posting again! i seem to be posting quite a lot this week. maybe cos i'm on the comp the whole day? any way, today throat did not feel well in the morning, but went to school any way. in school, really got a cough. had headache and cough later in the day too. wanted to go home cos was feeling really bad. but then again, its the second last day of school and second last day with 2c. how can i go home halfway?? tmr, no matter what happens, i should still be in school. its the most important day tmr.

so today, talked to people in the morning, did duty, had assembly. went to class, put our things down, went to wash teacher's cars. the whole class. partnered Janice, Elspeth, Qiying. all of us did not bring soap or bucket and was feeling a little too bad to really go and do much about it. headache was horrible. finally had recess, could not eat, no appetite. so just sat and talked! went back to class to get our chinese holiday homework!!!! yes, we have holiday homework!! sad..... arranged the tables and chairs, sat down in seperate groups to talk. took a few pics. discussed the BBQ thing. went to meet Yunhe, went home. the ride home was bad.. could not walk... sigh.... any way, feeling better now! slept and took medicine already! thanks to all the friends who care for me! A,J,E

its wednesday already!!! 2 more days of school, don't want school to end! cos it will be the end of 2c too!

any way, today was alright. assembled in class. went for duty. came back to class. ordered yearbook. some went to do trick or treat. was thinking of whether to go for the ice wall climbing or not. was undecided and have not paid yet. went to the hard court for the portugese dance. had a towel with me, but did not use it. in the end, could stand in the middle cos i did not wear any scarf!!! yay! dancing was alright. remembered aces day! sat in the shade. mrs dehamel let us go for  a recess. went to the toilet with elspeth to change. came back and saw the canteen empty. was so scared!!! rushed up to the audi. talk by ?????? about some stuff. was funny! kept laughing. had another recess!!!! went down to the canteen. but just stayed there in case... so went up to the audi again. talked about our new school... or rather, holding site. and the moving and all by Mr Francis. school ended at 11.30! miss koh talked to us about trick or treat and car wash. talk by mr francis about the module 2 thing. going to miss the whole week of training next week cos of module 2. got our list to pack, details will be on monday.

went to the canteen then to the foyer with netballers. seniors i mean. y, m, z, w, l, k, j. went to tiong. met with f. bought food... went back to school to eat. didn't get food as was not hungry. changed. sec1s finally came. waited and waited for the bus but it did not come. was so bored. in the end, called y. talked for a while. then miss mok said bus got into an accident and if another bus comes, it will take a long time as it was still in bishan. so we decided to abandon the idea of ice wall climbing today. did not know what to do. so in the end, decided to go home.

now on the comp! its 7 already... parents are still not back. in need of entertainment. talking on msn and being on the comp is not really a good idea in the long run.

i seem to be taking a lot of photos. tmr will take more(maybe) cos of ice wall climbing.... any way, today's trip to the discovery centre was okay.. would have preferred to go to the science centre though i've been there loads of times with the school.

so today went to school and talked to people... sec1s were not in school so no duty today! yay! can stand with 2c for once! last time too!! after assembly, went to the foyer. took bus to discovery centre. sat with janice. talked... reached discovery centre. we were brought to this tent thing. sat down. saw a lot of other primary school people there. partnered janice all the way!!!! went with 2c and 2d to this room where we learnt about YOG next year. there was a quiz and the person called resgister numbers. didn't want to be called and thankfully didn't get called.

after the quiz, walked to this gallery thing. it's something something 365. i think they put 2d and 2c together all the way. cos we went inside with 2d too. and the place was a bit too small for all of us. so we squeezed and squeezed. not everyone could see... :( it was about the north, south, east and west of singapore. about sungei buloh nature reserve, our different race groups and where we live, our army and the last thing idk what it is about since i could not see.

we walked back to the place where we had the YOG talk. we had break and the whole stall there was filled with people. so did not buy anything. just took a few pics, went with janice. met up with jiayi and meiyi then anjila. walked here and there. then talked to janice and sat down... after that, break time was over. we went to do a quiz with 2d and 2j. sonia and sheryl ng rocks!!! they were the volunteers for our class! after the quiz, we had a pic with the whole of 2c. we walked back to the bus place and took bus back to school. had to clear locker. went home!

