okay, i need to 'rant' again? if its the correct word.... feeling so crushed and lonely....

some say its not over till its over, but i guess its over now.... well, you treat me just like another stranger....(quotes from two different songs)

i seriously hope you remember all those times, really. its been like one year since we meet and become friends and we went through a lot. and of course, things happened which brought back bad things from sec1 but wasn't as bad. all the rumours. but why use me? off all things, use me! again and again! first, i gave you someone to talk to.... another friend in case, then she stopped talking to me but continued with you? then you are going with these people who care so much about you and you complain that they care about you? ever felt the feeling of people who mean so much to you and affect you and they care about someone else then that person complains to you that they care about you? the feeling,  its not only irritating or infuriating but also hurts. can only be thankful we aren't in the same school or life will be horrible!

just so many songs playing in my head to get rid of the emotions now..... really need someone to talk to and who can really understand the things i am feeling now. shall not put any other bad things here any more. for now. one is enough. really need someone to talk to!!!!!!!!!!