so, pics from Ida's farewell at Sheryl's house...

okay, so these are the pics for now!! there are more, but willl upload another time...

OMG!!! my mood just increased!! becoming happier now!! more hyper. hehe!

so any way. will post more this week cos for two weeks, cannot post! can't wait!!! so today, woke up, tried to do a little homework, then went for tuition. went to grandma's house. ate, laughed, talked. had cake! so many people bought cake today! yiyi bought about 4 or 5 different kinds! then played and talked to yien in the room. slept!!!! that's all!

can't believe i'm getting hyper!

so this week has been okay!

monday
chinese we watched ipman! so fun! won't elaborate much cos can't remember! ss was fun! no studies. bio, mr ng talked long long about our class behaviour. training was okay. 7 sec3s! very few people came. 6 sec1s, 3 sec2s. ms adeline came, mdm zuraida. training was the usual. steps, drills, court work. half court. attendance was bad, but for once, didn't feel like it was a waste of time going for training. with them around, can relax so much and take my mind off things. although others were around and mood was not as good. so walked to the bus stop with jacob, trisha, yoges. tired when came home. knee pain again.  *sigh* slept early.

tuesday
woke up early. had to go to school early for morning training. was okay, very few people. forgot my towel!!!! no bio after school!!! yay!!!!! had ss homework. bio homework. a lot!!!! bio is like reading 20 plus pages and answering SOOOO many questions. ss is two essays and two sets of SBQ. mrs tam!!!! you're leaving us!! why!! so sad!!!!! but she still gave us work so that we can practise. so nice of her. watched a movie. pride and prejudice. was supposed to watch hotel romania i think. but no cd, so the other show instead. amazingly, could watch most of it. thought i'd get bored after a while. went home early. just slept and watched tv. very tired. consequence is that at night cannot sleep! any way, went out to tanglin  mall with yima, mum, grandpa for dinner. at a brownie after that! yay! went home, tried to get to sleep.

wednesday
had a problem waking up. idk why. went to school, more hols homework. continued ipman! it was nice!!!! something to look forward to. school ended at 1.15. idk why so early. and didn't have time to tell the class about the formation. anyway, after school, went with jiayi and xiulin for a while, then spent time with ayilisha, nasuha, helen! talked, laughed, had fun! finallly relaxing. mum came, had ptc. waited a long time. mr ng didn't say too much, but could tell he was disappointed. and so was i! and my mum too! hate my class position!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why so low!!!!!! after that, had to cut hair! it's shorter now!!! went to eat sushi for dinner with both parents! yay!

thursday
what a way  to end school. end term 2! so started out watching stc's got talent finals. all were quite good. isabella, janice and tania was great. a bit shocked to see them up there, cos they used to be quiet. ignatius had only one. band, boys like girls, love drunk!!! yay!!!! go LX!!!!! so any way, alexandra's sister won! forgot her name. but alex was so sweet! went up to stage to hug her sis!!! awwww!!! then had to meet ms mok for the yog banner numbers. and then mr francis for triangle formation. bio, no need for books, watched a movie on sharks. looking for sharks.... they seem so harmless. hehe. explained to the class about yog. had recess. didn't eat cos didn't bring money down. had chinese, ipman! the last part. had math! well, no lesson, just collected hols homework. its a lot!!!! then had lunch, lined up, went to the place.was there by 2.30 i think. so the formations.... did the rectangle, heart, bird. for now, i'm at the middle of the heart, and at the end, corner, of the bird's wing. hope can get there on time!!! have to avoid so many people and run fast. was tired!! went out for dinner with family. came home and finally slept early.

friday
woke up early to finish math tuition homework. and then got a sms to say tmr no math tuition, only chinese!! yay! but did the homework already. went for karaoke. then to shop for clothes for the trip. had to SHOP for so long but got 3 shorts and 3 socks. hehe, after about 4 hours! ate hagen dass ice cream! walked more.then had dinner. came home, did eng homework. then called leechin, now online.

so that's all, have pics, but will be up tmr!