that's about all there is to post. slept for 3 hours just now. was so tired!!!finally feeling tired after several nights of not really sleeping. its a good sign i hope. and something has cheered me up a great deal!!!!

pics of discovery centre!

sonia!!!

maisie and nat!!!!

janice and me!!

zann and ming!

zann and ming!

sonia and kim!

sheryl!

maisie, sheryl and nat!

chingyi, janice and why am i looking another side?? haha!!!!

janice and me!

guess who???

chingyi and some man on the board!

chingyi!!

jiayi and me!!

jiayi and janice!!!!

siew lin!!!

nadia!!!!

sheryl and sonia!!!!

sheryl and sonia!!

i hope that you do know that i really want to talk to you. cos i really do. but i am just afraid you would push me to the side..... or that i may say things to hurt you further? i want to continue this friendship of ours, but i've decided to keep away. maybe its the right thing to do. i guess this week may be the last chance. whatever it is, i am really sorry.

pics from dining etiquette course

nat, peirong and me!!

nadia!

ida!

kim, ming, tina, loret!

nadia, nat, claris, ming, kim!

12 of us!!!! group shot!!!

karthika and me!!

nadia! (this was not taken by me!!!)

ming and me!

siti and me!

abigail and gomathi!

grace and me!!!

abigail and gomathi!

abigail and gomathi!!!

abigaila and gomathi!

peirong, ming, nadia, loret

claris, ida, loret!!!

kim!!!

tina!

grace!

claris, peirong, nat!

the meat(one out of two of the main course)

nadia and teryn!

nat and ming!

nadia

ming, zann, teryn, nadia!

tina, loret, ida!

fish!(one of two choices for main course)

could not sleep till late last night, kept thinking about stuff. worry. any way, today was okay. wanted to talk to someone, but had no chance to. went to school, talked friends. had assembly. then had class family time. did a prayer and theme for next year. discussed the TRLF stuff. went for chinese. miss chiew was not there. for one period, no teacher. was bored. talked to Abigail and Euginia. played Uno with them. then cheat. bell rang for recess. went for recess. sat with ida and kim. janice and elspeth came over. talked for a while. went to the end toilet(at the old gym room) to change with nat and peirong. got everything ready. wore high heels instead of court shoes. went to the foyer. found almost all the 2c people there and tina as well. walked here and there feeling soo hot! met up with some classmates. finally got to put our bags in a classroom and took out small bag. lined up and went on a bus.sat with claris.

reached the singapore flyer. went into this dining place for the etiquette course. sat in fours.... sat with loret, ida and claris. talk and talk. about social etiquette. how to sit properly, how to do this and that properly. it was sooo cold!!! at least the place where i sat was cold!! had a toilet break of 5 min. went out and just stood around. to get warm. went inside again. then had to form groups of 8. went to the real dining area to sit at the tables. was with nadia, teryn, claris, ming, nat, peirong, zann. had another talk about westurn dining etiquette. then had lunch! first course was SALAD!! and to think that i actually ate salad... well, not all of it, just a bit. second course was MUSHROOM SOUP!!! yay yay yay!!!! the type of soup that i like!!!! next came main course. ate fish. it was nice. and so was the potato thing... after that came dessert. was fruits... didn't really like it. did a survey then took bus back to school. sat with claris. abigail was just behind. talked to gomathi and abigail!! reached school, saw a bit of training from a distance. then went home!!!!

a bit tired.... but my mind is not really anything except someone..... hmmmm ,can't seem to get the incidents out of my mind..... help me!!!

i can't take it any more. sometimes i wonder if it really is the right thing to do. i wonder if it was really the right thing to say. i wonder if it was the right time. well, its over. and nothing can change the fact. i hate myself. why can't i just be the person that you want me to be. instead of being the total opposite. and in the end, i've to hide stuff from you. when i tell you something, it hurts you. does this actually make sense? does this mean the end already?

tmr is another day. another day in school. will things turn out alright like last time? will you be able to forgive me again and again for all that i've done? or shall we just stop this crazy thing and leave once and for all. i don't know. i don't know how you are feeling right now. i don't know how to feel. i'm in this confused world of mine. because of myeself. right, it might not make sense, but i can't say any more.

i want to stop.really want to stop. but sometimes i can't. we are sooo different. how we managed to continue until now, its a marvel. i still want to maintain this friendship of ours. but if it will end up nowhere, what's the point? why continue hurting each other?

