i can't take it any more. sometimes i wonder if it really is the right thing to do. i wonder if it was really the right thing to say. i wonder if it was the right time. well, its over. and nothing can change the fact. i hate myself. why can't i just be the person that you want me to be. instead of being the total opposite. and in the end, i've to hide stuff from you. when i tell you something, it hurts you. does this actually make sense? does this mean the end already?

tmr is another day. another day in school. will things turn out alright like last time? will you be able to forgive me again and again for all that i've done? or shall we just stop this crazy thing and leave once and for all. i don't know. i don't know how you are feeling right now. i don't know how to feel. i'm in this confused world of mine. because of myeself. right, it might not make sense, but i can't say any more.

i want to stop.really want to stop. but sometimes i can't. we are sooo different. how we managed to continue until now, its a marvel. i still want to maintain this friendship of ours. but if it will end up nowhere, what's the point? why continue hurting each other?

i was wondering if i should post this up... but maybe i just should. its one in a million chance that this person i am talking about is you. cos i am talking about more then one person here.