so.. what's happened this week?


tues
was supposed to stay back for nyaa stuff but it was cancelled in the end so stayed back for a while and did math homework. :) then went with york sun and you to practice standing broad jump and sit and reach. didn't actually do very well, so must improve! supposed to do more, but i had to go home. and brought the wrong notes for IH history!!!


wed
pw, well, teacher didn't have time to talk to our group so we just discussed how to improve stuff. civics was good! some army talk for civics. this guy from the army(idk what position) gave us a talk that was really entertaining! no script, just answers to questions. and he knows how to capture the audience. why can't every speaker be like that? dance was self practice and we videoed what we did. but trev said that there wasn't much improvement. :( called you after dance whilst walking to the bus stop with Nas. finally going home with her again! :)


thurs
syf drama got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!! :) drama people burst into class during gp and announced it! so happy for them!!!!! went home with Jodie. :) had extra hist lesson so for the first time, we ended sch at 5.30.


fri
was almost late to sch again! been leaving the house later and later and making Nas later too.but even if we are in sch early, we walk round the school compound cos she doesn't like crowds. one of the few times that we disagree on something cos i like being around people physically though not in a really jam-packed place.
ate something new during break today. finally trying out new food in the canteen. :) didn't talk much during break. but you walked me to my class! :) jodie and the guys sure like to play and tease. is it really cos i'm that fun to play with/tease??? pretended to ignore me again!


dance was again self practice. so was quite relaxed. but i think something's wrong with my right thigh, i can't even stretch without feeling a sharp pain. and the skin from my foot kept peeling. have to wear socks for dance! still, practice goes on. had time to practice all the comtemporary/jazz/bollywood moves we learnt. then had a committee meeting in the canteen. in music and log, a slack committee but full of guys. still a bit uncomfortable. oh, and mr norman taught us the game, red indians, during dance. quite fun!


sat
slacked at home. well, did do a bit of chinese and history. dinner at grandma's was the usual. but we had a cake to celebrate mothers' day! :D coffee cake, something that mama likes.

comment for lit essay.
'This essay had a lot of potential. need to learn how to form good topic sentences which will capture your main points.' that's like, the basic for writing a lit essay and i can't even do it. got a really low mark that pulled down the overall lit score for PR1. so angry with myself! what has happened to my studies???

Glee talked about dreams tonight. what do you want to be when you grow up? what happens when you graduate? what happens after you finish studies? time is ticking. maybe its time to really decide what to do. its time to plan ahead. what do you like, what do you love doing? just remembered this quote that i learnt way back.

'if you fail to plan, you plan to fail'.

oh, and ask yourself if what you are doing is really right.

weekend
was alright i guess. sat was vesak day! dinner at grandma's was vegetarian. yes, one of the rare days of the week that i eat vegetables and fruits! grandma wants me to, i want to do it for her. :D sat was a slack day, went online a lot! talked to you a lot too. disappointed, yes. angry, yes. but you're sorry about it and i still trust you. :)


monday
start of the week and its already a great day! woke up at 7 plus... weather was so nice to sleep so went back to sleep again! met Nas at BM library to study. did quite a bit of work. :) then headed to KFC cos library was too quiet. finally headed down to vivo's macs. had ice cream. both of us had a craving for it. sat down, talked, listened to music and did work. waited for yong xing to come. after he came, we sat down at macs and talked... walked round vivo, then decided to walk along the link way from vivo to sentosa. didn't finish walking, but its fun and we took a few pics! :D


Nas left so yx and i continued walking round vivo. bought bread then sat down and talked. did some memorable things and will always remember this day! :D headed to macs again for your dinner. sorry, made you rush through it cos i had to go home. and you sent me home today. so sweet!!!!!! :) i'll definitely remember today. :D


had dinner with parents, aunt, uncle and grandma today. korean bbq. :D was fun and the food was good!!! :)


okay, got to rush some work.... post more on the weekend!

friday
pw... have to change a lot of stuff. and one important lesson learnt is to not do editing late at night cos there will still be many stupid errors. but i'm thankful to have a good group leader and hardworking group mates. we can do this!!! :) ended lessons at 4. had extra math lesson!


