pics of discovery centre!

sonia!!!

maisie and nat!!!!

janice and me!!

zann and ming!

zann and ming!

sonia and kim!

sheryl!

maisie, sheryl and nat!

chingyi, janice and why am i looking another side?? haha!!!!

janice and me!

guess who???

chingyi and some man on the board!

chingyi!!

jiayi and me!!

jiayi and janice!!!!

siew lin!!!

nadia!!!!

sheryl and sonia!!!!

sheryl and sonia!!

i hope that you do know that i really want to talk to you. cos i really do. but i am just afraid you would push me to the side..... or that i may say things to hurt you further? i want to continue this friendship of ours, but i've decided to keep away. maybe its the right thing to do. i guess this week may be the last chance. whatever it is, i am really sorry.

pics from dining etiquette course

nat, peirong and me!!

nadia!

ida!

kim, ming, tina, loret!

nadia, nat, claris, ming, kim!

12 of us!!!! group shot!!!

karthika and me!!

nadia! (this was not taken by me!!!)

ming and me!

siti and me!

abigail and gomathi!

grace and me!!!

abigail and gomathi!

abigail and gomathi!!!

abigaila and gomathi!

peirong, ming, nadia, loret

claris, ida, loret!!!

kim!!!

tina!

grace!

claris, peirong, nat!

the meat(one out of two of the main course)

nadia and teryn!

nat and ming!

nadia

ming, zann, teryn, nadia!

tina, loret, ida!

fish!(one of two choices for main course)

could not sleep till late last night, kept thinking about stuff. worry. any way, today was okay. wanted to talk to someone, but had no chance to. went to school, talked friends. had assembly. then had class family time. did a prayer and theme for next year. discussed the TRLF stuff. went for chinese. miss chiew was not there. for one period, no teacher. was bored. talked to Abigail and Euginia. played Uno with them. then cheat. bell rang for recess. went for recess. sat with ida and kim. janice and elspeth came over. talked for a while. went to the end toilet(at the old gym room) to change with nat and peirong. got everything ready. wore high heels instead of court shoes. went to the foyer. found almost all the 2c people there and tina as well. walked here and there feeling soo hot! met up with some classmates. finally got to put our bags in a classroom and took out small bag. lined up and went on a bus.sat with claris.

reached the singapore flyer. went into this dining place for the etiquette course. sat in fours.... sat with loret, ida and claris. talk and talk. about social etiquette. how to sit properly, how to do this and that properly. it was sooo cold!!! at least the place where i sat was cold!! had a toilet break of 5 min. went out and just stood around. to get warm. went inside again. then had to form groups of 8. went to the real dining area to sit at the tables. was with nadia, teryn, claris, ming, nat, peirong, zann. had another talk about westurn dining etiquette. then had lunch! first course was SALAD!! and to think that i actually ate salad... well, not all of it, just a bit. second course was MUSHROOM SOUP!!! yay yay yay!!!! the type of soup that i like!!!! next came main course. ate fish. it was nice. and so was the potato thing... after that came dessert. was fruits... didn't really like it. did a survey then took bus back to school. sat with claris. abigail was just behind. talked to gomathi and abigail!! reached school, saw a bit of training from a distance. then went home!!!!

a bit tired.... but my mind is not really anything except someone..... hmmmm ,can't seem to get the incidents out of my mind..... help me!!!

i can't take it any more. sometimes i wonder if it really is the right thing to do. i wonder if it was really the right thing to say. i wonder if it was the right time. well, its over. and nothing can change the fact. i hate myself. why can't i just be the person that you want me to be. instead of being the total opposite. and in the end, i've to hide stuff from you. when i tell you something, it hurts you. does this actually make sense? does this mean the end already?

tmr is another day. another day in school. will things turn out alright like last time? will you be able to forgive me again and again for all that i've done? or shall we just stop this crazy thing and leave once and for all. i don't know. i don't know how you are feeling right now. i don't know how to feel. i'm in this confused world of mine. because of myeself. right, it might not make sense, but i can't say any more.

