we were all wearing shoes and shareen and i were in our school uniform as both of us had exam. felicia had marking day so she was the only one not in school uniform but she wore shoes as well. both of themhave already finished their exams. soo good! played around with the bubbles for a long time. had to put on socks and shoes after the water. felt a bit uncomfortable. went to see the pets. the hamsters were sooo cute! i must get some next time when i can. also saw dogs!!!! shetland sheepdog rocks!!!! if i can, i will try to get a shetland sheepdog too!!!! looked at the grooming of pets.... went to daiso and looked round. we decided to go to precious thoughts and looked round. saw rena there!!!! with her friends!!!!! after that it was getting late so we went home.

went home and slept. then went out for dinner with parents. tmr must start studying again. cos monday still have my last paper. math paper 1!

4 may
happy birthday May!

6 may
happy birthday peishi!

7 may
happy birthday Mildred!

okay... whatever i want to say is in the sms already.... so i won't say it here.


hmmm, its like 2.17am already. i think i am sleeping very late!!! stilll, i can't sleep yet. cannot go to sleep. that's why i am posting...

after something that has happened today, it made me realise that the friends i have are great to me! and it also made me realise that i shouldn't be caring so much about _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. fit it in yourself. its two words. the same two words that have inspired me to go on and continue. the same two words that has caused me misery and happiness. these two words have been powerful in my life. but i should put it down. my own friends in class are now more important to me then ever. and it should be more important then these two words. so goodbye!!! no more misery!

oh yeah, about spca, i must write like a journal? i think i'll write it here... there's no where else to write.
tuesday
was there from 3,25 to 5pm. did mass mailing. was pasting the names and address of people on to the envelopes. then when that was done, we did the folding of the letters. went there with kimberly. was there at 3.25 cos we took train the cab but the cab didn't really know the way. :( so that's all we did.
wednesday
was at spca at 3. cabbed down with kim. today we did mass mailing. we did stuffing first. we pu the folded letters and a smaller envelope into a bigger envelope. then counted 50 and tied them together. we did 12 bundles! 2 of us together. we also folded the letters as there was more time. left the place at 5. so now we have a total of 3 hours and 35 minutes.

this week no exams! lesss stress!

moday
had to take temperature after assembly and at 11.20(weird time?) so recess was pushed forward 1 period early. cannot eat much cos its too early. its from 9.45 to 10.20. not used to it at all. still, not that bad. PE, miss mok's last lesson with us.... not going to miss her that badly but will still miss her. geog, nothing much to say. chinese we played a game then half way had to go back to class to take temperature. math went thorugh test paper..... i think.... phy we just revised stuff.

tuesday
math went through paper. english we had free time. recess again was early. then took temperature during VE. quite boring... dance was in the audi and there was no air con! it was our test day and i was scared! messed up the dance. the last part. forgot my steps! NO!!!! had lit. now our teacher is ms jean puspalm. ex teacher in stc and now back! after that went to spca.

wednesday
chinese had listening compre. failed. by 2 marks!!!! and its counted in SA1. then had art. cut out previous art works. to make a collage or something. then supposed to stop haflway for recess but after recess we will clash with 2d so our recess was the upper sec recess. but we were released 5 min early! canteen was super empty. thanks mrs ng! chem we had new teacher. mrs nooh is sick! so mrs deepti is taking over. the other lessons were okay. went to spca.

thursday
went to school early. went down to the canteen with karthika. then the announcement was made that we must have assembly in the hard court. so went to get handbooks and then went to hardcourt for assembly. lessons were okay today.

today
assembly was in the hard court. went to the netball court to shoot but shot in only about 2 plus goals??? no assembly programme so went to class. then karthika, janice and i had a talk with miss koh about something. lessons today was okay. took phy test back. scored well!!! that's about all for today

hmm, you're finally online!!! i guess you're busy. so not talking to me? you know i've been waiting for you to be online to talk to you? and you don't reply? know what? from today onwards, i shouldn't bother about you any more. nor will i bother any more about ____. cos is just hurts me in the end. all these thoughts? all these memories? its gone! let me repeat GONE! cos i want to delete it from me! so yeah, bye bye to these thoughts and feelings and emotions.

so this week was okay... no need to stay back for anything except math olympiad on tuesday. oh yeah, math olympiad will stop for two weeks cos of exam. yay!

monday
happy birthday felicia and gillian! hope you both had a greast birthday!
haven't talked to you both for a long time already... hope we can talk soon.
had PE. miss quek talked about NYAA, bronze cert. then did a quiz. geog nothing much... rest of the day was a bore..