went to sit on the grandstand with jiaxin and jodie from 4 to 5. talked about lots of stuff, family, friends, etc. then went onto jp with them, justin and nurul! :) jx treated me to milk tea cos i told her that i've never tried bubble tea before. just don't like to drink coffee or tea of any kind, but i did today! headed to wendy's where the rest bought food. had fun talking and laughing about silly and random stuff!!!! this group of friends are really fun! :D never a quiet or bored moment with them.


then you came along. actually, told you where we were cos you said you're in jp. and my friends reaction when you came was EPIC!!!! HAHA!!!! went out and talked to you. walked off somewhere to talk. then jodie, jx and justin came over to give me my bag and talk. :) then yx and i walked for a while through jp before taking the train. alighted at lakeside for a while to talk a while more before heading home.


went to swensons for dinner!!! :) love the  brownie! :D

thursday
was quite a bad day. didn't feel that i prepared enough for econs test. econs homework is still wrong(i think). didn't prepare much for chinese compo but after doing it in class, i think it wasn't so bad. and got back results slip. well, i passed chinese but didn't do as well as i thought i would for lit. and my results... are bad? where can i go with a BBC/A? :( and its only the first semester's result. but at least i can say that i'm happy for math and history! pe was okay, did sit-ups, incline and shuttle run, all A. yay! :)


met you after pe for a while. well, more like you came to find me during pe and i was doing sit ups. -.- talked for only a short while then had to rush for cip. we talked more at night though. happy that you trust me so much! :)


so, went for cip with Nas! did house visitation. we visited 4 homes today, 3 malay families and 1 chinese woman who lives alone. they all live in a one room rented flat. and it is so small! they live such simple lives. it makes me appreciate what i have and be thankful for what i have. many people have the misconception that to help the elderly, they just need to donate food or money. actually, the elderly want people to talk to them and enjoy sharing their stories, be it life stories or childhood folktales. this cip is a really meaningful experience.

tuesday

met heather at vivo for lunch. ate a slow lunch at subway cos we talked a lot. then we walked round vivo. got a lot of catching up to do! haven't met her since january but things have changed so much! lots to talk about. also had to find some gifts. YX called me just when we were about to part. talked to you for a while. jiejie said we sounded like we were together??? so after we parted, i called you back whilst waiting for my parents to come. talked lots more! followed parents to see a show flat cos they want to buy a new house but i'm still not too optimistic about it.

i think we talked for almost an hour over the phone? :)

been a great day! :)

schol was okay. lesson were slack since its wed and the timetable is very relaxing. plus, its hist and lit day! but, have to do a lot for pw... :( saw the syf drama performance in the hall after school. it was good! good luck to everyone in drama! :D jj's touch rugby played with rj today and rj came over to jj. had a chance to see leechin! :) :) :) haven't seen her since last nov though we call each other often. miss her! finally get a chance to talk to her face to face, even though its only for a short 15min? had to go for dance(was already very late for it!) she never fails to put a smile on my face. dance was okay. have to learn the hip hop choreo cos i missed it last time and still have to improve the contemp moves. danced to jazz music today, something i can never appreciate. oh well...

thought i won't get to see you today but we did meet outside the hall! :) surprise! then you walked me to the mrt. :) sat and talked for about 30min? fun and memorable time. love how we can just sit and talk non stop about anything and everything. its nice to know someone like you. miss you!!!!

its 12.40 now and going to stay up late again. have to finish pw, econs and chinese. thought i got econs hw right but apparently its wrong so have to redo. haiz.. 3 of my worse/disliked subjects. no sleep tonight!

today was tiring!
ran 2.4 for napfa today. teacher didn't even tell us beforehand so it was an impromptu run. still, weather was good for running. rain just stopped, no sign of the sun, and it was cooling! :) but, i'm still kind of disappointed in my timing. 14.13, just seconds away from an A! :'( should have run just a bit faster! just a little bit!!!!! during break, went to the dance studio with faezah to practice dance. group of friends assumed i went to met you and told Nas that i went off to dance with you? awkward moment when she met me and gave me that smile and said 'i know what you did!'... had extra chinese remedial after sch. :(