IDA!!!!!

so.... Ida left yesturday. only one day but already missing her a lot! miss those times, miss those memories, miss the fun, miss her! class of 40, now 39. its a feeling of lost, a great lost, like something important is gone and may never come back. like a bag of stones weighing down.

Ida,
thanks a lot for everything you've done. you've been a great chairperson, great leader, and most importantly, an awesome friend. you've helped so much countless times, espacially NZ. that is one memory i will never forget. you were there when i needed someone and you were there to offer help, a listening ear. thank you so much for the birthday gifts too! they are so special! you've been great for the past years that we've known each other. so as you go off to norway, good luck, have fun and hope you remember all the happy memories! will really miss you. bye bye dear friend! <3

i'm crying  now...............

two songs, in my mind, and for once, both about the same person. the first one, taylor swift's breathe. the words in the brackets are the words i wanted to say. and want to say to you. so i really hope you will read this. the second song is i never told you, by colbie caillat. the words i want to say are at the bottom. somehow, i can't express my feelings in words. so the two songs are a bit like examples.

I see your face in my mind as i drive away
'cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

(yeah, its hurting to see you go after all that we have been through, really, its hard. and i still miss you, your friendship, your company. the way you are)
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now i don't know what to be without you around

(and its all different without you around, no one to talk to, and its hard to just talk!)

And we know it's never simple never easy

Never a clean break no one here to save me
You're the only thing i know like the back of my hand

(i thought i knew you and could help you, but it looks like i was wrong. we drifted apart so easily. will you even give me a chance? to be friends again?)

And i can't breathe
Without you but i have to
Breathe
Without you but i have to

(yep, its hard without you!)

Never wanted this never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road i tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

(and yeah, people are people. things don't work out sometimes. but i wish we could get back our friendship together)
And we know it's never simple never easy
Never a clean break no one here to save me
You're the only thing i know like the back of my hand

And i can't breathe
Without you but i have to
Breathe
Without you but i have to

It's two a.m. feelin' like i just lost a friend

Hope you know it's not easy easy for me
It's two a.m. feelin' like i just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy easy for me

( its not really 2am. but there were sleepless nights that i just kept thinking about what went wrong. its really like i've lost a friend, and a close one. a friend who was always with me, supporting me, and now, gone!)


And we know it's never simple never easy
Never a clean break no one here to save me oh

I can't breathe
Without you but i have to
Breathe
Without you but i have to
Breathe
Without you but i have to

I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

(yeah, i;m really sorry for all that i've done. i've not cared about you as i went with others, neglected you, but never rejected you. and now i regret. please! can we just patch up?)

But I never told you what I should have said

No, I never told you, I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
I see your eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me


But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you
(I never should've walked away)
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you, without you


But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you
(I never should've walked away)
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you, without you

so yeah, i miss everything about you. i wish i treasured you when i had the chance. its like we have drifted away to the point of no return. idk what to say to you too... and yeah, i never told you what i should have said. that i really treasured you, and our friendship. i think of all the things we have been through and how we should have been closer. i miss those days. its like, i'm no one without you. i just want this friendship to continue and not end, or be the way it is right now. it hurts inside and i know it hurts you too.

today was eventful. woke up at 8 plus to finish math tuition work. had amath tuition. got a call to come early and get balloons. then rushed to get ready. went to vivo to buy the water bombs and balloons. then took train to bukit gombak. reached sheryl's house at 3.45! alicia was already there. her house is nice! helped out with some stuff. went down to the lounge thing.. function room. the letters couldn't stick on the windows!! irritating. people started coming. went to the mrt with alicia and sheryl to meet the rest. walked back, spent time with ayilisha. ms goh and mr ng came! mr ng drove! but does not look like his car. haha! played taboo. was in ms goh's group! yay!!! we won!! so the other group had to do a forfeit. sing nobody by wonder girls at the poolside.