tuesday
dance was okay.
lit miss chye gave us cookies!! thanks a lot. for everything. not only the cookies but for teaching 2c lit. good luck! will miss you.
had math olympiad. questions very tough! don't think i can go for the competition. i am not up to standard. met jenisa at the bus interchange.

wednesday
lessons were okay... not too bad... but still, boring!!! went through formal letter writing for compo. went home and studied for english. yes, there are things to study for english exam! slept cos was tired.... very tired....

thursday
had english exam. the compo part was okay, compre was not bad... but summary was horrible.... bad!!!! you know the break between the two papers was like 1 hour plus! so long! went to the library to borrow books... then went to class. after paper2, had normal lessons. chem was boring. cos mrs nooh is sick.. then we had to change teacher. had math.. revision.... geog got back our geog test. i passed!!!!!

today
had tuition....

and happy birthday leechin!!! you have been a great friend!!!!
happy birthday zhixin!!!! you have been a great senior!!!!

btw, thanks _____ for coming to my class to wish me good luck for both chinese and english exam! thanks a lot. it means a lot!!! (i think you know who you are)

grandma's birthday was great! in the morning, went for tuition first then went to grandma's house for lunch. met a lot of relatives and grandma's friends there. talked to my cousin the went to grandma's room to play with cousin and read. then went home to study and rest. at night went to raffles hotel's fairmount hotel for grandma's birthday dinner. the food was great! but a little too much! 8 courses, i didn't eat all of them. skipped the spicy dish, the potato dish. these were the second and third last dish. ate a bit of the noodles(last dish). then stilll had desert. could not eat much already. then the cake came. we had a room to ourselves, with 3 tables, 26 people. so a movable table was pushed into the room with the cake on top(it was tiramisu cake-grandma's fave). sang the birthday song, then ate cake. the best part of the whole dinner is that i could have unlimited amount of soft drink! cos the booking came with unlimited supply of soft drink for all. i think i had like 5 and a half cups... after eating the cake, we went home.......

my cousin and i were laughing at the sign outside when we came in. it said something like 'time-7pm to 11pm' so that means that we could have stayed there till 11pm. but we left around 10. stilll, we spent 3 hours in the room!!! just eating and chatting!!!! OMG!

okay, that's alll that happened in summary.

pics!!

my cousins and me
my mum's side cousin

mum's side cousin again, unglam!!! haha!!!!(she nearly killed me and my camera after seeing this picture...)

can see my cousin's and my reflection?

table that we sat at.. immediate family of my grandma. includes her bro, 3 daughters, grand daughters and son in laws

second table. extended family

third table. grandma's table and her friends

grandma's cake

cousin and grandma cutting the cake(i was taking the picture)

three of us going to cut the cake

grandma

grandma(the lights were turned off so i used flash)

cake was coming in through the door!

my cousin and me

extended family members

also extended family members

okay, i am going to post a few pics on my grandma's birthday. won't elaborate... on friday then elaborate and the post will come with the rest of the pics.. got to go!

uncle and auntie
the flowers on the table.... after the dinner, i plucked some and brought them home.. haha, the roses are nice!!

my grandma and me

grandma!!!

mum and dad

cousin's parents!!!

cousin's parenst.. only they weren't really looking at the camera... and got a guy behind.... weird right?? the best part was... the guys kept asking us if we wanted more soft drinks!!! haha.

my grandma's brother... hmm, i call him laogu.. don't know how to say in english..

auntie and uncle!

auntie and uncle!!

auntie and uncle !!!

my cousin... she used her jacket to block :( she was fast, so this is the effect!

mum at raffles city, outside the lift! unglam!!! haha!!!

mum in the car..

my mum... outside my neighbour's door!

need to post again..
so today, woke up late. did a bit of homework, then went to the dentist. got a decayed tooth! then came back, did work, rest. then went to dad's office with him. went to pick mum up, then granddad. then went to have dinner with cousin and aunt. had supper too. then went home, did homework. now on the comp, still doing work!!! exams are stressful! but exams are not the root of my porblems now.

you know, i don't know what to do. talk to you? or don't talk to you... i want to sms you, but it feels weird to.. and the replies i get are not what you used to send me... i don't dare to sms you any more. i guess i should just stay away. i am worried about _ _ _. but guess i have to keep it to myself.... i want to continue to trust you, to talk to you. but its so difficult now. how?