Nas and i went back to stc to collect our portfolio and yearbook! yay! :) then went on to vivo to walk around and eat macs burger. :) great day today but very tired. still have lots of work to do! :( and didn't get a chance to talk to you much....

weekend!!
whole weekend burnt by nyaa residential project. ACE in the heartlands!!!! had to do some planning on sat and learn how to spray paint things as well as sort out recyclable stuff. then on sunday, went to punggol gardens where we set up a booth and people came to donate their unwanted items. kids were allowed to spray paint them. but spent most of the time trying to remove the rust from metals. well, either that or slacking. it rained in the afternoon so not that many people came. event wasn't that successful. could have been more well planned cos there wasn't much to do so many of us were just standing around. and then, get scolded cos we were not doing anything. haiz... still, it was a  time to interact with others doing the same project. :) was there from 9.30 to 4. they gave us lunch and free ice cream! :) yay! going to have 2 more days of this ACE thing then the residential project is finished! :D

really tired this weekend. going to have to sleep soon. but still, i don't want to miss out on a chance to talk to you more. :) you know, we talked from about  7 to 12.30 on sat night! won't forget that conversation. :)

12A03! well, most of us! :)

this was at fort canning, 27/04/12

watching twelfth night! :D

mon
pe was bad... ms ho got angry with us. almost had extra pe lesson! ran 3 rounds then did circuit training, the running round the field one. i look weird when running? is it i'm limping or what? hmmm....


tues
normal day. lessons were fine i guess. nothing much happened. oh, just when i told my friends that we won't meet today, you appeared! sat in the canteen and talked for a while. apparently my friends tried to find us but couldn't? went for NYAA stuff then went home with NAS! miss going home with her!!!!!


wed
got back lit and hist test! they were better then i expected! :) had extra econs tutorial and Mr Toh told about 7 people to sit in the front row in class. i'm one of them. is it cos i talk too much? don't pay attention during econs? not doing well in econs? missed most of dance today cos of some chinese talk about videos and how to see the meaning of each scene. didn't get to see you today cos you weren't in sch. friends kept teasing me about you! :P haha! its like, when they see us walk together, they tease. when i'm not with you at break, they ask where are you, why and then tease! maybe one day i'll look back and laugh at all the teasing. its all fun actually! remember kay, i'll be what you want me to be, sister, good friend, etc! and will be there for you! :) well, i'll try!


thurs
went on friday's timetable. met only at the last part of break and you walked me to the classroom. petted my head before leaving. :) class was fun! had some time before chinese so the guys did a bit of mini fencing! one day i'll learn fencing! its cool!!! pw was another scolding by Mr Toh! haiz... started on GPP! had extra math lesson after sch. then do some heartland ambassador filming(its for NYAA). met you for a while before going home! and i'm so sorry, didn't know you called!!! :(


i'm learning a lot as we continue on. please tell me if you're not comfortable with something or want to say/do something!


and my teachers(for pe, econs, pw, chinese) keep scolding my class. sometimes i wonder if its me. yes, we have fun and all at class, but is it too much? are we going too far?

so let's start with today first! :)
lessons were short. but had econs tutorial and lecture on the same day. :( never a good thing. still don't get a thing about it. watched you are the apple of my eye during chinese lessons. and the 'sick' scenes were taken out! YAY! :) wonder what its like to be in a relationship and like someone for so long. didn't get a chance to talk much during break but we still met. :)


had about 2 hours of break before sports meet. didn't feel like eating much... saw you alone and so went to talk for a while. then you found me and we walked round the school before sitting down next to my classmates and just continue talking about stuff. :) Jodie joined us for a while today! meow buddy!!! :D idk why they insist that we are together when i keep telling them we are not! and it led to... weird questions by jx and jodie. LOL! don't say you're possessive cos i think i'm more possessive then you are!