went back to the function room. ate. talked to ayilisha and nasuha. walked round, talked, took pictures! took videos. wanted a class pic. but didn't take! just wondered around. walked, walked, talked, talked, had fun! ayilisha and nasuha left around 7 plus. was alone for some time. skip to 8 plus. water bombs!! finally!! some people already went into the water and others were pushed in. didn't go in cos had period. saved! but leg was wet cos of water bombs. those that hit the body, didn't burst! so not wet on top at all!!!! yay! threw a few at some people. then went back to the function room for the cake. but the security guard had to come and say that we shouldn't have gone into the water, play water bombs, scream so much and so on. and yeah, sorry sheryl, and her mum! had the cake! it was sooo nice! and looks great!!! went back after the cake. was supposed to leave at 8 actually. in the end, left at 8.45 or so. but it was fun!!

so thanks a lot sheryl and her mum for letting us go to her house. and for being so nice about what happened. and thanks to those who planned this and made it a class thing. thanks to those who brought the food too!! and for attending.....

well, so Ida's farewell. fun and eventful. thanks for everything Ida. espacially that time after nz trip. you are a good friend

today was okay, started out with tuition, then lunch with grand dad, yiyi, yima and mum. then walked round, went home around 4 plus or 5 then slept. went out for dinner at taka at 8. met Twin!!!! saw her again!!! twice we saw each other outside without any arrangements! yay!!! haha! maybe this shows we must meet up! haha! whilst talking to her, saw coach mun, said hi to her. and she smiled! OMG! so nice yeah! so that's all for today. but got another song...

Is this a dream,


If it is

Please don't wake me from this high

I've become comfortably numb

Until you opened up my eyes

To what it's like

When everything's right

I can't believe



You found me

When no one else was lookin'

How did you know just where I would be?

Yeah, you broke through

All of my confusion

The ups and the downs

And you still didn't leave

I guess that you saw what nobody could see

You found me

You found me



So, here we are

That's pretty far

When you think of where we've been

No going back

I'm fading out

All that has faded me within

You're by my side

Now everything's fine

I can't believe



You found me

When no one else was lookin'

How did you know just where I would be?

Yeah, you broke through

All of my confusion

The ups and the downs

And you still didn't leave

I guess that you saw what nobody could see

You found me

You found me



And I was hiding

'Til you came along

And showed me where I belong

You found me

When no one else was lookin'

How did you know?

How did you know?



You found me

When no one else was lookin'

How did you know just where I would be?

Yeah, you broke through

All of my confusion

The ups and the downs

And you still didn't leave

I guess that you saw what nobody could see

You found me



(You found me)

(When no one else was lookin')

You found me

(How did you know just where I would be?)

You broke through

All of my confusion

The ups and the downs

And you still didn't leave

I guess that you saw what nobody could see

The good and the bad

And the things in between

You found me

You found me

you found me, from kelley clarkson. just had this song in my head when i think of some people. that have helped all the way. thanks.

It's been the longest winter without you



I didn't know where to turn to


See somehow I can't forget you


After all that we've been through






Going coming


Thought I heard a knock


Who's there no one


Thinking that I deserve it


Now I realize that I really didn't know


If you didn't notice you mean everything


Quickly I'm learning to love again


All that I know is I'mma be ok


Thought I couldn't live without you



It's gonna hurt when it heals too


It'll all get better in time


Even though I really love you


I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to


It'll all get better in time






I couldn't turn on the TV


Without something there to remind me


Was it all that easy


To just put aside your feelings






If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh


Hurt my feelings but that's the path


I'll believe in


And I know time will heal it


If you didn't notice you mean everything
All I know is I'mma be ok


lyrics from leona lewis, better in time. this song, helped me through some tough times. hope it will help me through this time again.

so.. this week was okay. i thought monday was bad with results, apparently, monday's results were the best few already. really worrying. must do well for the next half of the year.

