got the song wedding dress in my head for the past few days!!!
thursday
no bell! after assembly and duty, went to get the tape out of the YOG performance banner, the countdown one. with trisha and angelica(correct me if the spelling is wrong!). missed the whole of chem. got back chem test. didn't do well! OMG! anyway, no bell. english, went through a bit of summary. was late for history! and still had to do the test! no time! rushed  and rushed... hope i did at least okay for history. ss had another test. both are sourced based. was scared of confusing the comparison for both. ss was not too bad. at least had enough time for it. chinese, nothing much. just talked! and meiyi helped with chem work! thanks! lin lao shi was sick, so no chinese at all. relaxed. ve, we were in class, then went down to the ava room. with 3b and 3d. continuation of last week's ve. anorexia. so horrible. the two women we saw were so thin! and so weak/frail. its a horrible condition. nothing to do at home.....

friday
went to school earlier then i wanted to today. but parents had to go to work early, so no choice. talked to raya, yoges, trisha. all the way till school started. ms quek! why she say those things? those words keep ringing in my head. hmmmm.... had duty, sky looked so dark! then went to choir room for a talk on yog by some general in yog.. long talk. interesting. and best part? we missed the whole of amath. went for chinese. got back the test, didn;t do well either. and we had free time, or as good as free time. just had a compre passage to do, but didn't focus much on it. just slacked. and talked! bio was fun! we did a bit of work. and 'debated' on when our test should be! haha! said wed, or fri! and both days have no school or lessons! haha! but in the end, mr ng said mon. same day as 2.4 and history test. hope it rains on monday??? well, then again, maybe not. went through some blood thing, then got to the topic of jellyfish. jelly fish is not a fish, starfish is not a fish, a ladybird is not a bird? haha! so weird! and to end of bio lesson, we watched some videos on jelleyfish!!!! bio is fun! eng was boring. did summary and nothing else. OMG! its a hard compre and summary! ca2 marks doesn't look good from all the test i've been doing. help!!!! after school, collected bio worksheet and went for ne meeting. have to do some national day stuff. i hope i can watch NDP this year. will be away and coming back on national day itself. just idk what time.
thinking of the way things turn out, we would be having ca next week if not for yog! yay! yog! so came home. and went out again at night. watched street dance with mum at vivo. before that, there was a trilller on some horror show in singapore. and it was spooky. we were at the back row, just two seats, seperated from everyone else. and two people walked in, wispering. scared like wth!!!! cos of them! so... hmm. dancing is fun! and nice! it was a great show! street dance and ballet together! the theme song, we dance on, is nice too! love the show! well, maybe its cos dancing is nice? show was at 7.10. met mum at 6.30, then went to get stuff! had dinner around 9 plus and had no appetite. thanks to yog, for letting us have early dinners on fridays! haha! one of the reasons. reached home around 11 plus. love my family for what they have done. grandma called just now. just the time when i was not in a good mood at home! talk about good timing! :)

can't wait till jc to change cca. something other then sports? but thinking about not playing netball any more, idk if its possible to just put everything down and change. after everything. now without training, hope its more of a good thing then bad. have some time to figure things out, and hopefully get back again? also time to rest. get better okay! need you.

sometimes i wish i knew what you are thinking
that feeling you get when you really miss someone but can't do anything about it. it hurts, but what can i do when you don't open up any more? there was a time when you told me some things, trusted me. will you tell me what's wrong? we were so close then.
isn't it amazing how a person who was once just a stranger, suddenly meant the world to you? lying down at night, thinking about everything, doesn't seem to work much now. the feeling you get when you can't do something. when we first met, i had no idea you would be so important to me.
all these were on facebook, some webpage. exact words to describe what i'm thinking and how i'm feeling.