i was wondering if i should post this up... but maybe i just should. its one in a million chance that this person i am talking about is you. cos i am talking about more then one person here.

today was a slack day. its the usual after end of year exams. cannot find anything to do. cos before exams are always study and study and study which takes up most of my time. if not its resting so that i won't feel bored and sleep halfway studying. any way, its over! so can relax. planning to do my timetable for the hols soon. to get myself studying and not be lazy around the house. well, there is training almost every week. which is good! at least i won't feel bored and be at home in an empty house. with parents only in for about 5 waking hours on weekdays. its so quiet at home. and there is a limit to the amount of time that i can spend on the comp without feeling bored. calling for entertainment during the hols!!!

well, slept at 4.30am today and woke up at 9.30am! a bit early. read books and had breakfast in bed!!! slacked around the house. went out with parents and grandma to anchorpoint for lunch. walked round the place. walked into a flower shop... but its not a shop that sells real flowers. was so nice! and so cheap!!! any way, went back home again and slept! cos was so sleepy. went to grandma's house. sat in the dining room from 8 to 10.30. talked to  grandma and dad. fetched mum from her dinner place and now at home on the comp! its getting boring on the comp. i'm stopping(or trying to stop) my anime craze... but somehow got into jap and korean songs. help!

well, time to post again!
wednesday
we got back all our results... didn't fail any, but also did not do extremely well.
for those who want to know,


d&t-A2(one more mark to A1! i wanted an A1)
art-B3(expected)
english- A2(yay! highest English mark)
chinese-B3(expected)
lit-B4(wanted to get an A but was almost impossible-this is my lowest score!!!)
science-A1!!!!( was happy, but my phy did a lot worse then bio)
math-A1!!!!(did not get the mark that i aimed for but its still an A1 right??)
history-A1!!!!(history rocks!!!!)


so we spent almost the whole day at school going through papers.....:( not very happy with my marks. only happy for English, Chinese and History. after that had training. i don't think i will elaborate on wednesday's training.


thursday
was in the hall for the whole day. was called by miss mok to the canteen for a talk before school started. then went to the hall for oral com briefing. speech competition.... recess.... 1 hour of 'free time' in the hall, actually, it was just teachers who came in and talked to us about our English stuff. had a talk by some police people on crime. went back to the classroom for about an hour. signed final marks list.... saddening.... went home! talked on the phone then went online. went to ikea with parents for dinner! was sleepy around 9 plus and slept around 11!

today
had training! was fun as usual. did not reallly run much but my stamina has dropped and i was super tired. saw some of the dining course people.... well, i still don't know what to wear. and there's two more days to decided.... not very long... will be missing monday's training. after that, went home.... went on the comp, slept, now on the comp again!

i'm trying to reach about 300 posts before end of year.

any way, today was fun!!! woke up at 7.10. ate breakfast then slept again till about 8. got an sms from Ida. changed and all and went to school. could not find the rest and panicked but went to the canteen. saw them there. sat and talked. then went to the green umbrella place. waited and talked about ideas. for the class project. finally miss quek came and we got our tasks. went to the library then comp lab. partnered isabel(or is it isabelle?) for the thing. must find out about singapore. did research and all. after that saw a cat outside HOD room. was so cute! kim, ching yi and i went to play with it! soo cute!!!!!!!!! went back. had to print out the slides we did. went to find the other 2c people and miss koh to discuss. was only with them for half and hour. then had to go *somewhere*.......... for *something*


that's all for today
after that, went to vivo to meet shareen. got tickets for a show. and wanted to go for late lunch. we went in... then realised we had no time, so went out again! rushed to vivo side(we walked to harbour front). then bought stuff for the movie. we went to the second floor of the cinema and had to wait outside cos we were a bit early. finally got inside! the show was great! after that, walked round. went to toys  r us and candy  empire then went home.

pics of today's sentosa trip!

scenery!

tree!!!!!

mum and cousin!

cousin and me!!!!

something on siloso beach

shadow!!!!

another shadow!

some island opposite the siloso beach

water!

another shadow

my initials!!!

my initials again!!!

cousin's half completed heart shape

mum and me! the shot was a bit close!

cousin's finished heart!

a cute monkey! there were a lot of monkeys! this is the roof of the delifrance at siloso beach.