wednesday
well... got back my highest mark, but also my lowest mark. was disappointed with elit. could have done better. but actually after the paper, cos of all that was written, would do badly. but really wanted more! got a B3! for combined humanities. deproved .... by a lot! then history, got my highest mark. yay! my one and only A1. then amath was bad. failed amath. sad... really sad... have to explain to two tuition teachers now. yes, i've two amath tuitions and still can't pass. maybe need more? so irritated and sad with my marks. chem, was the most disappointed. not even any where near A. low, reallly low B. and class average is 72, highest is 90 plus? anyway, the rest of the day, i don't want to elaborate. came home early cos no training. thankfully, had some time to think and get over everything. pain eyes after that!

thursday
came to school, eyes were tired and pain.... idk why. well... got back emath. also disappointed. not A. just one more mark. never got a B for emath before! bio was better then expected. one and only A2. happy with bio marks. L1 R5 was HIGH! percentage was LOW!

then had YOG. lunch time from 12.40 to 1.30. sec3s were in the canteen. waiting and waiting for the bus to come. so few came. so had to self entertain. talked to nasuha and ayilisha, then went to janice, jiayi, xiulin, karthika, elspeth. played random games? chopsticks, the hitting hand one, scissors, paper, stone, both the hit hand and the spilt one. was fun! the spilt one, kept laughing with them! went to get mp3 with elspeth and karthika. karthika stayed at the bottom of the classroom block. we both went up, came down, cannot find her, then went back to the canteen, she was not there. we shouted her name several times at the classroom block. she was in the toilet... ops... sorry karthika. then we waited, and waited. till about 3.30. or maybe later? got on the bus. sat with jiayi! talked, slept. reached mandai army camp. went to the hall to dance. had buns! then formation on the hardground downstairs. our class formation was great! good job! so we were asked to form triangles. but our class was lost cos mr franis didn't give us the formation! so just ran in like that! then danced. so we waited. and waited, and waited, for the buses to get us. sec3s were the last. and we were the second last class! reached school around 7.15? so long. seriously, bus company sucks.

went for dinner with mum. reached home around 11. slept at 12. almost couldn't wake up!

friday
just couldn't wake up today. cos yesturday was so tiring! today was almost like a waste of time. jiayi brought books to school.manga. nice! was in the canteen with them, the went to class. no key, nasuha got it! went to look for someone and talked. went to the hall for mass. it was okay. then mrs wong spoke to us, then a video presentation. something about a feather and wind! went back to class. 3c joined us. 3a only had 25 people in school. idk about the other classes. did a reflection on an incident about what you did that was opposed by others and something like that... can't remember. went for recess. then to the bio lab with 3c and 3d for about 1 hour or more video on doctor Goh, a video in his memory. was so boring! can sleep! wanted to cos was very tired. had free time in class cos mrs fung didn't come. so free time! talked with friends.

went to grandma's house. had lunch there, talked to her about lots of things. her past and so on. its been a long time since we did that and i miss those times. slept at 4.30. tired out. woke up around 5 plus to watch a show, then had dinner when mum came. was supposed to go for a show with mum but she didn't want to in the end, so now at home, online.... idk what to do now.... don't want to sleep so early. and can't sleep.mind's on too many things again....


i'd never thought you'd go back, but you did, you did
oh baby you left and sailed away alone,
And now you got me trapped up on this island

With nowhere to get home

And I don't wanna go, no
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna go, no
I don't wanna go, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it Solo (solo)

Cuz I was so high
And I was so low
And I don't wanna walk around alone, so lone
And I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

see you give me a purpose

lyrics from solo, iyaz. part of what i'm  feeling right now.. its like.... i don't want to be alone here, so please, don't leave me. wonder if you all know, i've a great fear of being alone and lonely. all this was compounded even more during sec1, the fear of loneliness and being alone again, no one to talk to, no one to turn to, being outcast. i'm really hoping it won't come back. those were really bad memories. but everytime something happens, i think of that year.....