so today was the first day of school. it was okay..... but i keep thinking that i am in sec1c instead of sec2c! haha. i guess my classmates think so too. so now our form teacher is mrs rajen but co-form is ms dona koh.

we didn't do much today. its like a bit borin. we had a very boring christmas celebration. then went to have a 45 minute recess(in the end it was only 30 min!). then went to class and talked about school rules and stuff like that. then chose our new cmc. wow. every position has changed. then school ended.

had training. didn't feel the same being sec2 and having 4 juniors training with us. and no more sec4s and sec5s of last year. felt really different.but it was fun. i played as ga again. looks like i will never be able to change position.

then came home with one of the sec1s(i feel so old now). we took the same bus. had spagetti for dinner! great!

what i have gained this year
-new friendships
-new team mates
-new netball team
-new classmates
-new teachers
-new school
-new class

what i have lost
-lost contact with lots of my ex classmates
-some friends

who i want to say goodbye to
-amanda chia
i have known you for not more then half a year. but now that you are changing school, i hope that our friendship will still last. and that you will never forget me. i will never forget you. good luck!
-jenisa
you are really a good friend. good luck for your time in smss and after that. please remember to keep in contact. don't forget our deal on 14 febuaury. good luck!
-khoongeok
you know, you are really a great senior, team mate and captain. thanks for selecting me for the top7 in the trails. thanks for all the encouragement that you have given me. thanks for guiding me and helping me to improve my netball skills.
thanks for everything! i know that in due time, you will forget me. but for now, keep in contact with me! thank you soo much!!!!!!!!! good luck!
-teresa
thank you for helping me to improve my shooting. without you, i won't have known as many shooting skills as i have. thank you for being a good senior. and for guiding me. i will miss you! remember me okay? good luck!
-helen
thank you for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all that you have done for me. and for being patient with me. and for helping me! i won't forget you. good luck!

well, that's all i have to say for today. if i have any more to say, i will put it in my next post. bye!

so now, let me reflect on my year. here's my long story.

i can still remember the first time i went to join my classmates in stc. my class of 41, sec1c! only 3 were from my class last year. one tranfered out to another class and the other become my close friend. then we went to the hard court. and had my first assembly in stc. up till now, i don't know why i wanted to come here. i could just have gone to another school. but i am here now. 41 of us in 1c. then one left but another came. now, tmr, we will feel the lost of another classmate. will another come in? who knows? tomorrow will tell.

met my teacher for the first time. and we were brieved and all. you know, first day stuff. all talk and nothing else.

next came my netball trail. and although i wanted sooo much to join tennis, i ended up in netball. but i do not regret. not at all. for netball, the road to acceptance was tough. there were many ups and downs. but now, my first year in stc netball is over. and i am glad that i joined. i made friends, had fun, relaxed and finally lived my life. all this from netball. it has become so important to me. that i feel it is part of me. thank you stc netballers of 2008! for everything. for accepting me, for helping me, for cheering me on, for making netball so fun, for making me enjoy stc netball, for letting me join in and lastly, for making sooo happy. the activities we did were fun and memorable. from south zone, to milk run, to fun on foot, to the netball carnivals and sports camp, you all have helped me a great deal. and it was so fun! thank you so much!

during the year, i made many friends in my class and as well as outside my class. thank you
amanda-thanks for being my twin. and listening to my problems. you really are a good friend. some things just can't be expressed in words. good luck for next year. in smss. have fun twin! don't forget me!

karthika-thank you for being there by my side all throughout the year. for helping me countlessly and for letting me tell you my thoughts. we had a lot of fun together!

jenisa-thanks for all the laughter you have given me. all the fun, all the joy, all the help. good luck in smss. and do not forget me!

janice-thanks for being such a great friend. thanks for being my partner for most things and for being my buddy! thanks for letting me confide in you!

to all the rest of sec1c, my friends in other classes, my friends in other levels, my friends who have left stc already and all my kellock friends, i want you to know that you have all helped me in one way or another. to list all of you down here is impossible. but as i said, you have all helped me. so thank you. for everything.