i want to stop.really want to stop. but sometimes i can't. we are sooo different. how we managed to continue until now, its a marvel. i still want to maintain this friendship of ours. but if it will end up nowhere, what's the point? why continue hurting each other?

i was wondering if i should post this up... but maybe i just should. its one in a million chance that this person i am talking about is you. cos i am talking about more then one person here.

today was a slack day. its the usual after end of year exams. cannot find anything to do. cos before exams are always study and study and study which takes up most of my time. if not its resting so that i won't feel bored and sleep halfway studying. any way, its over! so can relax. planning to do my timetable for the hols soon. to get myself studying and not be lazy around the house. well, there is training almost every week. which is good! at least i won't feel bored and be at home in an empty house. with parents only in for about 5 waking hours on weekdays. its so quiet at home. and there is a limit to the amount of time that i can spend on the comp without feeling bored. calling for entertainment during the hols!!!

well, slept at 4.30am today and woke up at 9.30am! a bit early. read books and had breakfast in bed!!! slacked around the house. went out with parents and grandma to anchorpoint for lunch. walked round the place. walked into a flower shop... but its not a shop that sells real flowers. was so nice! and so cheap!!! any way, went back home again and slept! cos was so sleepy. went to grandma's house. sat in the dining room from 8 to 10.30. talked to  grandma and dad. fetched mum from her dinner place and now at home on the comp! its getting boring on the comp. i'm stopping(or trying to stop) my anime craze... but somehow got into jap and korean songs. help!

well, time to post again!
wednesday
we got back all our results... didn't fail any, but also did not do extremely well.
for those who want to know,


d&t-A2(one more mark to A1! i wanted an A1)
art-B3(expected)
english- A2(yay! highest English mark)
chinese-B3(expected)
lit-B4(wanted to get an A but was almost impossible-this is my lowest score!!!)
science-A1!!!!( was happy, but my phy did a lot worse then bio)
math-A1!!!!(did not get the mark that i aimed for but its still an A1 right??)
history-A1!!!!(history rocks!!!!)


so we spent almost the whole day at school going through papers.....:( not very happy with my marks. only happy for English, Chinese and History. after that had training. i don't think i will elaborate on wednesday's training.


thursday
was in the hall for the whole day. was called by miss mok to the canteen for a talk before school started. then went to the hall for oral com briefing. speech competition.... recess.... 1 hour of 'free time' in the hall, actually, it was just teachers who came in and talked to us about our English stuff. had a talk by some police people on crime. went back to the classroom for about an hour. signed final marks list.... saddening.... went home! talked on the phone then went online. went to ikea with parents for dinner! was sleepy around 9 plus and slept around 11!

today
had training! was fun as usual. did not reallly run much but my stamina has dropped and i was super tired. saw some of the dining course people.... well, i still don't know what to wear. and there's two more days to decided.... not very long... will be missing monday's training. after that, went home.... went on the comp, slept, now on the comp again!

i'm trying to reach about 300 posts before end of year.

any way, today was fun!!! woke up at 7.10. ate breakfast then slept again till about 8. got an sms from Ida. changed and all and went to school. could not find the rest and panicked but went to the canteen. saw them there. sat and talked. then went to the green umbrella place. waited and talked about ideas. for the class project. finally miss quek came and we got our tasks. went to the library then comp lab. partnered isabel(or is it isabelle?) for the thing. must find out about singapore. did research and all. after that saw a cat outside HOD room. was so cute! kim, ching yi and i went to play with it! soo cute!!!!!!!!! went back. had to print out the slides we did. went to find the other 2c people and miss koh to discuss. was only with them for half and hour. then had to go *somewhere*.......... for *something*


that's all for today
after that, went to vivo to meet shareen. got tickets for a show. and wanted to go for late lunch. we went in... then realised we had no time, so went out again! rushed to vivo side(we walked to harbour front). then bought stuff for the movie. we went to the second floor of the cinema and had to wait outside cos we were a bit early. finally got inside! the show was great! after that, walked round. went to toys  r us and candy  empire then went home.