sports meet! :D cheered for jiaxin and tracy! first time being so relaxed at sports meet. no need to lead cheers, no need to run, no need to help out. :) was so hot in the tent! walked round with jodie then went back. YX found me and texted me 'turn around' so i did! walked round the grand stand with him and jodie then went to sit down. a bit later, he came to sit beside me. then we walked round the school before finally sitting down near LT2 and talking. about our schs, lives, embarrassing moments, fun moments. and yes, first time we touched so much in a day? :P


went for the play, twelfth night with my class! :) we all sat together at one area in fort canning to watch the play. we ordered 8 boxes of pizza and many bottles of drinks to eat and share whilst watching the play. someone brought mats too! had a good time with my class, but i still don't really understand what the play is about. also met ayilisha, karthika, weixin and elspeth at the play. :) miss you!!!!!! talked for a bit.


my posts are really getting long. maybe its cos i want you to know what i did and remember the things we did together. thanks a lot for the memories! we did talk quite a lot today. and i remember mentioning something about change. well, i'm really thinking of changing yet again.

today was a good day. met you after school to study. well, we didn't study much, talked more. :) but it was definitely a memorable time and quite enjoyed it. :D

yes, I'm not supposed to be online now so will just post a short post cos i want to remember this day and now, bye-bye!!!!

(edit)
so instead of going home with friends, chose to stay in sch to study with you. :P will never regret that decision! first sign of contact, we made a promise and used our pinky finger! haven't done that for a long time! you influence me a lot you know :) memorable day that i can't forget and keep thinking of. talked about lots of stuff. wonder how we can just continuously talk for so long, but we did!

omg, i think blogger has changed a new format. got to get used to it.

so let's post about the weekend for once.

fri
talked to you at night and really hope that i've been of help to you!

sat
had a busy day! had tuition, then went to grandma's for lunch cos its her bday. went home, tried to do a bit of reading but didn't... used to comp instead. :) went out for dinner with family to celebrate mama's bday!!! :D 2 cakes today. :D reached home around 10 plus, changed then just laid on the bed and slept. for once, forgot to bring my phone into the room so didn't see your text! :( sorry!!!!

sun
woke up around 9.30? slept for 10 + hours. haven't done that for a long time. still, it cured me of my exhaustion. i hope! spent the day at home trying to finish homework...

JJ modern dance family 2012! :)

finally a pic in my post! from today's passing over ceremony. J2s have stepped down, now it'll only be J1s at dance practice!

thursday

slept for only around 4 hours? have to pay for doing last minute revision. sea hist test first thing in the morning. only studied 3 out of 5  countries and didn't really feel like i have enough content. still, the lack of time saved me cos i couldn't finish the essay anyway. history is doomed! :( got back econs test, did quite badly.... but i think my assignments will save me in the overall mark. passed chinese essay :D haha! was so blur during one of the chinese tests. wrote 4A as my class instead of 12A03. miss some people in 4A! did really well for math! my first result and first A in JC!!! :D pe was quite relaxing... went home with Nas after that. going to have to finish up lots of homework tonight. i think sleeping for a shorter time at night helps, i'm not as tired as before at night. but in school... was a bit less lively...
met YX at the canteen today. or rather, he found me! 3 consecutive tables of A03 people and was with jiaxin and jodie at first but they left. so yx and i just talked as normal today. :)

monday
had international history test. studied hard for it, then in the end i kind of wasted the effort cos i didn't finish it on time. was supposed to write 6 factors, only had time for 5. pissed off at myself. its not like i don't know what to write. why can't my hand move faster!!! and econs quiz was no better cos i kind of didn't study hard for it since its not counted in the promo exams but hist is. oh well, what i got is better then expected already. was supposed to do interval training, 6 rounds, for pe .but i went to the toilet so ended up doing only 4. ops!
anyway, no Pw lecture, so met Yong Xing in school. good time talking in the canteen. :)
some classmates came with a guitar and tried to play a song to us. and they knew we were there cos i told Jodie that i was going to meet a friend. and then it spreads like wildfire. then the teasing starts! but then again, its totally worth it. :P and anyway, its all in good fun. :)

tuesday
nothing much... jx went off for her match. had to tolerate --- the whole day. so annoying! oh well, had other people with me. :) day was okay. went home with jodie! :) well, took the train together though we got off at diff stations. nice to have company for at least some part of the way home. did more homework and tried to study for SEA hist test but was so tired, i just slept.