to everyone, happy new year! hope that you have a great year ahead! okay, today, did nothing much. slept at 3am this morning. woke at ??? time. then went out to vivo and came back. now on the comp and eating dinner. well, nothing much is happening in my life right now.

any way, thanks to these people who wished me happy new year...
~da yi ma
~sheryl ng
~elsperth chan
~halie wang
~loretta
~yee isabelle
~sonia

that's about all for now. so bye!

today, was at home until the night. then went out with dad to eat. went to ikea and then to imm. then came back at around 9.45. any way, nothing much to talk about.


but christable, happy birthday!
i tried calling you twice but you were not free? so sorry, have to wish you happy birthday online on my blog.

well, that's all for now.

today was fine. i guess. the meeting was okay.... met a lot of people at the foyer then went to the audi. outside was the pics of nz. and i am in 4 of them. yay! any way, had to practise singing a a few songs for the first day of school. looks like we will be singing infront of the whole school. after we recieve our certificates for the nz trip. any way, we are standing by our groups. and i am in the 3rd row. so you can't really see me. yay!

we had free seating at first. so sat next to amanda and nasuha. was talking to them for quite a while.

btw, you-know-who, can you not make it so obvious? i mean what did i do to you? its like i find my group on the stage and then i go up and you go down so everyone follows? come on! i kept a distance from you. isen't that enough? i need to be with my group too you know. and it hurts me. to think that you are doing this. on the outside, i look okay, the usual, the same. but on the inside, itws totally different. well, you won't know that right? as if you know me that well. at least, you helped me find my true friends. friends who would STAY BY ME AND HELP ME! unlike you.

wow, that's a whole paragraph!

any way, grandma came to my house and we talked and all. then we ate dinner. she cooked fried noodles for my family and i to eat. we watched the little nyonya until she went home. and guess what? i baked again. i LOVE baking.
got to go already. so bye!

tmr going to school for nz trip meeting. its the whole 100 of us.

any way, i don't feel like going. its just a feeling. some will know why, others won't. haha, okay, i am talking in riddles again. sorry, but yeah...

today baked cookies again. yay! its fun. maybe will make to bring to school someday. next time i want to try to make a cake. but cookies easier.

okay, nothing much to post about already. will post again next time. now playing neopets! yeah, i am back to neopets!!!!!!!!!!

yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay! this is the 80th post!

i am going to talk about today... well, woke at 8 or so i think? then went to great world and got tickets for the 11.50 show on bedtime stories. ate breakfast with mum. walked around the place and bought a red shirt for myself. then went to watch the show. it was quite okay. a few funny parts but that's about all i can say about it. after that walked around a bit more then came home. watched tv and slept for a while. then watched tv and now on the comp.

holidays are ending soon! btw, saw miss chin(my home econs teacher) just now on bus 100 when coming home. said hi!

that's all for now.

christmas is over! okay, i am going to share with you a poem. i just thought it might help other out there who might neeed it. like it helped me when i read it. so enjoy!

outside you see me smiling
and floating through each day
a little tired, a little thin
but overall okay

but you didn't hear my anguished thoughts
which surface every night
they plague me, huant me, taunt me
untill i'm too weak to fight

and so, next day, i come to school
with deeeply shawdowed eyes
i smile, laugh and speak on cue
living a pack of lies

a silent scream echoes inside,
reaction to my lie-
until with no warning, it erupts
and i crumble down and cry

come fine me, help me, make it stop
no! keep out, go away!
for if you come, i've no control
over the words i say

cab't you hear my silent scream?
decipher what i hide?
so come and ask me what is wrong,
come and sit down by my side

if nothing else then please read through
this tangled web i weave
for you are really not the one
i'm trying to decive

help me, i don't know what i want
i've lost my guiding light
please hold me, let me cry and say
somehow you'll make it right

perhaps, deep down, i know what's wrong,
what keeps me awake
what is the source of my tears
and ever there heartache

but not yet can i face it,
or maybe i just won't
please, someone help me understand-
god onl knows i don't

hohoho! merry christmas!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, most of you have already recieved my sms this morning. so i don't need to wish you all any more. and i went to almost all my links last night to say merry christmas to you on your tagboard. good right? (yeah, right) haha. i am talking to myself. any way, i spent like 80 sms saying merry christmas to everyone. i am really going overboard. i sent to netballers, nz trip mates, ytsa, friends and teachers. next year, i won't be going to that extent already. and guess what? a lot of them ask me who i am! okay, if you read this, don't feel sad. i am not saying names here.