pics of today's sentosa trip!

scenery!

tree!!!!!

mum and cousin!

cousin and me!!!!

something on siloso beach

shadow!!!!

another shadow!

some island opposite the siloso beach

water!

another shadow

my initials!!!

my initials again!!!

cousin's half completed heart shape

mum and me! the shot was a bit close!

cousin's finished heart!

a cute monkey! there were a lot of monkeys! this is the roof of the delifrance at siloso beach.

the past two days were mostly fun!

let's start with saturday!
well, woke up late.... cos slept late the night before. was trying to finish a show.. but didn't really work, didn't finish it. did not do much on saturday. was on the comp for quite a while. went to grandma's house for dinner as usual. cousin and her parents were there! but my other aunt and uncle was not. had fun! played taiti with cousin and dad. then grandma came in and they watched boys over flowers. got bored so went outside! after that we all went home. was on the comp again still trying to finish my show!

yesturday
woke up a bit late. watched tv as a favourite show was on. then got ready. went to fetch my cousin from red hill MRT. we went to revenue house for sushi! its THE place we always go for sushi! after lunch, we came home. was on the comp with my cousin. continued the show! and talked on msn. wanted to play tennis at 5 but people were playing so went for a swim instead. for like 1 hour plus? came up and bathed. the swim was fun at first but then became boring as time went on. we had nothing to play with in the water so used our goggles instead. but they sang to the bottom, so it was more of a challenge. went on the comp again. was thinking of where to go for dinner. in the end, went to vivo. wanted to eat at KFC but it was too crowded so we went to the food court instead. we went back. wanted to build a tent in my room. had so much fun! we had about 4 blankets and a lot of pegs. we pegged the blanket here and there but we could not fix it properly. well, after half and hour, we were still not done. rather, we had nothing up at all. in the end, we just any how peg it here and there and it worked! so we had a 'camp' under the blankets(we only used two in the end) and used the comp under it! was so fun! it reminded me of the time when we were both still young and each time my cousin stayed over, we would build a different type of tent. such fond memories... just right for last night.... cos of something! not saying here. but i miss those young times. glad that we still build the tent... any way, after that we used the comp till about 12. cousin went to sleep but i continued on. had to do some last minute stuff alone.....

today!
woke up around 7 i think. ate, packed and bathed. helped to hang clothes then we left. for sentosa!!!! we went to the imbieh lookout and took the bus to siloso beach.was supposed to go to beach station but went to the underwater world one instead. my mistake. we saw the beach and thought it was the beach station. was actually siloso beach. we just went there any way. we played a bit in the water. then build something on the sand. some heartshaped thing. cousin did it. was sitting on the mat on the beach sand. then took photos before buying hotdog and fries and a drink. sat and ate and cousin saw her schoolmates. took the bus back and sat the luge and skyride. we did it twice. was so fun! the luge was great! could drive it properly at least! and fast! yay yay yay! the sky ride was a bit hot. no, change it to very hot! and we were wearing slippers so we were scared it will suddenly drop! was fun though. we met mum at subway then went back to change and relax. went on the comp again. my cousin and i like to use the comp a lot!!!!! after that slept a bit cos was tired. skipped lunch but went to vivo for tea. ate at starbucks. had a scone and a cake!!!!! super!!!!!!!! was very full after that. we went to page one and i walked round the place. twice?? could not find a good book so did not buy. then cousin got a book and we fetched her to redhill MRT where she went home and we went home too!

slept at home. then woke up and used the comp. watching tv and using the comp now! had fun with my cousin!! wish she could have stayed longer. a lot of things happened this weekend. not only did my cousin come, a lot of other things happened. hopefully they can be solved. and A, i am sorry...

lastly, i am watching project hope. prayers to the victims of the floods and the other natural disasters. call and help! it is so sad! wish them good luck! and remember! how lucky we are!