wednesday
have to redo PW PI again!!! :( draft 6 here we come... :'( didn't want to meet yx in the canteen cos of what happened over the last two days. so sorry!!!! but whilst texting you, was questioning my own actions. we've not done anything wrong and why bother so much about the teasing? so yeah, i changed my mindset! had dance today. contemporary with jazz music? okay.... just ended dance and i saw a text from you. :) made me smile! went home with Nasuha. :) yay! we can finally go home together after cca! :D

wed
wasn't feeling so good.... realized that talking does help! :) and helps me to think of possibilities that i've never thought of before. so thankful YX was there for me. :P


thurs
met you during break. sat down outside the bookshop and talked about stuff. and it started to rain heavily remember saying something about hope the rain lasts till 3 plus cos i don't want pe. haha! and i think i made you late for lesson again! sorry! was on the way to L11 for econs with jiaxin and jodie but it was raining so we took the round about route and saw mr toh in front of us. arrived dry! :) yay! lessons were okay i guess. went to the comp lab again for GP and for once we were allowed to wear pe stuff so that we won't be late. pe was fine! :) not that tiring.... received a call from yong xing on the way home. stayed in the station and talked cos it was so noisy outside. surprised by the call! :) something to brighten up the whole day


fri
got the news that it was our last day in L11. so the day has come that we have to leave the comfort of L11. :( time to be nomads(as mr norman says). econs lecture, could only understand the elasticity graphs! at least that's something... ate rice during break. :P told jiaxin and jodie that i was going to the toilet. on the way back, met yong xing so spent the rest of break with him. guess the girls knew that when i disappeared, i'll probably be with him cos no questions asked when i came back. :) just some teasing. haha! :) sch was okay... missed dance today, and it was a hip hop lesson!!! still, had a good reason to miss it.


went back to stc for awards day! :) met many friends and ex classmates. sang the IJ song, miss it so much!!!! and we had a short prayer session too. miss the prayers. it's hard to have no prayers when i've been hearing it everyday for the past 10 years. and miss saying 'thank you and god bless you teachers'. sometimes still say it in JJ cos i'm too used to it. the saying, 'ij friends are friends for life' is so true! well, enjoyed myself tonight. waited so long to be part of the awards day as a prize recipient. met many teachers too. stc has changed, yes, but some part of it will always be with me forever, especially the friends who have journeyed with me through the doors of stc. :) i may not miss stc as much as kellock, but i'll definitely miss the friends!

no time to post much tonight, but have to say a few things...

we're doing hip hop and contemporary for dance!!!!! YAY!!!! :) my two favorite dance types. looking forward to dance even more now.

and today, well, faced some problems. but talked to yong xing after school and later on Fb. feel much better now. :) thanks a lot! :D

i will post more during the weekend.

people are people and sometimes we change our mind...

monday
pe today was tiring! interval training of 5 rounds. but somehow, was so still so tired. where is my stamina??? :( fastest was 1.47, slowest 2.17. at least if i go at this rate, will be able to pass 2.4. :) had dance exco campaigning and elections after school. can't wait to see who the new exco is! went home extremely late. didn't do much work cos was so lazy....
met you a few times today. :) and its good to see you studying in the library. :D don't worry about not calling or not talking much, its okay!!!

tuesday
surprise morning call for YX. :) sorry that i couldn't say much cos i was in the car.... still, good start to a long day ahead. :) class today was draggy and tiring. whole atmosphere was like, tired! for once, met YX at break on tuesday. and made the mistake of sitting at the same table with my classmates. really really sorry for not talking so much and the weird situation just now! getting teased by my classmates already! haha! oh well, its bound to happen sooner or later. had gp in comp lab. yay!!!! then had to stay back for nyaa stuff but at least we didn't end as late as yesterday. oh well, time to do homework! its pilling up... :(

got to make a choice for tmr! as usual, hoping its the right one! :)

weekend has been okay...