people who wished me merry christmas!
-family
-netballers(no particular order okay?)
~vivian
~nurin
~mildred
~trudy
~nadhira
~teresa
~lixian
~yuxin
~denise
~khoongeok
~helen
~weiqi
~rosabella
~weiqi
~amira
-nz group mates
~amanda tan
~sumathi
~christabel
-friends(stc)
~nasuha
~elsperth
~maisie
~ching yi
~nadia
-friends(kellock)
~felicia
~shareen
~leechin
~dhyvia
~siyao
sorry if i missed out your name.

okay, so today woke at 9.30! ate brownies for breakfast. then went to bukit merah supermarket to buy a lot of stuff. and ate kfc for lunch. came home and baked cookies. made 29 in total! but no pictures to show you..... then went to bath and blew dry my hair. slept for a while. fetched my mum to her dinner. then went to grandma's house to eat dinner. talked to my relatives. played taiti with cousin and dad. watched don't forget the lyrics as i played taiti. then came home and watched the little nyonya before bathing. now on the comp. so that's how i spent my christmas! no church, nothing...haha. its like this every year. no surprise...

any way, this is a long post. so got to go now! BYE!

so on tuesday, went out with my aunt to eat lunch with her and one of her friends with her two children. they are stephanie and ???? we went to vivo and played in the water at the roof top. then went to pageone. and then had lunch at secret recipe. then went to giant and walked around before going home. went home and slept. at night had piano lesson. then slept.

here are the pictures




today
went to school for self training. very slack. we trained in the hall cos it was raining. then had team talk for about 1 hour. went to chamber after that with d,w,k,a,i,g,n. took 65 and went to cineleisure orchard to eat ljs. we watched the return at chamber. super boring and not scary at all!!!!! then went home

pictures!

okay. here is the picture that i owe.

its sunday's picture from the scholarship thing. yes, its only one picture!


my cousin and i don't really take many pictures. sorry

okay, so i am going to elaborate more about the past few days.

friday
went to my dad's friend's house for a christmas dinner. ate dinner and played uno with some of dad's colleagues. then played a game(idk what its called). talked a bit then played uno again until i had to go home. reached home at about 11? then went on the comp and played monopoly with my cousin until i finally fell asleep. and i was talking to amanda online halfway. sorry i didn't say goodbye!

saturday
woke at ??? time. had breakfast. then went to my grandma's house. we baked a butter cake. then had lunch. and then played a few games with my grandma and cousin. fell asleep. woke when mum, dad, yima and an auntie came. then we had dinner. and after dinner, played taiti with dad and cousin. the rest left and then cousin and i watched tv till 12. slept.

sunday
woke at 7.30. changed and went to the nearby playground with cousin, grandma and her maid. played around there for a long time. got a basketball and tried shooting(i could not shoot, sorry) had breakfast at abc market(weird name). went back to grandma's house. bathed. dad picked us up. went home and changed to school uniform. went o get a edusave scholarship thing. met ariel, si yao and rachel there. then went to eat lunch and went to kbox.then went home(this part was in the last post)

today
woke at around 8 plus. got changed and went out with mum and cousin. had breakfast at macs. $2 burger! so bought a shirt and a present for gift exchange. also got 10 christmas cards. some people will know why soon. and cousin bought a shirt. we spent like 3 over hours walking around to get clothes. there was a $200 buget. but i used only 11.95! yay! had ice cream with my mum and cousin. very ex! then cousin had to go home as she had badminton class. walked around a while more. then went home. and i slept till 8 plus! OMG. woke up, went for dinner and then came back. now on the comp!

pics will be posted another day. no time now.

yesturday stayed over at my grandma's house with cousin. we stayed up till 12. then this morning, woke at 7.30. then went to the nearby playground to play then went to a market for breakfast. bathed then went home. got a prize for scholarship. had lunch and went to sing at kbox. until 7. came home and now on the comp.

have a few pictures but as my cousin is here to stay over. so i can't post the pictures. bye for now!

today cousin came to my house. then we went to my dad's friend's house to have a christmas party. we had fun there. but wont say any more. just post pictures.

i won't be saying much. cos my cousin and i are sharing the comp. i got more pictures but i will post another time. and i talk about today another time too.
















ops i got an extra pic inside there. but i will take it out another time bye for now.

today woke at 8. then went to market to collect the fishballs for the bbq. its 170 fishballs! supposed to be 200. that's what yx said at least. now i know its kg idea. and way, came back then my aunt came. and we ate lunch together, played some games and talked then she went home.

dad fetched me at 5.40 and then went to sq house for bbq. had fun!!!!! and guess what i ate. lots of hotdogs(i helped to put them on the stick), mashmellows, nuggets and fries. i didn't cook a thing! haha. i just helped with putiing the htodogs on the stick. and its not as easy as it sounds.
talked to mrs mok about some stuff. i shouldn't be saying what so i won't. had pictures taken before i left. any way, left shortly after that. it was like 8 plus. so i stayed there for only two hours. good enough.

and to khoongeok and helen, thanks a lot!!!!!!!!
to everyone else, thanks for letting me come and have fun tomorrow watching twilight, if you can watch.

now for the photos

mrs mok(my coach-finally got a pic with her) and me!

mrs dehamel(she's pregnant) and me!

our group photo!!!!!!:)

khoongeok and me! <3<3<3

helen and me!<3<3<3


okay, that's all for today. i had a lot of fun just now. now, going to sleep already

i'll talk about yesturday first

yesturday had our second last training. ran the 10 laps and then did passses in the canteen. after that coach came and then went to language lap for some rules stuff for netball. we had to list down all the rules. and we did like 90 push ups cos we didn't really know about all the rules. it was raining outside at that time. then the rain stopped so we went out to play a court game. went home after that and watched a cd at home then went out for dinner and slept.

today
went to school at about7.30. suppposed to be 7.45. any way, listend to music and then did warm up. did passes and halfcourt then played a friendly against marsiling sec. we won 28-4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they only scored 1 goal for each quater. any way, we won!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WON!!!!!! and the score was sooo much difference. the seniors played and i went home. dad fetched me and we had KFC for lunch. now at home.

tomorrow i can go for the BBQ. for 2 hours at least. from 6 to 8. at sq house. i can't wait! yay!

yay! 70th post!

finally, my blog has reached 70 posts!
any way, yesturday went to johor bahru(okay, not many people know that i went because i didn't really tell any one except a few people). we left the house at like 8. then went to the 2nd link with 3 of my dad's colleagues. and you know what? just to get to malaysia, it took like 3 hours plus! then we went for lunch at some place before checking in. then my mum and i walked around the place. nothing much to do and the hotel was not very nice. so next time any one wants to go to jb, don't go to pulai springs. got some snacks and then went to the room and watched tv/slept. had a buffet dinner. and ice cream! the went to room and slept.

today, woke at don't know what time. and then had buffet breakfast. before coming home. it took lest then 2 hours or so to reach home. and now on the comp

pictures of the jam
this was infront of us......




and behind us


the bed we had in the hotel room. with 3 of my stuff toys.....yeah, i brought stuff toys....in case you didn't know, i have LOTS of stuff toys!:)


this is the rest of the room. we had a one bedroom apartment(i think)




and the swimming pool


so that was my holiday! so called holiday. only two more days of training left! OMG. only two more training! and that's all. and holidays coming to an end soon.