sat
went for tuition then prayers. then had dinner at grandma's as usual. :) saw relatives from both sides of the family today! :D

sun
finally managed to spend time studying econs and not sleeping whilst studying it! well.... it took several hours just for demand, supply and price determination. oh well, at least something's getting into my head. and tmr's econs test! :(

wonder why there's still cca 3 times a week next week! and friday's one is going to clash with Theresian Awards day. :( have to leave cca early...

didn't do much today. woke up around 11 plus. did some homework and revision. then whilst studying econs... i slept on the bed. for like, 3 hours? woke up then went out for dinner. was on the way to eat western food then parents suddenly decided to eat seafood instead. so they ate seafood whilst i had other stuff at the same place. :)


it feels weird not seeing YX for a day!

sajc fun fair tmr and i can't go. didn't even go for acjc's fun fair and probably can't go for njc's. i'm starting to wonder what kind of friend i am. promise to keep in contact after leaving stc, but i'm not making the effort. promise to talk but i keep procrastinating and waiting for them to text or call instead of me doing it. after all, if they wanted to talk then they would have already tried to right? but its always me making the first move, so maybe they're waiting for me. wonder how those friends of mine are now. busy? have they made new friends? anything major happening in their lives? okay, maybe i talk to like 1 or 2, but not all! sometimes i'm starting to think if i'm worthy to be friends with someone. like when my friend lost her phone recently during dance, i helped her by lending the laptop to search for her iphone but didn't really physically help her look for her phone around the school. all i did was to try and calm her down. next day, didn't ask whether she found her phone until much later in the day. and she said thank you to me for helping her, although i really didn't do much.

 or maybe it should be time to move on and treasure those around me in JJ. treasure them so much more!

if i could go out on public holidays and weekends, i will!
 lots of people asking me to go out tmr.... most of them are church invitations. have to turn them down every year... :( haiz.... feel so bad!!!!

today was great!!!!!!!!!!! 


met yong xing today for break. :) talked about some random stuff. was quite fun!!!


ended lessons at 2 and rushed to the dance room. got to miss GP and PE today! :) did a last minute rehearsal at LT 5 then did make up. took about 2 hours plus? well, its kind of due to the fact that i don't know how to put the make up on and didn't have the correct colors. so the only thing i did was put foundation and BB cream. thanks to all who helped me with the make-up! it was a lot! like lots of eyeshadow, blush, lipstick, eyeliner and even fake eyelashes! this is much more then prom night and YOG performance. had to get help for the bun... first time using a hair net and so many pins. definitely a first experience!
had dinner(which i didn't finish) and went to change. took lots of photos as there was so much time. did last minute rehearsals by ourselves. finally went to LT2 cos its the holding area. got so bored that some of us went out to walk around aimlessly and took more photos! then... we were allowed into LT5 to watch some performances! :) :) :) saw choir, malay dance, indian dance and the first two performances of modern dance! the drug dance was awesome! couple work was amazing! :) j2 dancers really did well. :D stupid me, tried to get a programme booklet from one of the seats in front (cos we were on the stairs) and i tripped over the stairs! first thought was, omg, please don't get injured now!!!! haha! and it was only like... 3-4 steps away. YX saw me but i didn't see him... :(
finally, the time to perform! think we did quite well and i really enjoyed it! except that i made one mistake and didn't really smile much.  it was so new but a great experience! loved it! and love the white dress that we performed in. always love to see white wedding dresses and now, actually have the chance to wear a white dress! even though its so long its hard to walk.
finally finished everything and parents came to fetch ka onn and me. shocked to see ka onn there today. apparently came to see a friend, but we happened to meet so went home together! :)
have trouble taking off the make up!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!


i'm so glad to have joined dance and had a chance to dance today! this dance really united some of the J1 female dancers! :)