;;; plese don't pist me off anymore

please put your name on the tag board so that i know who you are. unless you tell me that you put a different name. like will and somebody. cos i know who they are. and thank you soooooo much. and ;;;don't pist me off any more, i have enough troubles already okay? stop adding to it!

so any way, had training everyday. and wednesday we played against evergreen. guess what? we won! yay! training has been quite good so far. but my stamina is not improving. i need some help here.

and oh, i won't be going to the chalet or party or whatever. cos i am not allowed to stayover, so i won't be going at all. sorry netballers.
nurin, abigail soo, abigail lim, vivian hope that you are/will enjoy your holiday.

so now that leaves only like 6 or 7 sec1 netballers.:( next week going against marsiling sec! how to play?

somehow, i think that coming to my house today wasen't a good idea. only 6 of us were here. thanks a lot for those who came. you know that the 5 of you who came really made me feel good? and i know that of the 4 that didn't come, some of you really couldn't. but i feel that had it been at someone else house, and if i was not there, there will be like 7 people or 8 people. i have this feeling that it is me. just me...... myself. i have myself to blame...... whatever has happened, it is my fault. whatever is happening now, it is my own doing. but i don't know what i did wrong. maybe i just changed without knowing. or is it the other side? can someone please tell me? i can't go on like this forever. someday i might just break down. like just, you know_____________.

nz group gathering

so my nz group came over to my house for our project. we met at harbourfront mrt control station then went to kopitiam then to giant to buy some stuff. we met at 9 but giant didn't open until like 10? so we had to wait. dad drove us to my house then we just sat and talked and ate snacks and talked and slacked for like 1 hour or so. then we wanted to make the sandwich. it was already like 1pm or so. and making the sandwich itself and filming it down took like 1 hour? OMG right? huimin and bettina cooked lunch for us(maggie noodles). thanks a lot. then we started to do our video but my dad's comp could not do it. so in the end, they left at 4 plus. and bettina will do it at home.

pics
huimin and denicia



random!



group picture

from left to right
me, daphne, charmaine lee, huimin, bettina
front row
amanda tan
where is christabelle, sumathi, delcia and kristel
i think i have a good idea why ------didn't come. you can't fool me okay. i can always find out from other people. i have friends out there okay?

our food for the sandwich


well, it was a tiring day. i feel like sleeping now, honestly. and amanda tan, you said that she didn't mind. i think she does right? it was quite obvious. i think it wasen't a good idea to come to my house. really, i mean, her excuse not to come was a bit weird.....and amanda chia, although i told you that i will try to talk to you-know-who(not voldermort), i think i am not really given the chance. sorry, but i may not be able to fulfill this promise.....
okay, only some people will know what i am talking about. only some who have seen me and talked to me a lot through nz trip will know.

hmmmm, can't think of any more topics

yeah, so i have finally ran out of things to say and topics to put on my blog. well, today was quite a good day..... i guess....
first went to clinic with grandma for her bloood test. waited like 1 hour and then go in the room for like 5 minutes. had lunch at a japanese place before going home. then had_________until like 5.(i am not saying what as it is a secret)then went out for dinner and walked around centre point before coming home.

that's about all for now.....don't know what to do and say now.so bye!

i am bored

yeah, you know that this is the 3rd post today? i am getting very bored here at home. can someone liven up my life? call me or talk to me online(when i am) or come to my house. the hols are tooo long for me now. i just don't know what to do now. even when i am online. i just post and go to blogs and nothing else....any suggestions on what to do?

my tagboard

can i have a special request? can you all put your name on the tag board? i want to know who you are! instead of replying to someone that i don't know. please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and it seems that the twilight books are reallly popular. should i read it? maybe not....

my silly comp!

why must it break down during the hols? and on monday, my group is coming over for a project! any way, here is my week

monday
finally went for training. but i need more stamina. and abigail, when you come back for america, please shoot properly okay? training was not too bad. then went home and slacked...i think. i can't really remember!

tuesday
went for training again. then went home.......i can't remember a thing!

wednesday
went to harbourfront macs at 6 to meeet netballers. then went to st joseph's convent for friendly match. almost missed the bus stop. we won!!!!!!! 16-15. one point. then went to harbour and bought macs for lunch. went home. then went out with auntie and had dinner with mum. went to see a doctor with them. then came home.

thursday
my free day! went out with shareen to watch a movie....it is bolt. quite okay...not too bad. had macs for lunch(i think i am eating to much macs). walked around and read some books before going home. then go to grandma's house to eat dinner then home!

today
training again. went to grandma's house for lunch. played with fable(the dog). slept in the afternoon. then parents came for dinner then went home.

that's my week.